April 25 2016

Breaking Generational Curses


generational cursesWhat are generational curses? First let us explore the meaning of some of these terms, so we can better understand what we are talking about. Here are the definitions from Dictionary.com.

Generational: “the term of years, roughly 30 among human beings, accepted as the average period between the birth of parents and the birth of their offspring.

Ancestors: a person from whom one is descended; forebear; progenitor.

Curse:  a) the expression of a wish that misfortune, evil, doom, etc., befall person, group, etc. b) a formula or charm intended to cause such misfortune to another. c) the act of reciting such a formula.

So as you can see, a generational is something that comes from relatives within the past 30 years, and ancestral comes from relatives spanning any amount of time.  A curse is basically ill intent upon another person, released through sin, ignorance or rebellion. So a generational curse is ill intent upon a family generation, or specific members of ancestry, that was released through the sin, ignorance or rebellion of previous ancestors. How does a generational curse come about? Look at what the Bible has to say about being cursed:

Thus says the Lord: “Cursed is the man who trusts in man and makes flesh his strength, whose heart turns away from the Lord. He is like a shrub in the desert, and shall not see any good come. He shall dwell in the parched places of the wilderness, in an uninhabited salt land.”

Jeremiah 17:5-6

According to God, any man who puts his trust in himself in the place of God will be cursed. This is exactly what happened in the Garden of Eden. Adam and Eve decided (with a little help from Lucifer) that it would be a good idea to trust in themselves in the place of the Lord. They knew that God had only forbid them from doing one thing. Just one. If God has given them that much freedom to run the Garden and take care of the earth, then that one forbidden thing must be a very important one. Yet for that moment they were willing to throw away their relationship with God and the freedom He had given them all for a lie. A lie that they themselves could be just like God.

How many people throughout the course of history have fell for the same lie? Thousands upon thousands. Yet it is one of the very first stories in the Bible, written in the very first pages of it. It should be hard to miss the lesson from it, yet here we are, thousands of years later and still putting ourselves in the same place that Adam and Eve did. As our own gods. This is the very root of generational curses. Adam and Eve not only cursed themselves, but the generations after them, all the way until Jesus Christ Himself came and died on the cross. It is the original generational curse.

For some families it may start with the desire for wealth or power. A man may decide to join into allegiance with a force that appears good, but is really completely evil. He will give over his life and the lives of every generation after him. He will do a blood ritual to seal the deal, and will never know the damage he has done to so many lives by his deeds. He will participate in witchcraft, because he believes, just like Adam and Eve, that he will become like God. Or that he will even be a god himself. This is how the devil lies. He goes straight for our pride and ignorance. A man’s pride is his folly, and will cause him to fall, taking his family line down with him.

 Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall.

Proverbs 16:18

Another way a generational curse can come about is fear. A person can believe they have to submit to acts of rebellion or witchcraft in order to save themselves or others they love. They are very convinced of that this is the only way out of a deep problem. They may be willing to go as far as murder in order to find this solution. Yet by participating in this sin, this person has unknowingly cursed an entire generation after them. It is sin, but it is done out of fear and ignorance. When placed in a position of deep distress, a person can be willing to do just about anything to remove it from their lives. Some have even been willing to kill their own family over it. Just look at Cain. He believed he could remove Abel from the picture, thus bringing God’s love and blessing upon himself instead. Deep down Cain wanted God to approve of him, but at the same time he wanted to take on the very power of God, by taking life into his own hands.

There are really numerous ways in which a generational curse can start. For every family it will be different. Only the Holy Spirit can reveal these things to you, so that you can understand why you have been plagued for so many years. When you are under a generational curse, it affects you from Day 1 of your life, until the moment it is broken. For many, that day never comes. People do not often believe in or talk about curses. They sound ancient and superstitious. They are very real however, and the effects are countless.

What are some of the effects of generational curses? Some examples are depression and other mental anguish such as anger or rage; addiction to drugs, alcohol, sex or pornography; being accident prone; financial problems; relationship problems (divorce, family fall outs, etc); loosing things or having things taken from you frequently; having things around you break frequently: barrenness or infertility. These are just some of the examples of curses. Not all of these are necessarily generational/ancestral, but generational curses seem to be the most common.

