November 28 2016

Have You Been Indoctrinated Into The Occult?

occult indoctrinationGrowing up I was not a happy child. I was always very lonely and sad. Yet as an adult I would never have looked back and told you there was something really terrible about my life. For me it seemed pretty average. I had a mom and a dad, as well as a sister. My parents both worked and I went to school every day. I always had a warm home and bed; nice clothes to wear and food on the table. I was never lacking in any of those basics needs. My parents fought a lot and were very angry all the time. We went camping during the summer, or to the lake to swim. I loved my family the best I could.

Looking back on my life I can start to put the pieces together. I can see things that I could not see as a child. I have an understanding of the world and how it works that I did not have as a child. As a child, many things were hidden from me, and it was not until I began looking that I began to have answers. I would never have told you I grew up in the occult and participated in satanic rituals as a child. Never. These was knowledge that was so well hidden from me that only God could reveal it to me.

When you look deeper into the meaning of the word occult, you will see that it goes much deeper than we even realize.

1. of or relating to magic, astrology, or any system claiming use or knowledge of secret or supernatural powers or agencies.

2. beyond the range of ordinary knowledge or understanding; mysterious.

3. secret; disclosed or communicated only to the initiated.

4. hidden from view


1. to shut off from view or exposure :  cover, eclipse

So as you can see the occult can be something you are a part of and never even know, unless you have been given the right or power to know about it. That is how I lived my whole life in the occult and had no idea. Many people, like myself, have been indoctrinated into the occult with no knowledge of it whatsoever. They live their whole lives with hidden connections within them to the occult and this knowledge remains hidden from them. Many people would rather choose not to know. I can completely understand why.

There are many ways in which a person can be indoctrinated into the occult. You see, the devil will stop at nothing to rise up his own army that will come against Christ on the Last Day. He started generations ago and has planted a seed inside one that would carry into millions. That seed started with Adam and because of his choice, every blood line became tainted by sin.

How can a Christian be in the occult and not know? It starts with your blood line. Thousands of men have given over the right to their entire heritage and blood line through the occult. All general fraternities, such as Masons, Shriners or any other order, brotherhood, fellowship or group of knights or sons are all occult. Not to mention all lodges such as Elk and Moose and the Rotary Club. All these groups do satanic rituals and give allegiance to false gods and goddesses.

Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one’s youth. Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them! He shall not be put to shame when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.

Psalm 127:3-5

Then there are the cults, such as Mormons, Jehovah’s Witnesses, Seventh Day Adventists, Scientologists and many others. These groups all worship false gods and goddess also, and do satanic rituals. Then there are religions that worship false gods and goddesses, such as Hinduism, Buddhism, Muslim, and many more. Yes, even Catholicism worships false gods and goddesses.

These are all groups that look good and positive on the outside. They are high functioning members of society that do good. Then we have groups that are openly a part of the occult, such as all groups of witches and pagans, as well as new age and satanists. This is such a small list of the number of groups that are a cover for the devils schemes. There are many others that I have not listed. This does not exclude Christians by any means. There are many Christians who are in a fraternal order such as Masons and have great influence over our churches today. These men have helped to bring the occult into the Christian church.

If you have had one family member in any of the groups I listed, you have a blood line in the occult. Each and every male member of these groups is indoctrinated in and has to give blood rights over to every generation after him in order to be accepted. Many of them have no idea of what they are really doing. Most men would never willingly cause these kind of harm to anyone else. The devil is extremely deceptive, and knows exactly how to draw people in, causing them to believe what they are doing is indeed good. Just like he did with Adam and Eve.

I am not saying that every single person in the occult has been a party to the same type of satanic ritual abuse I have been. However, there are many people out there, who, just as I was, were a part of this and had no memory whatsoever. It is only Jesus Christ Himself that reveals these things to us, when and if we are ready to know it. The fact is, that many more people who have no been physically a part of satanic rituals, have actually been a part of astral rituals.

But if any nation will bow its neck under the yoke of the king of Babylon and serve him, I will let that nation remain in its own land to till it and to live there, declares the Lord.

