February 27 2017

Your Purpose And Call For The Kingdom of God

your purposeBefore the beginning of life as we know it, we were one with the Father. We made our home in Him, as we awaited the time when we would be called. Each of our spirits was joyful and full of love in heaven, expectantly awaiting what lie ahead of us. The chance to choose to come here to earth to fulfill your purpose. The purpose that God created us for, and the reason why we are here.

Each person on this earth is here for a specific reason and purpose. We have been called out by God, chosen by Him, before time began, to partner with Jesus Christ in this world. Each person’s call is unique, and each person’s journey to get there is a part of their story. How long have you wondered ‘Why am I here?’ ‘Why was I born?’ Isn’t it the ultimate question we all spend our lives searching to find the answer?

When I first came into a relationship with Christ, I felt that my questions had been answered. I felt quite sure that the whole reason I was born was simple: to love God and to know Him. While this is true, this is only a foundational truth; a truth meant to ultimately stand on as we continue to seek our reason and your purpose here. It is a very important part of why we are here, and without knowing God and experiencing His love, it is impossibly to move forward in your purpose.

 But when he who had set me apart before I was born, and who called me by his grace

Galatians 1:15

As I began my journey of inner healing and found out that terrible abuse and more had happened to me during my lifetime, all my questions of ‘Why?’ came flooding back in. What kind of God would allow this to happen? If I was here to love God, then what was really the point? Because loving God had only brought me a lifetime of pain and hell. It was not ultimately worth it in the end to even live through such hell.

That is when God began to give me a glimpse of a much bigger picture of my life. I was not simply born just to live and know God. I was born to serve the purpose that He called me out to. Not only that, but it was the entire reason I was here and had suffered. I began to have hope that all my pain and despair in life were not for nothing. That indeed there was something much greater that I couldn’t fully grasp yet.

This new found understanding helped me to continue on my healing journey and helped me to see God in new ways. Many times God has brought me into His throne room and sat me down on His lap. It is in these moments that I have experienced not only His amazing love, but also where He has shown me great truths about my life. The Father has sat me on His lap and shown me exactly how I came to be here and why.

 even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love 5he predestined us for adoption to himself as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will

Ephesians 1:4-5

As He sat me on His lap I saw it played out before me like a movie. My spirit in heaven before I was ever born. My spirit knew the Father and loved Him more than anything. My spirit was in heaven and happy and full of love and life. And when my Father asked me if I was ready to go to the earth, I literally jumped up and down for joy. Yet it didn’t end there. My Papa told me He had to show me something before I made the decision to leave Him and go to earth.

The Father showed my spirit the great attack that would come, even at the moment of conception. He showed me the war that would come throughout my life, as well as the pain and the torture. However, He also showed me how that was a part of my covert operation to infiltrate the darkness, and come out the other side. That I would have the chance to use all that I learned in the enemy camp to fight the darkness, side by side with Jesus Christ.

When my spirit saw this pain and devastation, I felt fear and terror within me. Yet I was resolved, because my love for my Papa was so great, and my trust for Him so wide, that I knew I would be OK. I knew that I would be protected. I knew that I would return home to Him, unharmed. So I said yes. Not just yes, but an enthusiastic yes, jumping at the chance to partner with my Daddy. I was overjoyed at the chance.

Now the word of the Lord came to me, saying,

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
and before you were born I consecrated you;
I appointed you a prophet to the nations.”

Jeremiah 1:4-5

As soon as my spirit left heaven, the attack came in the form of generational curses and blood rights. Even in the womb I was attacked, yet God sent angels to protect me, even there. Throughout my life God has sent angels to teach me, and Jesus to protect me. Even though my choice to infiltrate darkness has been hard, it has not brought me down. I have made my way out, and I am here, in the arms of the Father. I trust Him and I believe in Him, and I am willingly partnering with Him to fulfill my call.

As The Father showed me all of this, I was in shock. It seemed too good to be true. My life was not a waste. It had purpose and great meaning. I was not beaten and tortured and filled with darkness for nothing. It was to help people. To bring them hope. It took time and more experiences with God to further understand and digest this truth, but the seed was there, in my heart. And from there it began to bloom into something beautiful.