Our ancestors sinned and are no more,
    and we bear their punishment.

Lamentations 5:7

Are generational curses a punishment from God? I have seen some who use scripture to back up the belief that a curse is a punishment from God. We need to have a clear understanding that God is not punishing us by the things that are happening in our lives. Jesus Christ has taken the punishment for all of our sin on the cross. Therefore we do not receive God’s wrath any longer. Jesus took all of God’s wrath upon Himself at Calgary. If we believe God is punishing us, we are nullifying all of the work Jesus did that day on the cross. If we believe we are being punished by God, it is the same thing that Adam and Cain did – tried to take the place of God in their lives. Are you going to decide that Jesus work on the cross was not sufficient enough for you, and that you need to take up punishment in His place?

Although Jesus bore all of our sin, this did not remove curses that are in place. There are laws in the spiritual realm that need to be upheld. The spiritual laws of Jeremiah 17 state that a man that makes of himself god, will be cursed. That will be upheld by God, just as all the other spiritual laws have been. If you are suffering from the effects of what you believe are a curse, then it is important to understand that it is not your fault. Somewhere in your family line a relative has made a choice to either purposefully or ignorantly bring ill intent into their blood line.

Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us—for it is written, “Cursed is everyone who is hanged on a tree”

Galatians 13:3

How can you break free from a generational curse? In order to attempt to break generational curses you must first know what they are. I highly recommend to anyone who believes they are suffering from a curse to have a complete deliverance session. It was through my deliverance session that I learned more generational curses and which ones I had over my life. I was able to break them free from not only myself, but every generation under me. Yes, you could pray and have the Holy Spirit walk you through a deliverance of generational curses, but it is not going to be a complete deliverance. Most of us have so much oppression in our lives that we are not aware of. Through a complete deliverance you find out about much more than just generational curses. You will find out the different ways the devil has been trying to steal the call of God on your life for his side, and how he has tried to completely destroy your life. You will also find out more about what your purpose is here, and how you can get closer to God.

generational curses There are many wonderfully skilled and trained deliverance ministers that can help you. I highly suggest you pray for God’s wisdom and guidance when you attempt to search for one. Not every deliverance ministry is going to be trained properly to help you deal with the complicated problems that can arise with deliverance. God is sovereign though, and it is in His plan for you to get complete healing. You were made for freedom, not captivity. You were made for love, by the author of love Himself. Not because He had too, but because it wanted You. You are very important and special to your Father. He has not meant for you to suffer, but unfortunately because of the free will of man, you have. It does not have to continue. You have a choice to make. You have searched for Truth and found it. Now you must reach out for His hand and let Him help you.

There is always hope, no matter how hopeless you feel. If you have come to this moment thinking that the problems in your life were normal, or just “who you are” you now know that is but another lie. You were created perfectly, in the image of God, and you have seen the reflection of the devil instead. Ask God to remove the veil from before your eyes so that you can take that next step. You must be ready for what is waiting for you on the other side, because it is going to take enough strength to fully rely on God to keep moving ahead now. You can do this. I know you can! You are loved, my darling. You are not alone. By trusting in God for this next step, you will receive His blessing.


“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord,
    whose trust is the Lord.
He is like a tree planted by water,
    that sends out its roots by the stream,
and does not fear when heat comes,
    for its leaves remain green,
and is not anxious in the year of drought,
    for it does not cease to bear fruit.”

Jeremiah 17:7 -8

April 18 2016

Rejection and The Church

rejectionI have been dealing with a lot of hurt from rejection lately. I would like to tell you that I have it all together. I mean, on the outside I look good: I dress nicely and put makeup on. Unfortunately what we see on the outside really doesn’t say much for what is on the inside. On the inside, I am a hot mess. I am full of pain, anger and all kinds of negative emotions. I can’t even fake being OK anymore. The other day someone asked how I was doing, and I replied “terrible”. Well, it’s the truth.

