February 27 2017

Your Purpose And Call For The Kingdom of God

your purposeBefore the beginning of life as we know it, we were one with the Father. We made our home in Him, as we awaited the time when we would be called. Each of our spirits was joyful and full of love in heaven, expectantly awaiting what lie ahead of us. The chance to choose to come here to earth to fulfill your purpose. The purpose that God created us for, and the reason why we are here.

Each person on this earth is here for a specific reason and purpose. We have been called out by God, chosen by Him, before time began, to partner with Jesus Christ in this world. Each person’s call is unique, and each person’s journey to get there is a part of their story. How long have you wondered ‘Why am I here?’ ‘Why was I born?’ Isn’t it the ultimate question we all spend our lives searching to find the answer?

When I first came into a relationship with Christ, I felt that my questions had been answered. I felt quite sure that the whole reason I was born was simple: to love God and to know Him. While this is true, this is only a foundational truth; a truth meant to ultimately stand on as we continue to seek our reason and your purpose here. It is a very important part of why we are here, and without knowing God and experiencing His love, it is impossibly to move forward in your purpose.

 But when he who had set me apart before I was born, and who called me by his grace

Galatians 1:15

As I began my journey of inner healing and found out that terrible abuse and more had happened to me during my lifetime, all my questions of ‘Why?’ came flooding back in. What kind of God would allow this to happen? If I was here to love God, then what was really the point? Because loving God had only brought me a lifetime of pain and hell. It was not ultimately worth it in the end to even live through such hell.

That is when God began to give me a glimpse of a much bigger picture of my life. I was not simply born just to live and know God. I was born to serve the purpose that He called me out to. Not only that, but it was the entire reason I was here and had suffered. I began to have hope that all my pain and despair in life were not for nothing. That indeed there was something much greater that I couldn’t fully grasp yet.

This new found understanding helped me to continue on my healing journey and helped me to see God in new ways. Many times God has brought me into His throne room and sat me down on His lap. It is in these moments that I have experienced not only His amazing love, but also where He has shown me great truths about my life. The Father has sat me on His lap and shown me exactly how I came to be here and why.

 even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love 5he predestined us for adoption to himself as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will

Ephesians 1:4-5

As He sat me on His lap I saw it played out before me like a movie. My spirit in heaven before I was ever born. My spirit knew the Father and loved Him more than anything. My spirit was in heaven and happy and full of love and life. And when my Father asked me if I was ready to go to the earth, I literally jumped up and down for joy. Yet it didn’t end there. My Papa told me He had to show me something before I made the decision to leave Him and go to earth.

The Father showed my spirit the great attack that would come, even at the moment of conception. He showed me the war that would come throughout my life, as well as the pain and the torture. However, He also showed me how that was a part of my covert operation to infiltrate the darkness, and come out the other side. That I would have the chance to use all that I learned in the enemy camp to fight the darkness, side by side with Jesus Christ.

When my spirit saw this pain and devastation, I felt fear and terror within me. Yet I was resolved, because my love for my Papa was so great, and my trust for Him so wide, that I knew I would be OK. I knew that I would be protected. I knew that I would return home to Him, unharmed. So I said yes. Not just yes, but an enthusiastic yes, jumping at the chance to partner with my Daddy. I was overjoyed at the chance.

Now the word of the Lord came to me, saying,

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
and before you were born I consecrated you;
I appointed you a prophet to the nations.”

Jeremiah 1:4-5

As soon as my spirit left heaven, the attack came in the form of generational curses and blood rights. Even in the womb I was attacked, yet God sent angels to protect me, even there. Throughout my life God has sent angels to teach me, and Jesus to protect me. Even though my choice to infiltrate darkness has been hard, it has not brought me down. I have made my way out, and I am here, in the arms of the Father. I trust Him and I believe in Him, and I am willingly partnering with Him to fulfill my call.

