February 20 2017

Praying In Tongues vs Speaking In Tongues: A Biblical Guide

praying in tonguesWhen I first learned how to pray in tongues, I was really unaware that it was a form of prayer. All I knew about tongues is that it was a heavenly language from God that I could not understand. I did not realize that there was a difference between speaking in tongues and praying in tongues. So I naturally assumed that all tongues was speaking in tongues. The gift began to form in me naturally, and allowed the Holy Spirit to guide me in this gift.

Many people seem to have a fear of the gift of tongues, so I decided to get deep into scripture to try to better understand what God says about this heavenly language. I believe the fear is based off of false teachings, that are spread by the lies of the devil. As you will see here, tongues is a powerful weapon in our tool belt; one that every believer must employ. Most of my study is based off of 1 Corinthians 14, however I did find some other valuable passages that teach about speaking in tongues, as well as praying in tongues.

The language of tongues is a spiritual gift, and it comes from the Holy Spirit. Each Christian will receive a gift from the Spirit of God, to be used for the good of all. The Holy Spirit is the one who determines who gets what gift and when. The Apostle Paul says we should all desire to receive spiritual gifts, and wishes that we would all speak in tongues. When a person speaks in tongues, they are speaking not to men, but to God Himself. No one understands tongues, because it is a mystery to the human mind.

For by people of strange lips and with a foreign tongue the LORD will speak to this people

Isaiah 28:11

Speaking in tongues is a role assigned to a member of the body to deliver messages to the church. These messages are to be spoken in love to edify the church body. When giving a message in tongues, there needs to be order and purpose in the church meeting. So there needs to be a structured time set aside for the purpose of giving a message in tongues.

During the church meeting, only 2 or 3 people should give a message in tongues. Only one person should speak at a time, and each message should come with an interpretation. It is important to have order when allowing messages from God to be spoken in tongues, as to not create confusion among the church. The Apostle Paul is very specific in his guidelines for speaking in tongues.

Tongues can also be used as a sign for unbelievers. When an unbeliever walks in to a room where tongues is being spoken, it can be a sign to them of the power of God and bring them into His presence. Just like at Pentecost, when the Holy Spirit came onto the disciples and they began speaking in tongues, it encouraged many others to come to Christ.

While Peter was still saying these things, the Holy Spirit fell on all who heard the word.  And the believers from among the circumcised who had come with Peter were amazed, because the gift of the Holy Spirit was poured out even on the Gentiles.  For they were hearing them speaking in tongues and extolling God. Then Peter declared,  “Can anyone withhold water for baptizing these people, who have received the Holy Spirit just as we have?”  And he commanded them to be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ. 

Acts 10:44-48

However, according to 1 Corinthians 14, praying in tongues is when your spirit prays. Praying in tongues is a person’s prayer language, and it is not to be confused with speaking in tongues. Praying in tongues, as well as singing or worshiping in tongues is used to edify ourselves. We can use this prayer language when we are unable to find words to pray, because we are too weak. God knows our hearts and as we use this heavenly language to communicate with Him, the Holy Spirit can intercede on our behalf.

Praying in tongues is also very useful when praying for other believers. Whether interceding on their behalf, or praying for a person directly, praying in tongues can speak to the depths of the human spirit. It can edify their soul and spirit in ways that human words cannot, because the words come directly from the Father to touch those deep places that are aching. Many times someone has prayed in tongues over me and I just begin weeping because it touches me in such deep ways. Even though my mind has no idea what is being said, my spirit knows and is deeply affected!

Praying in the spirit is a wonderful way to grow closer to God and connect with Him on deeper levels. It is also a part of the armor of God. According to Ephesians 6:18, praying in the spirit helps strengthen us in our battle against the evil one. Prayer is a major part of our armor and needs to be done daily, and I believe that praying in tongues activates our armor! Without praying in tongues, our armor is incomplete.

Much like praying in tongues,  singing in tongues is the same type of thing. It goes hand in hand with the praise and worship of our prayers, in a language directed by the Holy Spirit. There have even been scientific studies done that show how tongues affects our brains. Check this video out to learn more.