Aren’t you tired of lying to people about the condition of your heart? Don’t you want to stop playing nice and start being honest? I mean, if you are having a terrible day, or are going through a rough patch, don’t you want to stop telling people you are “good” or “fine” when you are not? I know that we are supposed to have social standards as to how are greetings go, but it has gotten so that we cannot be real with each other anymore. No one has the time to listen to another’s problems, nor do they want to be burdened with it. Since when did our problems become burdens on other people? What happened to the days where we all shared our burdens with one another, helping each other and sharing our lives together? Isn’t this one of the foundations of the New Testament Church? Yet here we are, 2016, and we have fallen so far away from that concept it’s foreign.

Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.

Galatians 6:2

I have felt very alone for my entire life. I was raised by a family that was emotionally unavailable and was abusive. I had no concept of healthy relationships and very few friendships because of it. I was shy, timid, and a homebody. I did not have many opportunities to develop healthy social skills. As a result I kept to myself most of the time, rarely looked people in the eye, and never smiled at people for the most part. I wanted desperately to have friends, to be loved, and to have a social community in my life as an adult. I would have done many things in the name of being approved of by another human being, just to feel wanted and good. Yet I continued to be alone and rejected by the world, as I perceived it.

When I first started going to church, I took all this pain and rejection by man with me. It is impossible to drop baggage that easily, unless God steps in and takes it for you. I did not even realize I had an issue with feeling rejected and unloved at that point. I was functioning in it, and it was normal for me. I was ecstatic to have a place of community, finally. I began to try to reach out to others as we met people, hoping to make friends and relationships that would last. Especially for my children. What I got in return was more feeling of rejection that led to more pain and a big ball of anger. Anger is a secondary emotion to pain. Pain is the root of many emotions. It is much easier to lash out at others, than to deal with our own pain. It got to the point where within a few months I was ready to leave the church. Hurt after hurt was piling up, and I just couldn’t take it anymore.

That is when I let Jesus in, and begged Him for help. I did not want to be so angry at people anymore. What I did not realize was all that anger came from the pain and perceived rejection I felt. I also did not realize that I had already been immensely hurt by the church, and that was causing a lot of feelings of rejection by the people I met at church. When I first decided to give my anger at others to God, it went pretty well. I tried praying for those I was angry at (aka hurt me) and within a short amount of time I saw myself becoming less easily angered by other peoples actions in my life. Then I went from not looking people in the eye and not smiling at people, to truly learning how to love people. How to see them for something more than their behavior in my life, or what they appeared to be on the outside. I would smile at people as I walked by them, I would listen to people when they talked to me (instead of thinking about myself), and I would pray for them and encourage them. It was truly a miracle in my heart.

There should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other.

1 Corinthians 12:25

I thought I was completely changed and I was so very thankful to Jesus for the work He had done in me. But while my anger at those in my life changed into love, my anger still swelled within the privacy of my home. I would lash out continually at my husband and children, and frankly, I was the most abusive to myself. I could never see the way I would tear into myself with horrible thoughts as abuse. It was just how I had always been. And I deserved it all. It is easy to think that we can make changes in our lives without the work, but that is not reality. Yes, Jesus can work miracles inside of us, and even heal us in many ways, but that does not take away the work that we need to do for our part.

Jesus could have taken away all my pain and healed me completely from my emotional wounds and set me free. That is 100% possible. I think I would have entirely missed the point though. The real miracle is not in the immediate healing of my heart and emotions, but of the willingness I had to submit myself to Jesus in the midst of all the pain. To surrender my heart to Him and face my anger and pain, and go to the root of it with Him. In this surrender, I have been able to see God for who He truly is. I have been able to understand why I have behaved the way I have, and felt the way I have. Yes, I could have gone through my life never dealing with the root of my pain and rejection, but what good would  that really have done me? It is through facing our pain that we come to know true strength, love and compassion for one another. It is this compassion that has driven me to continue working on my blog, and Youtube videos and answering emails, even when I can barely function some days. It is because I know suffering, pain, rejection and hell, that I am motivated to help others going through the same things.

That is why I am struggling again as I go to church. I have been in the pit of despair for months now. I have been unable to be that person that smiles as she passes people by, or who offers encouraging words and prayer. I have not even been able to look people in the eyes as much, but instead find myself looking down to the ground. Sometimes I am just swallowed by pain, fear, rejection and even shame. And then I hate myself for not even being able to be that person I know God made me to be. That person seems far off and distant now. It seems almost cruel to have given me such a sweet taste, and then rip it away. But it is not. What God did for me is to give me hope. To show me who He did make me to be, in comparison with who I have been living as. It is indeed a wonderful gift, as bad as it sounds.

Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9 Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

2 Peter 5:8-9

In the meantime, I have pushed everyone in my life away, and especially people at church. I cannot bear the thought of being rejected and hurt again. Yet it seems every little thing causes me to feel rejected by others. It is as if I have open wounds, visible to the world, and that I am completely vulnerable. Yet that is not how the world sees me. They still see me as that well put together women who is kind and loving. I will bet that I have unintentionally hurt others by not engaging with them, and pushing them away. I don’t even say hi to people anymore. I just walk by, looking the other way. It is the best I can do, because often times interaction with others is so painful, it is all I can do to not cry. It is as if my pain is an ocean, and I am a lone and remote island in this sea.

One of the things that hurts the most is knowing others have seen this change in me, and can obviously recognize something is wrong, yet never approach me. There are no consoling words when they see me cry, not hugs when they sense something seems off, no prayer offered when I drop out of my Bible studies, etc. That is where my strong feelings of rejection come in. And isolation. It seems that when you are going through something really tough and you are afraid to reach out, that it is better to stay alone. To keep your problems to yourself so as not to burden others. Or, so you don’t look weak, or foolish, or like a freak. That is how I have felt. Like a freak. I mean, who has a story of satanic ritual abuse? Not many that I have heard. Sounds freakish to me. So when others don’t reach out, and you are constantly looking in, it is so easy to just let the rejection and pain become your reality. That is exactly the spot the devil wants you in.

Why is it that we find it so easy to keep our lives to ourselves, never reaching out to others? Are we all harboring fear of rejection? Is it really easier to live life with a select few people in your close knit circle? As Christians, why are we continually putting on this facade of “everything is great” or “I am perfect”? We are the ones who should be wearing our hearts on our sleeves, our pain not hidden. It is because of this brokenness we ever came to Jesus in the first place. It is because we realized we were not perfect but actually pretty rotten that we were open to Jesus and the need for a Savior.

Don’t you realize that you become the slave of whatever you choose to obey? You can be a slave to sin, which leads to death, or you can choose to obey God, which leads to righteous living.

Romans 6:16

church-family-clipart-people.249123917_std (4)So why are we putting on airs, especially at church? Church is like a hospital, and everyone is sick with one disease or another. Yet we walk around like it’s social hour and no one wants to admit they need help. If you ask me, that is the sickest disease of all. If we all stopped pretending to be great and started living the truth out in front of one another, we would open up a space not only for community to grow within the church, but outside as well. All of the broken people in the world who don’t want to go to church because they don’t fit in with the perfect people club, will finally stop feeling not good enough and start seeing that they are just right after all.

God has a much bigger plan for the church, but it is people like you and me, people who understand the rejection and not fitting in that are going to help make that change. God uses all things for are good, especially the bad things. He loves us to much to let us stay stuck in it, but instead wants to show us how He can redeem it. We have to be willing to walk in the pain with Jesus, and let Him heal us first though. Once we are willing to do that, we can see the immense blessings that will come from it. Those blessings are going to spill out into every part of our lives, blessing many others in the process. If you are going through it, just know it is for a purpose greater than what you can see at this time. Open yourself up to God’s love and let it pour out into your life, bringing healing. It is a painful process, but you will be rewarded in the end. Imagine what healing you can bring to the church, and others going through similar circumstances, by walking in it.

But if anyone has the world’s goods and sees his brother in need, yet closes his heart against him, how does God’s love abide in him? Little children, let us not love in word or talk but in deed and in truth.

1 John 3:17-18


April 11 2016

Healing From Sexual Abuse

sexual abuseWhen I was 13, my sister had her first child. I was so very excited, and was eager to babysit. My sister and I were not close, but she was newly married and living in a nice home with a new baby, so I was hoping to get closer to her by babysitting. Unfortunately, her husband had the same idea, about getting close to me. He slowly began to build a relationship of trust and kindness with me, in order to get close to me. Next thing I knew, he was grabbing my butt one day, as I was holding his infant daughter, and my sister was not around. I was as shocked as I could be, and just stood there stiff as a board, afraid to move, unsure if what happened was even real. You see, when  you are a victim of sexual abuse, you do whatever you can to cope with it, and make it less real, or even OK.