No one is here on this earth for nothing. No matter where you are or what you are doing, just like me you had a moment where you too sat with your Daddy and were given the choice. The choice to fulfill your purpose and partner with Jesus in the most amazing ways. It does not matter what the devil does, or what role he played in trying to steal you away. The Father is going to do everything He can, without violating your free will, to bring you right back home where you belong.

But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.

1 Peter 2:9

All things we have suffered and sacrificed will be rewarded and turned around for our good. Just knowing that I am not here on this earth for nothing has brought me the greatest of comfort. Our life here may start roughly, or may feel like it has been full of torment, but we do not have to finish this race in vain. We can persevere and finish this race with all glory and honor from the Lord, our God. It all starts with a choice.

Do we want to believe that God has chosen us and specifically called us out for a purpose? Do we want to do the work to grow in our relationship with Jesus, so we can build a firm foundation of His love that we can grow on? Do we want to do the work it takes to bring healing into our broken souls, so we can began to live for the purpose that God has made for us? If we can answer yes, even if it’s only to one question at a time, we can do this. We can run this race well.

No one on this earth is a failure. While we may not all reach the place where we understand our purpose and reason for being here, that does not make us failures. We will still be rewarded, because we said yes to God’s call. We were willing to fight the fight, and come here to do a good work. That alone is enough reason for God to reward us with much grace and mercy. We see God as this far away God that is so uninvolved in our lives, letting the world go to hell. When all the time He is right there with us, and has never left our side.

And who has also put his seal on us and given us his Spirit in our hearts as a guarantee.

2 Corinthians 1:22

Our Father is a good Father. He is full of love. This world is a temporary place in which we come to fulfill our purpose for being here. Yet our lives do not end there. No matter what, we have the choice to choose Jesus and at the end of this physical life, we will continue on back to heaven to rejoice in the arms of the Father. We will forget all of our pain and strife and hell. We will cry no more tears, but instead know that we were faithful servants to our Lord.

Unfortunately some people do turn to evil and do not turn back in their lives. They make a covenant with evil and refuse the covenant they made with God. It takes a great, great deal of evil in order for this to happen. Many, many people will be saved, and most likely more will be saved than not. God is willing that none should perish. He is always at work in each of us to ensure we can use our free will to chose truth, love, joy and hope over evil. No matter how hard the devil tries to destroy us.

I pray that today you receive sweet revelation from the Father of His love, and that you continue to build yourself up in Him. Without knowing God as a Father, and experiencing His love, it is difficult to come to the place where we can experience this level of depth in Him. God wants very much to share all of this revelation with you about your purpose in this life, and when you are ready, you can be sure He will. Trust in Him, and never let go of hope, because this world is waiting for you to walk out your purpose. For some, it really is as simple as breathing, because our breathe saturates the air around us with the love of the Father.

For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith.

1 John 5:4

January 16 2017

Encouragement For The Battle Weary

battleToday was a very difficult day for me. The minute I woke up I felt the pressure over my head squeezing me and began to pray. I tried to go through my normal morning routines, but before long my youngest two sons were out of control. They were screaming at each other, insulting each other, threatening violence against each each other, and even talking about wanting to die. I was barely able to hold it together. I was shaking on the inside, trying the best I could to not completely fall apart. I could get no discernment on why I felt so terrible, so all I could do was to hold on and say the name of Jesus.

It turns out that my household was under attack from a territorial spirit, who is on assignment, using generational blood rights through my husbands family line. I am no stranger to the war the devil has been waging against us. Some days I can stand up under the weight, but today I was being crushed.  The war was more than I could bear and I just wanted peace in my household, and in my soul.

As I cried out to God, I pleaded with Him to just make the war stop. Doesn’t He know I’m not strong enough to carry this load anymore? Doesn’t He understand that it is just too much for one person to bear? Tears stream down my cheeks as I pray to not feel like a pile of crap for one day. I don’t want to be this person anymore; I just want to be normal.

But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.

2 Corinthians 4:7-9

I do not tell you this because I am looking for sympathy. No, I am telling you this, so that you can know you are not alone. I know you feel like you are the only one fighting what seems like an endless battle; but you are not. You do not have to be strong enough. You were never made to carry the weight of this war on your own.