Jeremiah 27:11

We need to understand that the devil is using this as his fail safe. He wants to ensure that he will have as many turned against God as he possibly can. If we have parts of us that has allegiance with the occult, then it will be that much easier for him to use us in his own army. That is why it is so very important that we begin to remove the veils that have been placed before our eyes so we can allow God to bring us into alignment with who He created us to be.

Being connected to the occult sounds extremely scary. It sounds like you are evil or bad and that God is going to be very angry with you. It also sounds like you are powerless in helpless in an evil world. This is exactly what the devil would love you to believe, and exactly how he keeps it hidden from so many. We believe these hidden connections make us evil, and that we need to continue to keep them hidden, so we can live without fear or shame. Fear and shame are huge motivating factors for us. That is where grace comes in.

The fear of exposure and the shame of what we believe to be true about us is what keeps us in the dark. Staying in the dark is what is actually giving the devil the power within you. It’s not the connections to the occult itself that are dangerous, it’s the ignorance of them. Jesus has all power and authority over each one of these connections. So if you know about these connections, then Jesus can break them and set you free. If you see where you have hidden darkness within you, then you can expose it to the light of Truth; Jesus Christ.

Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

John 8:32

In Hosea 4:6, God tells us that we are being destroyed because of a lack of knowledge. He is not referring to wordly knowledge that led us into sin., but the knowledge of the truth of who God is and the truth of who we are. God is a good and loving Father, and we are His people. He will never turn His back on us, but He welcomes us with open and loving arms. No matter what. When we believe that we are overcome by evil in an evil world, those beliefs are all based on lies about God. If we are evil, that makes God angry and harsh and condemning. If the world is evil, that makes God cruel and distant. It is those beliefs that fuel are fear and shame and keep us hidden in the dark.

During my childhood as I was abused, I was forced to worship false gods and goddesses and take on many, many spirits within my being. Everything that I did led me to believe I was evil and bad and terrible and that God could never love me or forgive me. That was the point of all the abuse; to turn me away from God and fill me with lies of who He is. All that made me powerless and helpless. It is the desire to find the truth in the midst of all this pain and find healing that has given me strength. Through my willingness to go into these dark places I have broken many connections with the occult and therefore made more room for a relationship with God.

I did not have to walk into this healing, and learn about my awful abuse, or the fact that I basically grew up in the occult. What a huge deception over my entire life. It was painful enough to feel as though my entire life was a lie, let alone to come to terms with the abuse itself. Many people that walk into healing of this depth actually quite before they get even as far as I have. It is a difficult process. Yet week after week I encounter God in ways that are so amazing and wonderful, I could never walk away. Exposing the darkness within myself has filled me with so much light and truth and love and peace, that it absolutely overshadows every thing else in this entire world. Nothing, and I mean nothing, compares to the love and knowledge of God I have now. And it just keeps growing.

This is the message we have heard from him and proclaim to you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin.

1 John 1:5-7

graceIf we refuse to see where we have connected with the occult, then we are taking away from areas in our lives where we can have more of God. Once you have had a taste of the Living God, it will be hard to not desire more and more of Him. Freedom from oppression will bring into the presence of the Living God and we will experience Him in ways we never though imaginable. The devil will do whatever he can to stand in the way of that. Including leading you to believe you have grown as much as you can, causing blocks or oppression to keep you from going further, and much more. So we must keep fighting and pressing in to Him, seeking Him with all that we have.

I hear from many oppressed people in my ministry. Many of them are desperate and seeking answers, lost and confused about why they have been suffering for so long. Add in the fact that you actually have spirits coming against you to try to stop you from gaining freedom, and life feels impossible. Diving into that depth of pain is so incredibly difficult, but it is doable. If I can do this, anyone can. I promise you this. That is, without Christ. Christ is the answer to every single problem.

No matter how far any one individual comes with their healing, God will love them and accept them. He does not care how far we go in healing, although He wants us to each find freedom. However, God knows exactly what each person can handle and where their heart is. God is in charge of each person’s healing, and we only need to partner with Him and do our parts. Jesus loves you so very much. He is not concerned with where you are at or what you have done. He is not worried about what you watch or eat or do. He is only concerned with your heart. Give Jesus your heart and trust Him, and watch and see the miracles He will do in your life. It is only a matter of time.