As The Father showed me all of this, I was in shock. It seemed too good to be true. My life was not a waste. It had purpose and great meaning. I was not beaten and tortured and filled with darkness for nothing. It was to help people. To bring them hope. It took time and more experiences with God to further understand and digest this truth, but the seed was there, in my heart. And from there it began to bloom into something beautiful.

No one is here on this earth for nothing. No matter where you are or what you are doing, just like me you had a moment where you too sat with your Daddy and were given the choice. The choice to fulfill your purpose and partner with Jesus in the most amazing ways. It does not matter what the devil does, or what role he played in trying to steal you away. The Father is going to do everything He can, without violating your free will, to bring you right back home where you belong.

But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.

1 Peter 2:9

All things we have suffered and sacrificed will be rewarded and turned around for our good. Just knowing that I am not here on this earth for nothing has brought me the greatest of comfort. Our life here may start roughly, or may feel like it has been full of torment, but we do not have to finish this race in vain. We can persevere and finish this race with all glory and honor from the Lord, our God. It all starts with a choice.

Do we want to believe that God has chosen us and specifically called us out for a purpose? Do we want to do the work to grow in our relationship with Jesus, so we can build a firm foundation of His love that we can grow on? Do we want to do the work it takes to bring healing into our broken souls, so we can began to live for the purpose that God has made for us? If we can answer yes, even if it’s only to one question at a time, we can do this. We can run this race well.

No one on this earth is a failure. While we may not all reach the place where we understand our purpose and reason for being here, that does not make us failures. We will still be rewarded, because we said yes to God’s call. We were willing to fight the fight, and come here to do a good work. That alone is enough reason for God to reward us with much grace and mercy. We see God as this far away God that is so uninvolved in our lives, letting the world go to hell. When all the time He is right there with us, and has never left our side.

And who has also put his seal on us and given us his Spirit in our hearts as a guarantee.

2 Corinthians 1:22

Our Father is a good Father. He is full of love. This world is a temporary place in which we come to fulfill our purpose for being here. Yet our lives do not end there. No matter what, we have the choice to choose Jesus and at the end of this physical life, we will continue on back to heaven to rejoice in the arms of the Father. We will forget all of our pain and strife and hell. We will cry no more tears, but instead know that we were faithful servants to our Lord.

Unfortunately some people do turn to evil and do not turn back in their lives. They make a covenant with evil and refuse the covenant they made with God. It takes a great, great deal of evil in order for this to happen. Many, many people will be saved, and most likely more will be saved than not. God is willing that none should perish. He is always at work in each of us to ensure we can use our free will to chose truth, love, joy and hope over evil. No matter how hard the devil tries to destroy us.

I pray that today you receive sweet revelation from the Father of His love, and that you continue to build yourself up in Him. Without knowing God as a Father, and experiencing His love, it is difficult to come to the place where we can experience this level of depth in Him. God wants very much to share all of this revelation with you about your purpose in this life, and when you are ready, you can be sure He will. Trust in Him, and never let go of hope, because this world is waiting for you to walk out your purpose. For some, it really is as simple as breathing, because our breathe saturates the air around us with the love of the Father.

For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith.

1 John 5:4

February 20 2017

Praying In Tongues vs Speaking In Tongues: A Biblical Guide

praying in tonguesWhen I first learned how to pray in tongues, I was really unaware that it was a form of prayer. All I knew about tongues is that it was like a heavenly language from God, that I could not understand. I did not realize that there was a difference between speaking in tongues and praying in tongues. So I naturally assumed that all tongues was speaking in tongues. The gift began to form in me naturally, and allowed the Holy Spirit to guide me in this gift.

Many people seem to have a fear of the gift of tongues, so I decided to get deep into scripture to try to better understand what God says about this heavenly language. I believe the fear is based off of false teachings, that are spread by the lies of the devil. As you will see here, tongues is a powerful weapon in our tool belt; one that every believer must employ. Most of my study is based off of 1 Corinthians 14, however I did find some other valuable passages that teach about speaking in tongues, as well as praying in tongues.