I have tried very hard to be strong enough, but I have always failed. I have tried very hard to carry myself through these difficult days, but I just cannot do it. I know there are many more just like me, holding our torches in the darkness. We are the light bearers, a beacon to the world, calling out to rise up in the midst of our pain and shame. Yet we have to remember one thing, we are not holding our own lights; we are holding the Light of The World. Jesus.

Imagine what it was like for Christ on His last day here in the flesh. He was betrayed by his friends. He was arrested and falsely accused. He was publicly humiliated, beaten to a bloody pulp, and forced to carry His own cross to His murder. He had His belongings stolen from Him, as He was mocked and laughed at. He was separated from God the Father and had to experience death and hell. And He did all of this for you.

Jesus saw your pain and your sins as He lay dying on that cross. He knew each burden we would have to bear, each shameful act that was perpetrated on us. That is why He chose to suffer as he did. Not because He had to, but because He loved you. So whatever we are going through right now, no matter how hard it is or how bad it feels, we can stand under the weight of it, because Jesus Christ is holding us up.

But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31

In this world we are blessed with the gift of a body and mind and emotions. These things make up our soul, which is an integral part of our experience here. However, it is not the compass that should guide us on this journey of life. Our souls are subject to many things in this world. Pain, suffering, abandonment, rejection, fear, terror, and so much more. It is through these many experiences of life that we begin to allow our souls to mold and shape who we are. We get lost, forgetting that we were not made as a soul, but as a spirit.

It is our spirits that reside in heavenly places with Christ right now. And it is our spirits that return to God after we depart from our bodies, leaving behind all of our earthly pains and problems. Once we are in heaven, we will not even remember what we struggled through on this earth. This are heavenly truths that God teaches us in His Word, and these are truths we must instill as deeply within our souls as possible.

We cannot allow our souls to dictate our lives, because when we do we are disconnecting from these important truths. We are one with God, who lives inside of us. We are spirit, created for eternity in communion with our Creator. We are children of the Most High, who calls us Beloved. We are are royal priesthood, called out of darkness to be the glory of God the Father.

We were created through Jesus and for Jesus, and when we try to remove Jesus from our lives, true suffering begins. We listen to the lies of the world: you are strong and independent. You don’t need anyone. You can do this on your own. You are a physical being in a physical world. Experience everything the flesh has to offer, and think of consequences later. Do as you please in every moment, and don’t allow anyone to tell you otherwise.

This is why we have one of the most powerful tools in the world to use against the lies of the world and the deceit of our hearts. The Word of God. Jesus is the Word, and His word will always hold true. It will never change, nor will it ever fail us. When we hide God’s Word in our hearts, it can never be taken from us. God’s Truth is our key to renewing our minds daily and bring healing and transformation into our hearts.

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

2 Corinthians 4;16-18

Whatever lies we have believed, whatever pain has been inflicted upon us, can all be healed and soothed by the truths and promises given to us from our Heavenly Father. We need to begin to build up a firm foundation on the Rock of Jesus Christ, so that when everything around us becomes unstable or when we feel shaken to the very core, we can know that none of that matters in the scope of eternity.

Healing is a process and a journey, one that can feel slow and painful, but will always be rewarded in the end. No matter how we feel we need to set all of that aside, and dig in deeper to the heavenly hope that created us. While growing roots into Jesus Christ may not stop the war, it will certainly bring you strength that you otherwise would never have. We are not called to find safety in the midst of peace, but in the midst of the battle raging all around us. Safety is the presence of Jesus in our daily battles, not the absence of war.

Right now, Jesus is calling you out of your hiding place, and saying ‘Rise up Mighty Warrior!’. You have been laying on the threshing floor, waiting for your death to come, but it is time to rise up. You are not dead, but alive in Christ. Rise up and take your rightful place in God’s mighty Kingdom, as a rightful heir and son or daughter. Take up your sword and fight. You were not called to a life of fear, but to a life of courage and honor for the Lord.

I personally know how difficult this battle is. You are not alone in this fight. We are all in this together, and more importantly, Jesus is here with us in the midst of it all. No matter what we feel, no matter what we see, Jesus has promised us this. You are not here by accident or by mistake. You were chosen for such a time as this, and through the strength and might of our Lord and Savior, you will overcome and persevere.