There is nothing OK about sexual abuse, yet it happens every single day in our world, and most of the time it is perpetrated by those we know, trust, and even love most often. It is a sad fact that 4/5 of sexual abuse is committed by someone the victim knows. What my brother in law did  that day was just a small step in the abuse that he was setting up through a trusting relationship. I was scared to death to tell anyone, so I endured more advances, that thankfully never got any worse than that. I told myself it was best to keep it a secret, lest I hurt my sister or disturb their marriage. I was not going to cause any problems for her, especially now that she was in my life again after many years of being gone.

These are some of the lies sexual abuse victims tell themselves, in order to get through. If we make it our fault, or make it OK, then it isn’t really abuse, and it’s not really that bad. Sexual abuse is bad, and it tears the soul of the victim to pieces. It violates them in ways that break them to the core, and turn them into someone they were never created to be. Sexual abuse is not just about being raped or molested. Many people often don’t realize that sexual abuse also includes inappropriate touch; including over clothing, showing sexual pictures or objects, talking about sexual things, getting undressed in front of you or asking you to undress in front of them, showing parts of their body or offering to, taking pictures of a person undressing or showing pictures of themselves naked or undressing. These things most commonly are sexual abuse when it happens between a child and an adult, but it can also be between peers.

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Things like this happen to people all the time, and it makes them feel violated and uncomfortable, but they do not think it is sexual abuse. So they try to brush it under the rug or forget about it, in order to cope with it. Maybe in their home it is even normal, and they don’t know anything different. I had an “uncle” who would tickle me every time he saw me. I hated it more than anything, and dreaded seeing him. It made me feel wrong and ashamed and he did it for years. My parents never said a word about it, and it seemed like it was supposed to be totally acceptable. Except for the way it made me feel. Dirty. That is abuse.

There are many other people who are holding on quietly to secrets of sexual abuse from their past. Maybe it was from a relative or a neighbor or a babysitter or even a boyfriend/girlfriend. Sexual abuse leaves many to keep their dirty little secrets in shame, shoving them deep down until they don’t have to face them anymore. The problem is, even though you shove that pain and the memories into the depths of your subconscious, the effects of the abuse lasts a lifetime. Especially when you never deal with the pain and begin to heal it. When I was 14, my first boyfriend raped me. We had a very sweet and innocent relationship, until he decided he was tired of being a virgin. I had no interest in sex, but I loved him. He made me feel loved for the first time in my life. I told him I did not want to have sex, but those words fell on deaf ears.

He made a plan to come to my house early one morning while my parents were at work and we were off from school. He tried taking my clothes off and was chasing me around my small duplex. I resisted the best I could, but eventually I gave in. I told myself it was OK, because I loved him. I knew it wasn’t OK, because I felt violated and hated every second of it. But I had to make it OK enough to survive it. He loved me and I loved him, so it would all be OK. I was so desperate for love and affection. So broken and alone. It happened over and over again for many more months, until I finally broke up with him. I did everything I could to put it behind me, and tell myself I was “over it”. That is until I ran into him about 10 years later in a movie theater one day. I was with my two young sons; he was with his girlfriend. I was sick and disgusted, and when I got home I broke down completely.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

2 Corinthians 12:9

After years of telling myself I was over it, and it would be OK, I came face to face with the harsh reality of the pain and the trauma that came out of the abuse. I did not want to call it abuse, or see it as abuse, but that is exactly what it was. I was so busy seeing it as dirty and ugly and hiding from it, I could not possibly heal from it. This abuse continued to haunt me for years, as I tried to just cry it out and move on, hoping the wounds would just heal up magically. Sexually abuse kills the soul and deadens a person and their ability to love, feel, give and receive intimacy. It skews their perceptions of pleasure and leaves them unable to create healthy boundaries for themselves. It leaves them full of depression, despair, hopelessness, shame, anxiety, fear, contempt, powerlessness, and so much more. These things weave their way into their lives coming out in belief systems and behaviors. Sexual abuse is never the fault of the victim, yet most often it is the victim who takes the responsibility on for the abuse.