“And it shall come to pass afterward,
    that I will pour out my Spirit on all flesh;
your sons and your daughters shall prophesy,
    your old men shall dream dreams,
    and your young men shall see visions.”

Joel 2:28

Once Jesus returns, we will no longer need the gift of tongues. It will be unnecessary because we will have Jesus Himself with us. He will directly communicate with us in ways we have never experienced before. Tongues was born out of the desperate need for man to communicate with God, yet when Jesus returns, all of our desperation will be turned into completion and fulfillment. So until then, we need to continue to be led by the Spirit, and walk how He guides us.

Jesus wants so very much for us to be a part of Him. That is why He gave us this important language. If we take the gift of tongues for granted without thoroughly pressing in to Jesus to allow Him to teach us, we are instead allowing the enemy to shape our hearts and minds. Jesus only gives us good gifts, and the devil would very much love to steal, kill and destroy them all. The gifts of the spirit bring the Kingdom of Heaven down to earth among the people. That is the intention God had when He created them.

Each gift is special and unique with a special purpose assigned to it. God wants us to lay down everything that we have allowed the world to teach us about God, and instead empty ourselves so we can be filled with His truth. God has a great plan and purpose for each one of us, no matter where we are right now. Allow God into your heart, so He can be the one to answer all of your questions, and break down all the lies. He is good.

Love never ends. As for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away.  For we know in part and we prophesy in part,  but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away.

1 Corinthians 13:8-10


January 30 2017

Manifesting Spiritual Gifts From God

This past weekend I had the most incredible experience at an equipping session for those working in the prophetic. I have never been to anything like it, as truly God Himself has been training me in everything I do for the past three and a half years. I was very excited to go with a dear friend, who too has similar spiritual gifts as I do. I had no idea what to expect, but what I did not expect was to be blessed beyond measure.

Being in a prophetic community was absolutely wonderful. God poured out His Spirit over me, over and over again, lifting me into a place of such deep awe for my loving Father. How God could treat me in such a special way is honestly beyond me, but He proved that I am indeed loved. How does a woman who has spent her whole life living in shame and worthlessness take such declarations of love from God? With a lost of tears and appreciation.

One of the best parts about being in a community where the gifts of the Spirit are encouraged and freely used is not feeling so unusual and alone. For me, my gifts are very strong and not something that I control. I get visions, prophecy, and discernment every day, and it is just a part of who I am. It is so much a part of who I am that before this weekend I could not tell you when I was pouring out prophecy and when I was discerning spirits. It just all flows together so naturally to me that there is not differentiating.

To each is given the manifestation of the Spirit for the common good.

1 Corinthians 12:7

I believe there are many people out there who are walking with wonderful gifts from the Holy Spirit, but do not realize they are doing so. They are not in a community that can help foster those gifts or teach them how to use them. They may even be in a community that is against them, and therefore don’t even realize what these gifts look like or how they work. The Holy Spirit has given each one of us good gifts to use as He determines. These gifts are meant for the good of the whole body, and to be used to help others.

I have walked strongly in all of my gifts since I was a very young child. However, the environment I grew up in was one that had absolute hatred towards those gifts. I grew to believe that my gifts meant I was crazy, evil, bad and more, and so I tried very hard not to use them. I was greatly punished for using them, because they were clearly a gift of God. Those who are enemies of God will always try to impede gifts of the Spirit, because they further the mighty work for the Kingdom.

It was not until I began truly giving my life over to Christ, every part of my being that I possible could, that I began to see the fruit of these gifts again. It was not that they were gone or lost; I don’t believe that ever happens. It was that I was too afraid to allow them to manifest into full power in my life. The devil instilled that fear into me, just as he has into many areas of the church. Many Christians are told and believe that all of the gifts of the Holy Spirit are dead and gone. As a matter of fact, I have even been told that if you use these gifts you are actually partnering with the devil.

Pursue love, and earnestly desire the spiritual gifts, especially that you may prophesy.