The language of tongues is a spiritual gift, and it comes from the Holy Spirit. Each Christian will receive a gift from the Spirit of God, to be used for the good of all. The Holy Spirit is the one who determines who gets what gift and when. The Apostle Paul says we should all desire to receive spiritual gifts, and wishes that we would all speak in tongues. When a person speaks in tongues, they are speaking not to men, but to God Himself. No one understands tongues, because it is a mystery to the human mind.

For by people of strange lips and with a foreign tongue the LORD will speak to this people

Isaiah 28:11

Speaking in tongues is a role assigned to a member of the body to deliver messages to the church. These messages are to be spoken in love to edify the church body. When giving a message in tongues, there needs to be order and purpose in the church meeting. So there needs to be a structured time set aside for the purpose of giving a message in tongues.

During the church meeting, only 2 or 3 people should give a message in tongues. Only one person should speak at a time, and each message should come with an interpretation. It is important to have order when allowing messages from God to be spoken in tongues, as to not create confusion among the church. The Apostle Paul is very specific in his guidelines for speaking in tongues.

Tongues can also be used as a sign for unbelievers. When an unbeliever walks in to a room where tongues is being spoken, it can be a sign to them of the power of God and bring them into His presence. Just like at Pentecost, when the Holy Spirit came onto the disciples and they began speaking in tongues, it encouraged many others to come to Christ.

While Peter was still saying these things, the Holy Spirit fell on all who heard the word.  And the believers from among the circumcised who had come with Peter were amazed, because the gift of the Holy Spirit was poured out even on the Gentiles.  For they were hearing them speaking in tongues and extolling God. Then Peter declared,  “Can anyone withhold water for baptizing these people, who have received the Holy Spirit just as we have?”  And he commanded them to be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ. 

Acts 10:44-48

However, according to 1 Corinthians 14, praying in tongues is when your spirit prays. Praying in tongues is a person’s prayer language, and it is not to be confused with speaking in tongues. Praying in tongues, as well as singing or worshiping in tongues is used to edify ourselves. We can use this prayer language when we are unable to find words to pray, because we are too weak. God knows our hearts and as we use this heavenly language to communicate with Him, the Holy Spirit can intercede on our behalf.

Praying in tongues is also very useful when praying for other believers. Whether interceding on their behalf, or praying for a person directly, praying in tongues can speak to the depths of the human spirit. It can edify their soul and spirit in ways that human words cannot, because the words come directly from the Father to touch those deep places that are aching. Many times someone has prayed in tongues over me and I just begin weeping because it touches me in such deep ways. Even though my mind has no idea what is being said, my spirit knows and is deeply affected!

Praying in the spirit is a wonderful way to grow closer to God and connect with Him on deeper levels. It is also a part of the armor of God. According to Ephesians 6:18, praying in the spirit helps strengthen us in our battle against the evil one. Prayer is a major part of our armor and needs to be done daily, and I believe that praying in tongues activates our armor! Without praying in tongues, our armor is incomplete.

Much like praying in tongues,  singing in tongues is the same type of thing. It goes hand in hand with the praise and worship of our prayers, in a language directed by the Holy Spirit. There have even been scientific studies done that show how tongues affects our brains. Check this video out to learn more.

“And it shall come to pass afterward,
    that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh;
your sons and your daughters shall prophesy,
    your old men shall dream dreams,
    and your young men shall see visions.”

Joel 2:28

Once Jesus returns, we will no longer need the gift of tongues. It will be unnecessary because we will have Jesus Himself with us. He will directly communicate with us in ways we have never experienced before. Tongues was born out of the desperate need for man to communicate with God, yet when Jesus returns, all of our desperation will be turned into completion and fulfillment. So until then, we need to continue to be led by the Spirit, and walk how He guides us.

Jesus wants so very much for us to be a part of Him. That is why He gave us this important language. If we take the gift of tongues for granted without thoroughly pressing in to Jesus to allow Him to teach us, we are instead allowing the enemy to shape our hearts and minds. Jesus only gives us good gifts, and the devil would very much love to steal, kill and destroy them all. The gifts of the spirit bring the Kingdom of Heaven down to earth among the people. That is the intention God had when He created them.