The sexual abuse I experienced there set me up for years of sexual abuse throughout my life. Once you become a victim of sexual abuse, especially as a child, you become promiscuous, sometimes even having sex at a very young age. I allowed myself to be used by many guys for their sexual purposes during my teens years, in hopes that I would get love and affection in return. The lines between sex and love were blurred as I believed that giving myself sexually equaled love. I even put myself in dangerous situations, such as walking down the street in the middle of the night, looking to get into the car of anyone who would stop. I was so desperate for love and I believed that love and pain were the same. To receive love and approval I needed to subject myself to hands of abuse. So that is what I did, time and time again until it finally stopped when I met my current husband. He has treated me with nothing but respect. Unfortunately the abuse I endured has caused so much pain and mistrust, it has caused many problems in our relationship as well. I knew I had problems, but I was helpless to do anything about it.

hearthealI am now in a class for women who were sexually abused as children. This class, (called Wounded Heart, after the workbook), has been a big help for me to understand more about sexual abuse, and the lasting effects it has had on my life. I am on a path of healing, and learning more about who I am and why I am that way. I did not come to this class because of the sexual abuse I have talked about in this post, but because of the sexual abuse I endured as a child. I was molested, sodomized and raped as a child, in the Mormon Church. The abuse was so terrifying that I completely blocked it from my conscious mind. This class has been an outlet for me to connect with other women who have been abused and can understand the heart wrenching pain and anger that I have been in as I allow Jesus to come in and heal me. I really wanted no part of this class in any way, because I wanted to stay alone in my shame, but I stepped out in faith to try it.

The Lord works righteousness
    and justice for all who are oppressed.

Psalm 103:6

A class alone, nor a workbook, are going to heal a heart torn apart by sexual abuse. Only Jesus Christ can heal wounds that run this deep. Yet I would highly recommend a class of this nature to any man or woman who has been the victim of sexual abuse. You need to know that you are not alone. The devil wants you to continue to hide and feel ashamed or at fault, because then he has you right where he wants you. But if you expose those dark places to the light of Jesus, you will see that there is indeed hope there. I know you may have lost all hope, or maybe like me you have convinced yourself it never happened, or that it wasn’t that bad. I am here to tell you that as bad as it feels right now, there is healing for you. If Jesus can redeem my pain and hell, then he can absolutely redeem yours. There is nothing too big for God, the author of all healing.

I have been where you are, and while I am not completely on the other side of it yet, I can see the other side of it. There are days when the pain seems like more than I can bear. There are days when I am so angry all I can do is yell. But that is OK. The fact that I have been willing to see my abuse and ask for help is the biggest step any of us will ever take. I invite you to do the same. You are not walking this out alone. You are not a nameless and faceless person on the other end of a computer screen. You are very real, and your pain is completely valid. Jesus knows it, and He has felt ever bit of it with you. He has mourned the loss of innocence and felt the sting of shame. If you would be willing to step out and allow Him in to it, I can guarantee you, He will heal it. It may not be as fast as you want, or in the way you desire, but He will heal you. Not only will He heal you, He will redeem you. Please, take a chance, and ask Him in. And remember, I am here for you too.

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

Psalm 147:3


April 4 2016

Demonic Oppression Or Spiritual Attack?

soldiers-856034_1920Demonic oppression and spiritual attack are two different things. I did not realize that for some time, especially when I first came into Christianity. As a new Christian I did not hear much about spiritual attack at first.  As I came to see it in my own life and recognize that it was the devil trying to bring me down and undermine me in the plan God has for me, I began to do more research on spiritual attack. I did not even know about demonic oppression at that point at all. It was not until I got further on my walk that I learned that not only are demons real, but they can actually live inside of us as Christians and wreak havoc with our lives.

I had cast demons out of myself and had demons cast out of me, but I don’t think it was really real to me that I could or did have demons until my deliverance session. During that session the ministers addressed the head demon inside of me. You can’t get much more real and in your face than that! I could hear the demon in my head, answering all the questions the deliverance minister asked of it. This was an experience that would forever change my life. It took the work of the devil to a whole new level for me. All the things I had thought were spiritual attack in my life – physical pain, sickness, brain fog, confusion, depression and much more, were not attack but oppression.