1 Corinthians 14:1

Of course the devil wants us to believe that. He wants nothing more than to stomp out these amazing gifts that bring healing, grace, edification, encouragement, and so much more, not only to ourselves, but to the entire body. When one person walks with the Spirit of God freely, it empowers those around to do the same. We should not live in fear, but have courage to follow Jesus unhindered. We need to do this, because the world is desperate for the signs, wonders, and miracles that these gifts bring to this dark world.

I know a lot of people wonder how they can tell if they have a gift, or if they have a gift how to use it. My best advice really is just Jesus. Jesus is the one who can teach us and guide is in every single question. We know from 1 Corinthians 12 that every believer will receive spiritual gifts, so my presumption is that you most likely already have one. In order to truly understand the spiritual gifts that we have and how to use them best, we need to go to Jesus. If He feels we need outside resources to learn and grow, He will surely lead us right to them. We must have faith.

I have been walking in my spiritual gifts as a Christian for almost 4 years now, but it has taken this long to get a grasp and understanding of these gifts, what they are, and why I even have them. All of this knowledge has only come from the Holy Spirit Himself. Reading books and articles and watching videos or listening to speakers is great, but it is only walking with Jesus, asking Him the hard questions, and leaning on Him for guidance that has truly led me to growth and understanding.

But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit–the Father will send Him in My name–will teach you all things and remind you of everything I have told you.

John 14:26

The Apostle make makes it clear that every believer should desire to speak in tongues and to prophecy. This means that every believer has the ability to speak in tongues and to prophecy. These are spiritual gifts that freely flow through the Holy Spirit to each one of us. Speaking in tongues does not necessarily mean delivering a message in tongues, but more likely praying in tongues. Praying in tongues is using tongues as a personal prayer language. This allows you to connect with God on a deeper level when you have no words, or it is a powerful weapon when you are in a bad place. Praying in tongues edifies your spirit man, as well as others you pray for.

Prophecy is used to edify the church as well as other believers. Prophecy does not necessarily mean predicting the future, and it should never be used as a means of divination. Prophecy is a wonderful gift that should be used to build an atmosphere of hope and brings revival in the hearts of those that hear it. We need to always be very careful when giving messages as well as receiving them, because many people with good intentions have brought curses on others with their false prophecies. False prophecies are a result of being connected with the wrong spirit, who yearns to deceive and bring down the elect.

While we should all strive for spiritual gifts, we should never try to force them. They should flow out of a deep connection with our Father, not because we want to make them happen. While I wholly agree we should all walk in the gifts of the Spirit, I also believe that we may need to walk through deliverance to relieve oppression or strongholds that are hindering our abilities. This is also very important because, as I mentioned before, if we do not clean our houses (deliverance), then we could be harnessing powers of the Second Heaven , which is the Kingdom of Darkness. This does not mean we are bad or evil, it simply means we need to go deep into our souls to break away any ties that are harmful to us, and others.

I will pour out my Spirit on all people.
Your sons and daughters will prophesy,
    your old men will dream dreams,
    your young men will see visions.
Even on my servants, both men and women,
    I will pour out my Spirit in those days.

Joel 2:28-29

spiritual giftsDuring my weekend equipping session I witnessed believers who were connecting to the Second Heaven through their God given spiritual gifts. I saw a woman who used painting as a form of worship. She was incredibly talented, but during each session I saw her painting things of a very disturbing nature, things that were of a spiritual nature, only seen with the spiritual eyes. I also saw a worship singer who was lacking confidence and channeling the power of Second Heaven to bring in a soulish form of worship. He too was very talented in his God given gifts, but he did not realize that he was tapping in to the Holy Spirit and the Second Heaven at the same time.

Each of these individuals is loved and important to God. He does not look down on them for what they are doing, but instead He understands exactly why they do this. He loves their worship, because truly their spirits are worshiping God, even though their souls are not. God has a purpose and plan for us all. He uses all these things for our good. I fully believe that He wants us to all come into greater levels of healing so we can come to know Him more intimately. We just have to be willing to look at the dark places inside of us that He has allowed to remain hidden for our own good.