Each gift is special and unique with a special purpose assigned to it. God wants us to lay down everything that we have allowed the world to teach us about God, and instead empty ourselves so we can be filled with His truth. God has a great plan and purpose for each one of us, no matter where we are right now. Allow God into your heart, so He can be the one to answer all of your questions, and break down all the lies. He is good.

Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.  For we know in part and we prophesy in part,  but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away.

1 Corinthians 13:8-10


February 13 2017

Rebellion & Witchcraft: The Enemy Of Our Soul

rebellionWhen I first came to Christ, almost four years ago, I firmly believed witchcraft was a part of my past. I had not, to my knowledge, practiced any witchcraft in years. I was no longer in rebellion to God, but full submission. From what I understood about witchcraft, it was being at the altar, chanting spells or performing rituals. It was an act of worship to the gods and goddesses, that required specific items, words, movements, etc. What I did not understand was that is only a small part of what witchcraft actually is.

It took me two years of being a Christian to come to the reality that I was indeed still doing witchcraft. I absolutely had no idea. How can a person do witchcraft and not even know? How is that even possible? It is possible, because we remain ignorant about the truth of what witchcraft is. The devil would have us believe that witchcraft belongs in fairy tales and movies, or among people who have never entered our own realities. However, that is exactly why we are so ignorant of the truth.

Witchcraft is many things, but primarily it is very simply, rebellion against God. This means that absolutely anybody can do witchcraft. It is merely a choice, an act of free will, that has nothing to do with being a witch, altars, or rituals. When I first realized this bit of information, it completely rocked my world. Not in a good way. Honestly, it scared the living daylights out of me. I had thought I was doing good as a Christian. The truth is, I was doing really well! I had been on a journey to give my whole self to God. And I was doing just that. If I had not been, I would never have been able to face the truth, that I was in fact doing witchcraft.

“For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft,
And stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry.
Because you have rejected the word of the Lord,
He also has rejected you from being king.”

1 Samuel 15:23

For me, witchcraft was something I was taught at a very young age. So it came very naturally to me. This is the case for many people as well. When you are raised in an environment where witchcraft is already practiced and encouraged, it becomes a part of who you are, without you realizing it’s ever there. In my case, my family was actively in the occult. Witchcraft was like breathing to me. However, I had no idea that my family taught me to do witchcraft, and neither do many others like me.

Witchcraft is very encouraged in our world today. With the popularity of things such as yoga, witchcraft in TV and movies, and many New Age practices becoming mainstream, we are surrounded by witchcraft and it has become normal to us. We don’t even blink an eye when we see the popularity of zombies and Lucifer on TV. There so few kids shows that don’t have magic in it, it astounds me. We hand feed witchcraft to our kids, as if it were as harmless as a snowflake.

The reason we cannot see this witchcraft all around us, is because we have already made agreements with it in our lives, and in our hearts. Yet we refuse to see this as truth, because we believe the truth is so ugly, so scary, that if we look at it, we will surely die. That is exactly what the devil would have us believe. The truth is, if we look at the truth that lies in our hearts, the truth that we have placed ourselves on the throne instead of God, then we would actually be set free.

Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.

John 8:32

We are being held captive by these lies. Satan has spun a tale that witchcraft is evil, and if we are doing it, we are too evil. And if we are evil, then we can have nothing to do with God. So we hide the blackness of our souls as deep as we can, so that no one can see them. Not even us. The problem with that, is it is still there. The fact that it is hidden only causes us to live out a life of lies. We tell ourselves that God is on the throne of our hearts, when really, we never even opened up the door to Him.

I have learned some amazing truths about God by opening my heart to Him and allowing Him in to these hidden places inside. I have learned that no matter what I have done, no matter how evil I believed I was, God does not hate me. God does not look down on me. I am not evil at all. I am good. All of the witchcraft that I was participating in was out of pain, denial, ignorance, self hate. It was not because I willfully wanted to rebel against God. I only chose to rebel against God because I believed I had too. I did not see a better alternative.