Let’s take a look at the meaning of the word attack. There is not meaning of the phrase spiritual attack in the dictionary, so I would like to start with just the words attack and oppression.

Attack:  1) to set upon in a forceful, violent, hostile, or aggressive way, with or without a weapon; begin fighting with.  2) to begin hostilities against; start an offensive against.  3) to blame or abuse violently or bitterly.  4) to direct unfavorable criticism against; criticize severely; argue with strongly.  5) to try to destroy, especially with verbal abuse.

Does that sound familiar to you? The devil is our enemy, and he is the accuser and the father of lies. He tries to destroy us in an aggressive way, and uses blame, criticism and verbal abuse as part of his attacks. Reminds me of one of my favorite Bible verses:

Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. 1 Peter 5:8

Let’s look at some ways that the devil attacks us. Lies. Everyone has that tape in their head that plays out the lies of the devil, over and over again. You are stupid, ugly, worthless, God hates you, you will never go to heaven, you are a horrible parent, you can’t do anything right, you will never be free from your addiction. Those are just a few of the many lies that he loves to torture us with. And most of us listen to these lies and believe them. Unfortunately the devil also uses our life circumstances to back up his lies. He’s no fool. He is not going to spend time telling us how stupid we are, if he cannot give us confirmation through others saying the same things. Or maybe by causing failure in our lives to help us believe the lies.

Another way the devil attacks us is with his accusations. We can see in the Book of Job how Satan takes his accusations straight to the throne of God. He tells God that if Job didn’t have such a great life, that Job would surely curse God. Revelation tells us that Satan is busy going before God in this same manner, day and night, accusing the children of God. So what Satan does to Job is only a taste of what he is doing constantly. He is always looking for ways to disparage us before the Living God. Thankfully we have a Father in Heaven who is merciful and loving, and does not listen to these lies.

The devil also loves to use criticism and verbal abuse against us. We will never be worthy of our God, we will not be good enough to go to heaven, we are horrible sinners and need to be punished. We take these painful words on our shoulders and feel we must work harder to try to live up to an impossible standard that Satan has set, not God. Trying desperately to work to be better, righteous, and worthy. Punishing ourselves relentlessly when we constantly fail. It turns into a vicious cycle that never ends.

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

Ephesians 6:12

Now let’s take a look at the word oppression:

Oppression: 1) the exercise of authority or power in a burdensome, cruel, or unjust manner  2) an act or instance of oppressing or subjecting to cruel or unjust impositions or restraints.  3) the state of being oppressed.  4) the feeling of being heavily burdened, mentally or physically, by troubles, adverse conditions, anxiety, etc.

Oppression shows that the devil has gotten some sort of power to subject a person to being heavily burdened by cruel means. How would the devil have any power in the life of a believer? Well, simply put, people (Christians included), open up gateways for the devil and his demons to come in. We can open it through witchcraft, addiction, sexual sin, drugs, and many other sins. Witchcraft is actually very prevalent in our society, and more people get involved with it than even realize. Once the devil gets an “in” to a person, the door has been opened and it takes work and the help of Jesus Christ to shut it. If you are unaware that you have even opened a gate (which is the devil’s intention) then you can go on indefinitely with it open. Which means the devil has free access to that area of your life.

Another way that the devil gets a foothold for oppression in a person’s life is through generation sin, and through ancestral curses that come down your bloodline. This is also an often unrecognized fact, that is more like a plague than anything else. It only takes one person (usually it’s the man who is the head of his house) to get involved in the occult and then give away the rights to every generation after himself. It is very common. For instance, Mormons, Freemasons, and other cults or organizations (Moose or Elk Lodge, etc) have been known to practice satanic rituals where they do blood rituals in order to gain power and wealth. Usually the males that join have no idea and are lured into the group under the pretense that they are going to belong to an prominent group and be someone important. Within a matter of time, they are selling their souls and the souls of their entire family line.

‘The Lord is slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love, forgiving iniquity and transgression, but he will by no means clear the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children, to the third and the fourth generation.’