God knows the perfect timing in which everything in our lives needs to happen. He is not worried, and we should not worry either. Wherever we are with our spiritual gifts, God is there with us. We need only continue to lay out our hearts to Him, even if it means just giving Jesus one piece at a time. That is exactly what I am doing. I am far from perfect, and I am very thankful that God loves me exactly where I am right now. And I am very thankful that my desire to use spiritual gifts in His Kingdom has brought about a closer relationship with Jesus, that has helped me to bear good fruit for Him.

I pray we all allow our desire for spiritual gifts to bring us to greater revelations of who God is, His great love for us, and a greater love for each other. I pray that each of us begins to walk with the Spirit, in Truth and in love, allowing the Holy Spirit to mold and shape us into who He originally designed us to be. I pray that through this we create revival fires everywhere we go, setting the peoples of this earth on fire for more of Jesus Christ. Bless you, my dearest brothers and sisters.

Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you,  casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:6-7




October 19 2015

How I Began Speaking In Tongues

speaking in tonguesHave you ever heard someone speaking in tongues? It can be quite a strange sound to hear, maybe even scary. What strange utterances can come from the human tongue! A person who normally speaks perfectly good English is suddenly speaking what sounds like gibberish. Or maybe it sounds like an actual language like Spanish or Russian. I did not hear anyone speaking in tongues until I had been a Christian for a least a year or more. I had heard of it and I knew the Bible talked about it, but I didn’t know if it was something for people today.

There are a group of people who do believe that the gift of speaking in tongues and other gifts of the Holy Spirit have ceased. I think it is easy to believe that if you do not see the Holy Spirit working in signs and wonders in your life, or in the lives of others you know. The first time I heard someone speaking in tongues I wasn’t sure what to think! It sounded weird and I just kept wondering if they were faking it. After all, how am I to know what speaking in tongues is supposed to sound like? So I did what any other curious person would do. I found a YouTube video of someone speaking in tongues to see if it sounded the same.

Ok, so that didn’t exactly help me determine if what I heard was the real deal or not. It was interesting and I grew more curious about the gift of speaking in tongues. The problem was I really didn’t know anyone who had the gift of speaking in tongues and certainly no one at my church did. At least not that I knew of. It seems to be a bit of a controversial topic, speaking in tongues. I was told that anyone who speaks in tongues is from the devil. Very interesting view-point I must say, considering that speaking in tongues originated from the Holy Spirit. I think this really points to the fact that things that are different or unknown can really scare people. The Holy Spirit is unpredictable, and cannot be controlled. Therefore it is safe to say He will do things quite out of the ordinary for us. That does not mean it is from the devil. It means that God is much bigger than are limited understanding of who He is.

To each is given the manifestation of the Spirit for the common good. 1 Corinthians


It wasn’t until this year that I really got up close and personal with the gift of speaking in tongues. I was at a wonderful place I found in a nearby city where they gather in an upper room for worship, words of knowledge, prophesying, etc. once a week. I heard many voices raise up speaking in tongues and it was a beautiful sound! It was something I wanted as a gift for myself, because as an intercessor  I often found myself wanting and needing to pray for another, but lacking the words to pray with. Or there have been times when I needed to pray on my own behalf, but could not utter a word to save myself. This is exactly when speaking in tongues is very useful.

I had actually been hearing a strange thing in my head for a couple of weeks prior to my first visit at this upper room. It sounded like another language that would pop up out of nowhere. I wasn’t sure what to make of it, didn’t know what it meant and couldn’t get it to come out of my mouth. At this upper room a friend prayed over me to release the gift of speaking in tongues (or praying in tongues as I like to call it). It was just a few days or maybe a week later there was an increase of this foreign language in my head. I wanted badly for it to come out of my mouth, but I was afraid. I wasn’t sure if it was speaking in tongues or not, and I really didn’t know what it was supposed to sound like.