That is why most people chose to do witchcraft. Not because they are evil or bad. God loves every one of us. No matter what. There is nothing one person can do that can separate them from the love of God. It is not possible. What we can do instead, is stop hiding. I have had to renounce being my own God many times. At first I admit, I was completely ashamed. How could i have built up high places to worship myself and not even realize I was doing it? How could I be so terrible, when I loved my God so very much?

No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

1 Corinthians 10:13

Yet time and time again, my Father; my loving, wonderful, merciful, glorious Father, told me, ‘You are not evil. You are forgiven.” If you only repent for your rebellion, you will see how very easily God will forgive you. Just like the prodigal son that ran off with his inheritance, and meant to turn his back on his father once and for all. Yet when he finally realized how terribly he behaved, his father not only forgave him, but threw a celebration in honor of his return. That is the kind of Father that you and I have.

How can you know if you have been doing witchcraft? There are a few signs of things you can look for, but ultimately it is going to take bringing all of your heart to God and asking Him to reveal the secret things of your heart to you, so that He can bring them healing. It is not up to another person to handle such a delicate matter of the heart, but it’s a matter of developing that trust and loving relationship with God through Jesus Christ.

Jesus Christ needs to be our everything. We were made for Him, and through Him. So without Him we are absolutely floundering. We are lost and depraved to the uttermost with Jesus. We just need to take it one step at a time. Even if it takes baby steps. There is no more patience in this world than the patience that God has for His children.

If you have been living a life on a roller coaster, always letting your emotions dictate you, then chances are you are doing witchcraft. Witchcraft is based on using our emotions and will to manipulate change around us. It affects other people, as well as circumstances. All it takes is the intentions of the heart to make send witchcraft out into the world.

If we have ever been involved in the occult, new age, religions that worship false gods and goddesses, or any sort of witchcraft whatsoever, then the chances are you are still doing witchcraft. If you have any parents, grandparents, or other family members, past or present, then the chances are we are doing witchcraft. Witchcraft is handed down generationally, through blood rights, as well as being taught directly to children.

As for you, O Lord, you will not restrain your mercy from me; your steadfast love and your faithfulness will ever preserve me! For evils have encompassed me beyond number; my iniquities have overtaken me, and I cannot see; they are more than the hairs of my head; my heart fails me.

Psalm 40:11-12

Witchcraft is rebellion. It is going against everything that God asks of us. It is allowing our emotions, desires, and will to dictate who we are and what we do. It hurts ourselves and those around us, affecting every generation after us. When we think evil thoughts about other people, or say terrible things to people, that is witchcraft. When we manipulate or control people, directly or indirectly, that is witchcraft. Witchcraft is an agreement with the devil to do his will instead of God’s.

Witchcraft originated in the Garden of Eden, when Adam and Eve rebelled against God. They turned their backs on God because they wanted to shoot for autonomy from Him. They thought, if they could only know good and evil, they could indeed be like God. They learned that by listening to Satan, and partnering with him in that moment. That is what mankind has been doing for thousands of years. If we refuse to see the truth, we cannot be set free.

God is waiting to set you free from the bondage of your rebellion. You have to first make a choice. Do you want to put down that forbidden fruit and step down of God’s throne? Or do you want to put the blinders up and pretend that you can keep managing your life on your own. I know how hard it is. I have had to face these same fires. And oh how the fire burns. The fire also refines us, and leaves us renewed and ready to be molded into the most beautiful creation: the image of Jesus Christ.

God is inviting you today, to step away from the Tree and come into His presence instead. He is full of grace and mercy. He does not see your sin, nor does He think you are evil. He only sees you with the love of such infinite measure that we can barely even fathom to think of it. You are a Son/Daughter of the Most High. You need do nothing to earn it. It simply is. Let Jesus wash you in the river of Living Waters and nurture you on His Bread of Life, and see the majestic fruit that will grow from it.