Numbers 14:18

Oppression often manifests in physical, mental and emotional ways, such as illness, disease, death, mental illness, depression, anxiety, compulsive behavior, chronic disease, and much more. This is a clear sign that the devil has now entered into a person and is wreaking havoc with their health (mental, physical and spiritual health). Many people get ill or depressed and they think it must be genetic or because they need to change their diet, etc. Not to say those things do not affect us, but it is the perfect cover up to be focused on the obvious thing we see before us, and not think about the spiritual aspect of what is going on. Things in our spiritual life manifest themselves physically. We are spiritual beings in a physical house. So our spirit gets our attention by using our bodies, when we completely miss the spiritual signs. Which happens most of the time for most people. We have been trained away from being in tune with our spirits and the spiritual realm. The devil knows that if he keeps us focused on what is right in front of us, he can keep us trapped in his deceptions.

Spiritual attack is something that comes at you unexpectedly, and can be thwarted or defended against. Demonic oppression is being burdened under the power of demons inside of us. I think it is important to recognize when we are under attack vs when we are oppressed. If the devil can keep us thinking we are only under attack, we will miss the bigger picture of our spiritual health. We will keep fighting a battle that we can’t win, because the battle is now within. When you have oppression, you need the help of the Holy Spirit (and hopefully a trained deliverance minister) to cast out the demons that have gained access, and then close the doors that have let them in. This is especially important if you have been involved with witchcraft or have ancestral bloodlines tied to the occult.

It is important to know your enemy and know how to fight him. If you do not know what the enemy is doing in your life, you are going to continue to struggle with many problems. Jesus absolutely has given us power and authority to trample over Satan, but there are laws in the spiritual realm. Just as the devil went to God to attack Job, he also went to God to attack Peter. At that point in time, Jesus knew that Peter was not prepared to go into a battle of that level. He still had so much to learn. Yet because he had the intimate relationship with Jesus, Peter was able to hear Jesus tell him the plans Satan had for him. We must partner with God to fight these battles, and we must learn and strengthen ourselves in order to prevail. Yes, at the last day, Satan will be defeated when Jesus returns. But until then we have a job to learn about how we are to partner with God to fight him, in order to strengthen our brothers and sisters, and help spread the Gospel message to those dying around us.

But I am afraid that as the serpent deceived Eve by his cunning, your thoughts will be led astray from a sincere and pure devotion to Christ.

2 Corinthians 11:3

Many of us are being held hostage. We are like prisoners in a gilded cage. We have convinced ourselves that our imprisonment is not really a bad thing, and then make ourselves perfectly comfortable in it. Because facing the root cause of what brought us to this cell in the first place, is far more painful than the bondage we are suffering. This is not the life God has called you too. He has not called you to suffer demonic oppression. He has not called you to be depressed, or addicted to drugs, or living with a chronic disease. It does not help you in any way to suffer, because there is no righteous cause for it. Yes, bad things happen to good people, and that is not God’s plan either. He has a remedy for it though – freedom through Jesus Christ. Freedom is not just a sinner’s prayer, but a deliverance and healing so we can fully surrender to the will of God. We need to heal our souls and free ourselves from bondage so we can align ourselves with God and the call He has for our lives.

demonic oppressionGod has called you out, before time began. He knew you and created you for a special purpose. Do you want to live your life and fulfill that call, or do you want to stay in your gilded cage where it appears safe? Freedom in this life is not easy, but God never said it would be. He told us it would be difficult and full of trials, but He also promised us that He would be right there with us. God has so much to teach you! He is preparing you right now in this very moment! Every single  thing in this life that you have gone through will be used for your good! And in return it will benefit the Kingdom! God does not waste anything, especially that bad things we have to experience. Let you life be a living sacrifice to God, in full surrender. Experience His presence and love and new and inspiring ways. He is right here with you, right now, in this very moment. Calling to you. Whether you can hear it or not. He is whispering in your ear, with passion and adoration, because you are His dear child.

The devil has had his day. And now it is done. Give in no more to the temptation to sin and stay in the hell of your own creation. The devil may have helped you open up the door to his pit, but only you can choose to stay in it. In Christ, you are free. Now live it. Seek first the Kingdom of God, and see just what God has in store for you!

Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.  And hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts through the Holy Spirit, who has been given to us.

Romans 5:3