Before I knew it, tongues was rolling out of my mouth like water. It was such a beautiful experience, and it elevated my connection to God. I could easily pray for others by speaking in tongues, and even though I didn’t know what I was saying, I could see with my spirit that it was affecting great change on their behalf in the spirit realm! I also have the gift of discerning spirits, so I can sense demons and angels. Even the demons respond to speaking in tongues! I most often pray for others in tongues, but it is so nice to have a special language to speak to God with, when I just don’t know what words to use.

And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.

1 Corinthians 13:2

My gift of speaking in tongues has increased in the past couple of months (that is how long I have had it for as I write this). It has been a great comfort to me. I have used it to lift spiritual attack and have used it to break off oppression from others, or to cast away evil spirits. I have used it to sing to God and to empower angels to help people. I can’t honestly tell you how it works, but I know that speaking in tongues is a miraculous gift from our Father in Heaven! It is a gift I believe any Christian can have. I believe that anyone who asks for the gift of speaking in tongues with faith can receive it. Some will be more strong in this gift than others, as with any other gift. Some may only feel the need to use it only occasionally. As long as you let the Holy Spirit lead you, that is all that matters!

How do you get the gift of speaking in tongues? I am not sure if there is just one answer to that question. I do feel that you can ask our wonderful Father for the gift. You can also ask for someone to pray to release and activate the gift of speaking in tongues over you. It may also just spontaneously come to you in a time of need. I have heard of it happening!

What is it like to pray in tongues? How do you know it is real or if you are doing it right? Speaking in tongues is very natural when you let it flow. I told my husband I wanted him to have this gift, and I prayed over him for it to be released and activated. It wasn’t long before he began to pray in tongues also. He doesn’t speak in tongues often though, and that is ok! He uses it when he feels called to. At first when I began speaking in tongues I was unsure of myself and so it didn’t come out naturally. I would stop and think about it, or would trip up a little. You have to let go and let the Spirit guide you. It is His work in you! We do this in the strength of God, not our own!

For one who speaks in a tongue speaks not to men but to God; for no one understands him, but he utters mysteries in the Spirit. 1 Corinthians 14:2

When you let go and start speaking in tongues you will know it is real because it just flows out, without you thinking about it. As a matter of fact I have tried to think about what should come out next, but it never ends up sounding like what I think it will. It is really flowing from my spirit, not my mind. It comes out easily and I really have no control over it. I mean I could stop speaking in tongues if I wanted, but I can’t control what it is that comes out. At first my prayer language sounded a little like Hebrew. Then it changed and started to sound Spanish and then Russian. Is it really those languages? I can’t really be sure, but it doesn’t really matter. I am now praying to be able to interpret!

It was just about a week ago that I was at a healing service I go to once a month that I had an amazing experience. When we are obedient and let the Spirit freely flow through us, God does amazing things with us! He is so fun! Seriously! I was prayed for and the Holy Spirit began to fill me up so strongly that it was bubbling out of me and I began to shout out in tongues and cry out to Jesus! I was getting to filled up by the power of the Holy Spirit that I could only turn around and share it with my husband who was standing near by. I laid my hands on him and began to pray – while speaking in tongues!

It was like a fire was lit inside of me and I couldn’t stop! I had no idea what I was praying, I just let the Holy Spirit take over me and flow through me into my husband. I have no idea what the prayer language was saying, but I know it was working on his spirit! I then began to pray, one by one, for every other person who had been standing there watching me get prayed for. I was speaking in tongues while praying for each person. The Holy Spirit was serious about praying for each person and passing on His mighty work! God is so good and so glorious! Our Father gives such good gifts! Gifts that we are to share and edify our brothers and sisters with! Praise Him!

And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues as the Spirit gave them utterance.