For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:38-39


February 6 2017

Gateway To My Soul

soulIt is so easy to feel overwhelmed, like the weight of the war is simply going to crush your soul. There are times when I am attacked relentlessly for days at a time. There is no break, except to just throw myself into complete denial. The enemy is very decisive in his plans against me, and uses many ways to try to torment me. Recently I have had a long battle with a physical problem; my eyes. Not my eye sight, but with my eyes becoming swollen, itchy, red, watery and painful. Basically my eyes were showing signs of allergic reaction. The problem is, there was no reason for this to happen.

Last summer my then 8 year old son begged me for a guinea pig for a pet. He had been asking for one for months, and I was really against it. I am a huge animal lover, and we already have 3 small dogs and a cat. I have never had any type of rodent and I felt that a guinea pig would just be noisy and messy. However, his birthday was coming up, and I could see his little heart was just swelling with love to give to one of these little creatures. So my husband and I decided after much discussion that it would be OK.

Of course my then 6 year old very much wanted one as well. We are suckers I guess, because we came home with 2 little guinea pigs and a cage, etc. I had no idea I was going to fall madly in love with this little piggies! Within a few weeks I was adopting my own sweet piggie. So our house was filled with hay and love. I had no issues, but after time eventually noticed getting a little itchy after holding my piggie.

After a few more months I decided to adopt one more piggie. I couldn’t resist. It was like a gift from heaven. My pets bring me so much joy in the midst of so much war. About a month later my eyes begin to get very red and itchy. Then suddenly one morning, they were swollen when I woke up. It was out of nowhere. I prayed and tried to find out what was going on. My first suspicion is always human spirits or witchcraft. I am harassed almost daily by these things.

My eyes soon became worse and worse, until I could barely open them in the morning because they were so swollen. I tried to treat it as an allergy and make sure to not touch hay, and wash my hands if I held the pigs, and to take allergy medication. There was no relief in the symptoms. I began addressing the issue in my inner healing sessions, and asking for healing prayer at church, because I knew it had to have a spiritual root, since the problem didn’t arise for so long. I went deep where God led me, and addressed issues of self hate and more.

Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.

Psalm 43:5

If relief would come one day, it would just swell up again the next. I began to become despondent. I began to cry out to God in anger. Why was I continuing to suffer when I was so willing to go into the deep places to find out where I was not  aligned with the mind of Christ, or where I was holding on to hate or needing to forgive. I began to feel that maybe God was punishing me, or that maybe He had given Satan permission to thresh me like wheat. Depression started to overtake me.

The physical symptoms were torturous for me. I already have many daily battles with attack from several groups that harass me and my family, as well as the attack I get from doing my ministry. It was altogether to much for me to continue to deal with daily. Especially when I knew I was continually submitting to the Most High to allow Him to refine me in His fire. I began to wonder if God was going to just keep using this pain to bring me into inner healing constantly. I was very angry.

I cannot tell you how many times I prayed for discernment and healing for this problem. I have had to go very deep in order to really get to the root of this problem. Yes, the devil has used my vulnerability as a means to attack me, but I had to be willing to see and address some very intense personal pain in order to truly find healing for my eyes. A very traumatic experience led me to agree with so many lies about myself, the world, people, and God, that it wreaked havoc in my soul. Yet I had no idea that all of that was inside of me, until my body finally decided to speak up.

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
    He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters.
    He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness
    for his name’s sake.

Psalm 23:1-3

You see, our bodies often communicate with us about deep emotional and spiritual issues that we have never tapped into. Many diseases and illnesses, including mental issues, are rooted in emotional pain or trauma from our past. When painful circumstances happen our lives, especially as children, we learn something from them. Usually what we learn is rooted in a pain identity, that shapes who we are for the rest of our lives.

It does not even have to be something that looks very bad. It could be as simple as having someone embarrass you, or having a parent talk very harshly to you. Every person is different, and what breaks one person may not break the next. Some people are traumatized by a car accident or seeing someone they love get hurt, and that is enough for them to hold on to false beliefs such as God is bad, people will hurt you, love brings pain, and so much more.