My prayer for each one of you is not that you come into complete healing and freedom in this life, but that you come into a complete knowledge and understanding of God as your Father, and Jesus Christ as your One and Only. If we can achieve that, then we have gained absolutely everything in this world. Jesus is the reason we are here. We were created to love and be loved. We were created to carry out an assignment in this world. It does not take strength or courage to complete your assigned job here on earth. It only takes trust. Trust in the One who created the heavens and the earth to pull you out of the pit and restore your life. He is faithful. He is love.

 There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.
1 John 4:18
November 20 2016

Happy Thanksgiving!

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November 14 2016

Jesus For President

Jesus for presidentYesterday was November 8th, Election Day here in the United States. Many people watched with anticipation to see who was going to become the next President of the United States, including myself. I don’t often have the television on, and I have not followed the political debates and movements of the candidates very much. The politics of this election were so filled with venom and malice that it was hard to tune in to. Yet last night my whole family gathered around the TV to see what was going to happen.

Being a citizen of the United States I am very well aware of what has been going on in recent years. I myself voted for President Obama in 2008, and have spent 8 years regretting that decision. I, like many Americans I suspect, thought that he would bring the kind of change this country was in need of. Well, he did bring change, just not for the better. I have to say I was not super excited about this election after seeing presidents come and go and never seeing results that I was satisfied with. When I saw the candidates whittled down to Hilary Clinton or Donald Trump, I was despondent to say the least.

How many of you watched Donald Trump in the Apprentice telling people ‘you’re fired’? I know I eagerly awaited the show every season for years. Now he is our President. It is kind of a hard reconciliation to move a man from reality TV to the White House. Yet here he is. This has been the most emotional election our country has had in quite some time. And I think this is one of the reasons there is so much discord in our country right now.

 I appeal to you, brothers and sisters, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that all of you agree with one another in what you say and that there be no divisions among you, but that you be perfectly united in mind and thought.  My brothers and sisters, some from Chloe’s household have informed me that there are quarrels among you.  What I mean is this: One of you says, “I follow Paul”; another, “I follow Apollos”; another, “I follow Cephas”; still another, “I follow Christ.”

1 Corinthians 1:10-12

Two years ago when I got wind that Hilary Clinton might be running I was livid. Hilary has made it clear that she stands firm on the principles of feminism and liberalism; two things I am very familiar with. You see, I came from those beliefs myself, and a was hard core supporter of them for most of my adult life. That is until I realized what these principles really stood for. Hatred, bondage, and murder. There is nothing free about the spirit of feminism and liberalism, and it comes from a spirit of divisiveness and control.

I used to believe very firmly that a woman has the right to make choices: choices for her body and choices for her life. I believed that “the man” aka the white government authorities were oppressing woman and holding them back from their full potential. Being just like a man. That means that when a woman gets pregnant and it might interfere with her life, then there is no problem with “getting rid of it”. Because as we all know, that thing growing inside a woman is not really a baby. Not yet anyway.

So when exactly does that blob or mass or tissue or whatever you want to call it actually become a real human life? I don’t think most pro choice supports can really answer that. I remember seeing a picture of an embryo and feeling pretty confident that it indeed was just a mass of tissue. And if that thing is simply just a mass of tissue, like a cyst or something, then there is no harm in simply getting rid of it.

Once I came into a relationship with Jesus Christ I realized something extremely important. God sees all human life as valuable. I never did. I could barely get myself to like people, let alone myself. So if my own life was invaluable, then how could I see someone else’s life as valuable? How could I see an innocent being who doesn’t even get a choice in the matter as viable?

So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.

Genesis 1:27

All the time I was screaming for my rights to love who I wanted and do with my body what I wanted, it was not because I thought I was worth something. It was because that was what I was fed through the conditioning of women in our society. We have removed God from our schools, our government, and even our churches, in favor of having our rights asserted and voices heard. Yet we are all so busy wanting to be heard, that we have drown out the most important voice of all: the voice of the Most High God. The one who created each one of us and who died to give us the most important right in existence. Himself.