Acts 2:4

I know that some people may read this and think that it is wrong – that it is demonic or misusing or abusing the Holy Spirit. It is difficult to understand such things that seem so far out of your realm of experience. I assure you there was once a time that I may have thought the very same thing! Yet I have tried to be obedient to the Spirit, and not grieve Him. I have constantly prayed for God to have His way with my life, and to have more of Him. I can never get enough of Jesus, and I want as much of Him in my life as I can handle! So God has been increasing His presence, His giftings, His love, and His power in my life. Hallelujah!

fireWhen it comes to matters of the Holy Spirit, such as speaking in tongues, we need to ask God and seek His counsel to understand who He is. It is easy to rely on man and what he would teach us is right and wrong. There are many great teachers and pastors out there that teach the gifts of the Spirit have ceased for today. They even quote the Bible as their source and reasoning. But man is using his own interpretation to come to these conclusions. Always test the spirits and every teacher that comes before you, lest you be deceived. God Himself will lead you in all wisdom and discernment, if you ask him with faith. Let the Holy Spirit reveal His truth to you. He lives inside of you can speaks to you all of the time, so why can He not teach you His truth?

Just remember, whatever gift God gives you, whether speaking in tongues or not, that you use it with love. All gifts are given by our Heavenly Father, for the use of building each other up. So if you use the gift of speaking in tongues, but don’t use it with love, what good is it? The gifts of the Spirit are given to us with love, and for love, to glorify our Father. So pray earnestly to receive gifts of the Spirit from our Father, so that you may use them to empower and inspire other believers, as well as non believers a like.

Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. 1 Peter 4:10

July 27 2015

The Gift of Discerning Spirits

discerning spiritsWhen I was a child I had a deathly fear of the dark. I was sure that something was going to get me. I know there are many children who are afraid of the dark, but this was an intense fear. I was so afraid that something was waiting to get me, that I could not go to sleep unless I was under the covers and in the middle of the bed. It would get to be over 100 degrees in the summer and I did not have air conditioning in my room. I would suffer through the heat of having the blanket on me, because it was the only thing separating me from certain evil.

I did eventually get over that fear of the dark as I got older, although it did last into my teen years. Once I did get over it I rarely thought back to that time. That is until about a year ago when suddenly I developed an intense fear of the dark again. It was at this same time that I was discovering my gift of discerning spirits. It only took me about a week to realize the connection between that childhood fear and my gift of discerning spirits.

Discerning spirits is one of the amazing gifts of the Holy Spirit. A person who has the gift of discerning spirits is able to either sense or see things in the spirit realm. That means that they can sense or see demons and angels. A person with discerning spirits can also get insight and information about spiritual things affecting other people, such as if they are oppressed or have a demonic influence in or around their person. This gift also comes with a strong desire to cast out the demonic spirits and free them from oppression. This gift flows out of a healthy relationship with the Holy Spirit, and is not something done in one’s own power.

When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth, for he will not speak on his own authority, but whatever he hears he will speak, and he will declare to you the things that are to come. John 16:13

As I began to discover my gift of discerning spirits I would notice different physical reactions when a demon or evil spirit was present. I would feel sick in the stomach, and shaky even though I wasn’t cold, fear and a revulsion. So when I began to have the fear of the dark again, I realized I was getting the same physical sensations as when I would sense a demon. It was a huge revelation for me, because I realized I had this gift since I was a child. I was not just afraid of the dark, I was actually sensing the presence of demons in my room.

For some the thought of sensing demons sounds very scary. I have to admit the first few times it happened to me I was scared. I really didn’t understand what was going on. I didn’t understand how I knew there were demons there in my friend’s house. I only knew that once I did realize I was sensing an evil spirit that I wanted to get rid of it! And really, that is the fun part. You see, Satan wants nothing more than to scare us. He is the great deceiver. And really it is all he has to use against those who have the authority of Jesus Christ in them. So he brings fear into us, to believe that his minions from hell can do horrible things to us. Demons may have power, but they do not have any authority, unless we give them ours. So often we believe his lies and just freely give over our authority. As much as the enemy would like us to believe they can harm us, we must remember that we are covered with the precious blood of Jesus, and have the authority by His name to tell them to go.