You see the world is constantly sending us the message that we are fine, we are independent, and that whatever problem there is, we can handle it on our own. Or maybe with the help from some useful medications. And if we need to rely on God, we are weak. We are worthless. That message is from the devil, who wants nothing more than to kill your soul and steal away your relationship to God. So we don’t look within, because we are too busy trying to be OK.

But we are not. We are not OK. We are broken, we are hurting, we are alone, we are in need. And that is OK! We were created to be whole in an interdependent relationship with Jesus Christ alone. We were created to need Him. We were created to partner with Him. And often times even when we think we are doing good working with God, we are actually only surrendering a small part of our hearts to Him, and keeping the rest for ourselves.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
    I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
    your rod and your staff,
    they comfort me.

Psalm 23:4

The bottom line is, we are afraid. If God is so great that He would come down to earth and die for us, then how absolutely horrible must we be? We must be like tiny little ants that are so pathetic that God had to throw us a life line, but really He is just angry at us for everything. Wrong. So wrong. God only came down, giving up His throne and His glory out of pure and complete love. A love that looks at us, our brokenness, and sin, and says “I love you just the way you are.”

It’s the devil who has convinced us we are worthless. God does not even see us as worthless at all. He sees the shame we carry, and He feels sorrow for us, because that shame was never ours in the first place. It was given to us through horrible life circumstances that the devil hand picked for us so we could be in bondage to his lies and deceptions. God is not even mad at us for one second. He only wants us to see how intensely He loves us, so we can lay down all this burden before Him and just let Him hold us close.

God’s love for us can never be tainted or broken. It does not matter what we do or where we have been. God has unconditional love and acceptance for us. So until we can begin to turn over all the broken pieces of our hearts to Him, we are going to stay in bondage to our brokenness. It takes courage and faith to look inside of our broken hearts and let God in. We know it’s ugly, but God wants us to understand that He makes beauty from ashes. If God can create an entire universe with His words, He can certainly turn us into the masterpiece we were made to be.

You prepare a table before me
    in the presence of my enemies;
you anoint my head with oil;
    my cup overflows.
 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
    all the days of my life,
and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord

Psalm 23:5-6

So if you are struggling with anger at God, or physical or mental illness that won’t stop plaguing you, or you know that you are just falling apart at the seams and you can’t stop it anymore, then you know this message is for you. It is time to surrender. You have been running for a very long time, and you know it has led you nowhere. Now it’s time to come home. And home is right here, inside of you, where your Jesus Christ is already waiting for you.

He wants to bring you healing. He wants to bring you joy. It is possible for you. Jesus did not die in vain, but to give you life in abundance, and victory. You just have to be willing to fight to receive the gift that Jesus is freely giving you. The devil has been allowed to make strongholds in your heart, and it’s time to do the work to tear them all down. You can do this, if you are just willing to partner with Jesus.

After being so disheartened, God has revealed to me some important truths. While my eyes are not yet getting better, He is allowing this because I need to understand the depth of this issue. There were many events that took place that have trampled on my soul, and understanding these things is going to bring healing so deep that its going to restore gifts that the enemy tried to steal.

Not every healing is going to come immediately. Sometimes it needs to happen in layers. God does not turn His back on us ever. If you have been praying for a miracle healing and you haven’t seen it yet, it is time to press in and allow the Spirit to move you where He knows you need to go.

No matter what, always remember, we are not flesh and blood, but spirits that are eternal. We are going to cast off this bodies one day, and never remember the pain and suffering we have had to endure. So set your eyes on the eternal truths, and on Jesus Christ Himself.

O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you;
    my soul thirsts for you;
my flesh faints for you,
    as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary,
    beholding your power and glory.
Because your steadfast love is better than life,
    my lips will praise you.
 So I will bless you as long as I live;
    in your name I will lift up my hands.

Psalm 63:1-4