As much as some woman are willing to fight for the right to abort an unwanted child, there is twice the amount of pain, shame, and self hatred already stored up inside of her. Women are taught to hate each other and hate ourselves. We are taught we need to be perfect, and when we don’t achieve it we must punish ourselves for it.  Most women are so mixed up about who they are because they don’t have a foundation of the Father built up underneath them to help guide them on a steady course. Instead there are totting upon the foundation of a lifetime of lies we have been fed.

So we walk around feeling worthless, yet needing to prove we are better than the rest. We hold our heads up high to prove we are strong enough, yet we crumble because we actually can’t do it on our own. We were never made to. And that mass of tissue we have decided didn’t belong, was as much a part of us as God is. Yet we continue to remove as much of God from our lives as we can, in order to fit in with the standards society has handed us.

Behold, God is my helper; the Lord is the upholder of my life.

Psalm 54:4

So knowing all this, I knew I would never, ever vote for Hilary Clinton. In my mind she is the absolute epitome of all the hate and evil that has perpetrated against women for years. And not only against women, but against marriage, family, and the innocent unborn. We can keep trying to take what is unnatural and make it normal, but we can never make it right. God has created us with certain truths that are ingrained into our DNA. The devil has done everything he can to twist everything towards his favor.

God is love, community, family, faith, compassion, respect, and so much more. The devil will never stop trying to convince us otherwise though. And the best way to do that is to attack everything that God stands for. The beauty of his attack comes when he gets people so angry that they lash out and attack each other. Instead of recognizing the real enemy for who he is, we start seeing each other as the enemy. And all the hatred and wrath that the devil deserves gets poured out into our fellow man instead.

The spirit of fear and division is running rampant in our country right now. I recognize that there are many, many unhappy people with the results of this election. Some because they truly believe Hilary Clinton is the best candidate, and some because they believe by voting for Trump they voted for “the lesser of two evils”. I, myself felt the same way when I cast my vote for Donald Trump. But those who have taken God out of this equation can’t see the bigger picture of this situation. It isn’t about who is President: it’s about who God is.

The Lord roars from Zion, and utters his voice from Jerusalem, and the heavens and the earth quake. But the Lord is a refuge to his people, a stronghold to the people of Israel.

Joel 3:16

God has spoken so clearly to me about this issue. We have focused so much on man that we simply cannot even see God anymore. We have confined God into a box where He just deals with certain areas, such as religion or miracles. We have also assigned Him certain roles, such as judge, provider, and holy. We then refuse to see God for anything else than those tiny areas we are willing to allow Him into. Seeing the truth of who God is can be too painful for us, because it  causes us to question our own worldviews.

If we are full of fear for our future, then we have not seen that God is trustworthy and safe. If we believe that we are going to be overrun with evil, then we do not know a God that is bigger than any evil. If we believe that the world is going to end, then we do not know a God that would move heaven and earth for each one of us. The whole point of this political campaign was to distract us away from the bigger picture of this world.

This election has made one thing very clear to me. The devil does not have the last say. He has raised up his choice in leaders and brought his people to back her. They have threatened and screamed and played dirty, and yet still, the devil did not win. God has raised up the least likely of them all, and it is through this we are going to learn the real lesson. Man is not sovereign, and evil is not to be feared. We need to stop deifying man, and even our very own lives, and start realizing we are here for one thing, and one thing alone.

The fear of man lays a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is safe.

Proverbs 29:25

hand-1030565_1920Love is what  created each of us. Love is what brought us here. Love is what conquered death and stormed the gates of hell. Love is what brought us freedom to be with God, right here and now. And it is only that same love that is going to make in difference in this world or in our lives. As soon as we are willing to lay down every weapon we are holding and embrace what God has for us each day, we are not going to stop waging war in our own hearts and minds.