And he called the twelve together and gave them power and authority over all demons and to cure diseases, and he sent them out to proclaim the kingdom of God and to heal. Luke 9:1-2

It has been a long process for me over the past year as I have learned about my gift of discerning spirits. There is no talk of spiritual gifts in my church, and many people do not believe the gifts of the Holy Spirit are for believers today. The think that these gifts stopped being given out after the Bible was done being written. Some people get very uncomfortable when it comes to the gifts of the Holy Spirit. They feel these gifts are strange and unpredictable. Unfortunately these are more lies of Satan. The enemy would love for us to not tap into the power that God has given us with His gifts. These leaves us weak and easy targets. It also causes separation in the church, as this issue is so divisive among believers.

After I got over my initial shock in discovering I did indeed have the gift of discerning spirits, I began to get very excited. I was experiencing my own demonic oppression and spiritual attack and my desire to free others began to grow intensely. I just wasn’t really sure what exactly I was supposed to do with this gift. It seemed a little strange to be able to sense demons and angels, because then what do you do with this information? God was preparing me for something much greater though!

I will instruct you and teach you in the way which you should go; I will counsel you with My eye upon you. Psalm 32:8

With my gift of discerning spirits I am also able to get information about people I wouldn’t otherwise know. Such as a sense of what they were feeling, what they needed prayer for, and if they were lying or not. I also had a great love of worship and feeling the presence of God. These things all help greatly when combined with a desire to help people. The most wonderful moment came when finally I was able to put all these things into practice!

It was at a night of healing at a local church that my husband and I attend. I had never been bold enough to go up and pray with someone who was looking for healing. I had also been very oppressed every other time I had ever gone, and didn’t feel at all equipped to be able to help anyone. But on this particular night, after an amazing time of worship and communing with the presence of God, I knew it was time. I saw a friend praying for healing for someone, and so went up to pray alongside. I wasn’t really sure how I could use my gift of discerning spirits, but God knew. He took me by the hand that night, and lead me into praying for three different individuals, and casting out demons out of two of them.

And also some women who had been healed of evil spirits and infirmities: Mary, called Magdalene, from whom seven demons had gone out,  and Joanna, the wife of Chuza, Herod’s household manager, and Susanna, and many others, who provided for them[a] out of their means. Luke 8:2-3

DoveStainGlassFinally! To be able to know that I was able to use these gifts exactly as God had intended them for! To have the insight and knowledge, given to me by the Holy Spirit, to know exactly how to pray, and to speak words of Truth into these people who were looking for healing. My whole life came into focus that night. For so long I had wondered why I had fallen so far away from God, practicing witch craft, and being so lost. It all made sense to me now. The enemy had lied to me for so long. He had lured me with the seduction of magic into a life of wickedness, convincing me to hate God. All because he knew that if I came into my rightful inheritance as a believer in Jesus Christ, that I would be able to use my power to stomp him out. Not just in my life, but in the life of many others.

God has given each one of us gifts to use so that we might exercise them faithfully for the Kingdom of God. Yet so many of us have lost belief that we are even capable of having these amazing gifts. The gifts of the Holy Spirit are so special – something from our amazing Father who wants to share a piece of heaven with us right here on earth. Not every person will have discerning spirits or healing, or something that seems “important”, but you will have a gift, and believe me, it is very valuable in the eyes of God. Every gift is useful to build up, encourage, and help other people and should be used in doing so. Please do not believe the lies that you are not worthy of receiving these gifts, or that these gifts are scary or don’t even exist. You were made for such a time as this and if you are reading this right now, then please know God is calling you out in this very moment to use the gift he has given you.

Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. 1 Peter 4:10




December 2 2014

Healing Touch

holyspiritHave you ever thought you were gifted? You know, had a special talent to be able to do something exceptionally well? I haven’t. I have never seen myself as a person with any sort of gift. Not until recently that is. As I have been studying the Bible I have come across a realization that God has gifted each one of us with spiritual gifts. Sometimes we do not recognize these gifts as being special, because to the world they seem quite ordinary. I guess that is why I have gone so long without realizing that I had any sort of gift at all.

I actually thought for quite a while that the stories in the Bible about healing and prophecy and miracles were all things dead and gone. You know, just something that happened in Bible days, but doesn’t exist any more. So I was very shocked when a friend told me that people still did healing. I mean really shocked. How could anyone actually heal someone in this day and age? Isn’t that for those TV pastors who smack people in the forehead and they fall on the ground crying? I mean, like a joke or a ruse, not reality. She assured me it was reality indeed.