God wants to show us that for all of our hard work we have nothing to show. For all of our shows, we have still come short of the main attraction. And until we are willing to allow God to be the real star here, we are going to continue to fall short of who we were created to be. Let His perfect love cast out all fear from within us about what the future holds, and instead let it take root into our hearts and sprout seeds of joy and trust.

We can trust in Him. He is worthy. The God that shut the mouths of lions and stopped the sun in the sky, is the same God who is in all and over all right at this very moment. Embrace that truth. Hold on to it tightly, and never let it go. He loves you, dear one. You are worthy it all to Him. He is never going to let you go. Never.

But the Lord is the true God; he is the living God and the everlasting King. At his wrath the earth quakes, and the nations cannot endure his indignation.

Jeremiah 10:10

November 7 2016

Redeeming Halloween

redeeming halloweenAs I write this it is two days after Halloween, and I am so thankful that the war is over. At least the war coming from those who are angry that I share my testimony about Halloween.  As an ex witch and survivor of the occult, there is always going to be a war coming after me, but the war during October just happens to be exceptionally hot. Thank God I made it through with no battle scars or wounds to show. God’s grace kept me breathing on the days where it felt like the world was crashing in around me, and I am feeling stronger for it.

I have purposed to stay off things such as Facebook, Twitter and Instagram as much as possible the week before Halloween, and even days after. The barrage of assault is more than my soul can take as so many people are either fighting about whether or not Halloween is right, or people are posting their pictures of their festivities. Either way, everything starts to become a trigger when you have experienced the depth of abuse as I have.

One thing I have noticed is some popular Christians who are followed by large groups of people standing up for the cause of Halloween. They are proclaiming from their pulpits with all the power that social media has given them that Halloween is a time that can be redeemed by Christians. That Halloween is not something to fear or hate, but to remake and even rename, for the sake of the Lord. They proclaim that it is indeed a day the Lord has made, and because of that, it is good.

I am very saddened and disheartened when I see Christians stand up in the name of Jesus Christ and call evil good. It is impossible to rectify acts of evil and transform them into works of good instead. God absolutely does take all things and work them for our good, but in the case of Halloween, it is not God Himself taking evil and turning into righteousness, it is human beings taking evil and denying that it even exists.

I can tell you first hand that I absolutely hate evil, and would love to deny all of the evil in this world, or in my life. I would love to build a castle with a giant mote around it high up on a hill where I was virtually untouchable and the world around me could fade off into the distance. Yet if I were to do that, what would truly be the purpose of it? Would my denying the evil of this world change the fact that there is indeed evil? No, it would not.

My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge; because you have rejected knowledge, I reject you from being a priest to me. And since you have forgotten the law of your God, I also will forget your children.

Hosea 4:6

Christians have spent quite a long time being afraid of evil. The devil has been allowed to maneuver into a position of authority over each of our lives. And because of this authority, that we have willingly given away, we are living in fear. Fear of God, fear of man, and fear of the truth. Yet God says that we are all being destroyed for lack of knowledge. That is a pretty powerful statement. We refuse to see truth and therefore reject the knowledge that God has offered us. It is this very knowledge of good and evil we have been craving since the Garden of Eden that we feel powerless to control or understand. So we hide away from it, in hopes that what we cannot see cannot hurt us.

In our attempts to hide from the truth that there is not only evil in this world, but that it has indeed penetrated our very homes, we turn a blind eye to evil altogether. If we can pretend that witches are just something on TV that are for fun, and that witchcraft is not real, then we don’t have to expose the inner recesses of our souls and take a closer look. If we can tell ourselves that we can take something that is evil and make it good with new traditions and a different way of thinking, then there is no harm going to come in participating in them.

The danger is not the evil of this world; it is the fact that we are participating in evil and allowing it into our lives and calling it good. Evil only becomes dangerous when it is left unexposed for what it really is. A door to death and hell. The devil has spent his entire time here on earth developing ways to lure us humans into his trap of calling evil good. All it takes is presenting it to us in a way where we can rationalize all the reasons why it is acceptable and good for us, just as Adam and Eve did. The devil presented to them a delicious looking fruit and then they were able to rationalize that it was perfectly acceptable to go against God’s one rule for them and instead align themselves with the will of the devil.

Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light and light for darkness, who put bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter.

Isaiah 5:20

The truth is that on Halloween night hundreds of  thousands of innocent victims, children and adults alike, are going to be brutally harmed, and some even sacrificed. God does not look down on these acts lightly. God despises these evil works, because there is never any excuse to take an innocent life. That is playing God, and that is exactly what these people are doing. No matter what you do on Halloween night, no matter what you tell yourself about Halloween and evil, you cannot take the evil out of it. You can turn a blind eye because the fact that human lives are being harmed and it is too much to bear, but that doesn’t take away the fact at it is happening.

By deciding to have any participation in any kind of Halloween activity of any kind, no matter what you call it, you are coming into alignment with Halloween itself. Halloween is a high satanic ritual night where satanic rituals are happening all over the world, each one causing some kind of harm to other people. You can say you are going to a Fall Festival, going to celebrate at a church, just hand out candy or tracts; it does not matter. You are participating in the day and therefore agreeing with it.

You cannot change the evil of Halloween because you don’t do anything you see as evil or think of the evil of it. That would be the same thing as going with a friend and finding out they were about to commit a crime you were unaware of. They break into a store and you stand outside in shock. You walk away because you never meant to be a party to a crime and never tell anyone. You are now an accessory. Participating in Halloween makes you an accessory to the evil, especially when you know the facts.

To fear the Lord is to hate evil.

Proverbs 8:13

Can you redeem Halloween for the Lord? Absolutely. By not participating in Halloween in any way, shape, or form. By refusing to align with darkness, and instead praying for the lost and interceding for the innocent. By giving yourself humbly to the Lord and asking Him to show you where you have connected with darkness in your life and asking Him to help you remove it. We all have connections with darkness within us. These connections are only as dangerous as we allow them to be. By refusing to believe they are there, we are giving the devil a power over our lives. It is only when we fully come into the light that we stop giving the devil power over us.

humbleBeing a Christian was never about being good or perfect. Being a Christian is about being humble and submitting to God in the face of great uncertainty. It is letting go of fear and the ways we have been taught by the world and following Jesus. Jesus never promised us a perfect life. He never promised us we would have it easy when we accepted Christ. Jesus warned us of how difficult following Him is. Because following Christ is leaving behind the world, which is full of comfort and pleasure.

Yet the world was never meant to be our home, but instead a place where we find freedom and liberty through the pursuit of a relationship with God. Somewhere along the way we have listened to the distorted lies that life is about the perfect home with the white picket fence, that ensures we are happy and safe all of our days. Safety lies only in God. Every other place of comfort or safety we have made for ourselves is nothing but a false idol in our lives.

Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him. James 1:2

God is not mad at you if you have been participating in Halloween. He isn’t even mad at you for the things you have allowed into your life that have aligned you with the will of the devil instead of His own. God loves you so dearly. He only wants you to come into a relationship with Him. Not a relationship of doing what’s right and making sure you read your Bible or go to church. He wants a real relationship, one based on mutual trust and respect and communication. God does not even except you to change right now. He is not even looking for you to change. All He is looking for is your heart.

Once we give God our hearts, the rest will easily flow together. We all have so much baggage of past pain and trauma in our lives. God understands this, and He understands why we choose to do what we do. But once we have the knowledge in front of us we also have a choice. We can either continue to ignore the evil right in front of our eyes and in our own homes, or we can humbly submit ourselves out of love for our Father and ask Him for help. We cannot possibly do any of this on our own. and we certainly were not meant to.

What we were meant to do is partner with God in this world for a purpose that He has called each of us specifically to. Each person’s purpose is unique and equally important. Each person will face their own challenges and trials through this life as they strive to know God and become the person He has called them out to be in this world. It will never be easy, but in the end, the rewards will be beyond compare.

Elijah went before the people and said, “How long will you waver between two opinions? If the LORD is God, follow him; but if Baal is God, follow him.” But the people said nothing.

1 Kings 18:21