It wasn’t for at least 6 months that I revisited that topic in my life. In the meantime I was suffering from severe brain fog, dizziness, and exhaustion and I had no idea why. Well, I had some idea why. I thought it had to do with a back injury and so I was seeing a chiropractor to try to relieve my misery. Some days I could barely function and on those days life was difficult at best. I could barely get through the day doing the school with the kids and getting some chores done. Going to the chiropractor helped on the days I did go, but that wasn’t very often.

I actually ended up going to a new chiropractor who saw me three times a week because after an x-ray I was told it looked pretty bad. I prayed often for help from God in this situation because I just wanted it to go away. Then I heard of a church in a nearby city that held a service once a month just for healing. I mean they actually had people with the spiritual gift of healing who could pray for you to be healed. I guess I was a little skeptical at first, but I was super excited at the same time. I believe in the power of God and His truths in the Bible. After all, Jesus gave the power and authority to the disciples to heal and the Bible tells us Jesus never changes, so why would things be any different now?

The church that was holding the service was one I had never been to before. A worship band played first, and it was different from what I was used to. Instead of playing typical worship songs, they would play one song and repeat the chorus many times. I often get nervous when I am in a new setting, so this actually set me at ease after a while. I didn’t know many of the songs they played, but because of the repetition it became easy to sing along. Before I knew it I was being moved by the worship and I felt the Holy Spirit pressing on me in a way I had never experienced before.

I had some pretty amazing encounters with God before, but here in this room where the worship bad was channeling in to the Holy Spirit, I felt Him fall upon me like a bomb. I was moved to tears and to the point of being overwhelmed, because I had never felt God so strongly before. It was amazing and scary at the same time. And it was unmistakably God in that room then.

healingAfter the worship, which I never wanted to end, the person in charge of the healing service talked for a while about the work they did healing, there in the city and in other countries as well. I was very surprised, once again, to know that healing was something that was real and alive in this day and age. After that he asked for his team of healers to come up. The healers each were able to get a word from God about ailments of people in the room. They did not know who had the pain or problem, just that there was something in a certain area of the body. They would call that out and ask that if anyone had that ailment, to please come down to the front of the stage for healing. It was not cheesy or hoaky at all. Once the healers were done with that, the worship bad began to play again and the people who came for healing were standing at the front of the stage. A healer would come up to them privately to pray for healing. Often two or three other people would come over and pray alongside them.

One of the healers called out that someone had ‘brain fog that was spiritual attack’. I wasn’t really sure if that was me, but I knew I had brain fog badly. It never occurred to me that it could be spiritual attack. I went up to the front of the stage and waited for someone to pray with me. I had two different people praying over me for probably about 10 minutes. I didn’t know if I felt anything or not to be honest. It was all so overwhelming and strange and I didn’t know what to think. While my husband waited for me in his seat, he was praying for healing for himself because he had bad back pain. So bad it was hard to even sit in his chair. But when we walked out of there, his pain was gone. The Holy Spirit was all over this healing service and it was apparent to everyone there.

The next morning I woke up and I felt amazing. I mean like a brand new person. I felt like God had touched my soul and I was brimming with power and love and the Holy Spirit. I had never felt so alive and happy and loving that day. It was a spiritual high like I never knew could exist. I mean I have done lots of drugs in the past and never had I had a high like this. This is exactly what people wish they could get from drugs. My brain fog and dizziness were gone. And that is when I realized, that a big part of my problem must have been spiritual attack. Another thing I guess I didn’t really think was for our time either. Just something you read in the Bible in the form of possession. It seems easy to dismiss things we cannot easily see, but I am learning that God is so much bigger than what we can see with our eyes. There is a whole new level to life that we are to distracted to notice and our enemy would love to keep us away from it. It was not long before I was about to see just how badly the enemy wanted to keep me away from the truth.

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.John 10:10