So when the battle becomes more than you can bear, rise up in the knowledge of God’s Truth and love, and with faith continue the fight.

For I am already being poured out like a drink offering, and the time for my departure is near.  I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.  Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day—and not only to me, but also to all who have longed for his appearing.

2 Timothy 4:6-8


September 26 2016

Revealing God’s Character

god's characterIt has taken me quite some time to begin to understand God’s character. When I grew up, I was not taught the truth about God, or about who Jesus Christ is. I began to believe that God was a distant God, who was mean and judgmental. I also believed that Jesus was not God, but a man. A man that did horrible things to hurt me. I lost trust in God, and wanted nothing to do with a God that would hurt me, abandon me, and leave me to suffer mercilessly. So that is the image of God that was created in my mind, and what I carried with me through my life.

When I first started to read the Bible and learn about Jesus, I was in awe. This man I had spent so much of my life hating was nothing like what I believed. I did not even connect my beliefs about Him to my past abuse, because when abuse is very bad, we put it away into the dark recesses of our minds. So I had no memories of what had happened to me to led me to any conclusions about why I hated God so much.

So here I was, reading the Bible and seeing Jesus in a whole new light. A God of love. A personal God. A God that wanted to have a relationship with me. It all seemed so wonderful and too good to be true. Yet as I grew to know Jesus through spending time with Him, I began to see His love was indeed very real. More real than I could ever imagine. Yet as I continued to read the Bible I began to fear there were aspects of God that were indeed cruel and vengeful.

I am sure I am not the only person who has ever read the Old Testament and wondered how God could seem so cruel and harsh in contrast to the God of love in the New Testament. With my religious upbringing it was hard to not see Him that way. I begin to fear if I was doing good enough or being good enough or pleasing God most of the time. I wanted to make sure I was making Him happy and staying in His good graces. I began to see the Bible more as a book of rules than a story of love and redemption. I became enslaved to the ideas I had, of who God was and how I should act.

It got to the point where I began to judge everyone around me by their behaviors: how they dressed, what they watched, how they acted, etc. And soon no one was a “real Christian” according to the standards I set by what I determined the Bible said. It is so easy to get lost when you are allowing your beliefs to shape and mold you, instead of the hands of God. You see, I was born to be a daughter of the King, but the enemy decided to try very hard to steal that from me.

So I have lived my whole life believing lie after lie, about who I am, and who God is. Not only did I believe God was mean and cruel, but I also believed I was ugly, fat, worthless, stupid and deserved to be punished constantly. All the exact opposite of what God says in His word.

It has only been through healing these false belief systems inside of me that I have been able to start to understand the true nature of God’s character. These false belief systems have been so deeply rooted inside of me, I didn’t even know they were there. It was just natural that I thought all these horrible things about myself and God. And I think that is where a lot of people get hung up. They begin to believe the lies that God is not a loving God, and that they are not worthy of His love.

That is why we need to build ourselves up in His truth. It is a wonderful thing to read them in the Bible, but for some of us, that is simply not enough. For some of us, we have clung too tightly to false beliefs and only God Himself can restore our minds to what He has created us to be. We need to surrender every bit of ourselves to God, until we can be stripped away from all of the lies, all of the shame, doubt, fear, and hate we have hidden inside of ourselves. It is only then can we see who God has created us to be.

Take a moment today to pray through these truths about who God is and just sit and be with Him today. Let Him love and adore you. You are so valuable and loved to God.


 God is love 1 John 4:8

God is eternal Revelation 1:8

God never changes Hebrews 13:8

God is righteous Psalm 145:7

God wants every person to come into relationship with Him John 3:16

God is slow to anger, and full of love Exodus 34:6-7

God does not want to punish us or be afraid of Him 1 John 4:18

God made the heavens and the earth Psalm 102:25

God is good, and everything He does is good Psalm 119:68

Nothing can ever separate us from God’s love Romans 8:38-39

You are God’s crown of beauty Isaiah 62:3

God is your healer and your redeemer Psalm 103:2-4

God knows we are sinners, and died for us nonetheless Romans 5:8

God created you and set you apart for Himself Jeremiah 1:5

You are precious to God Isaiah 43:4

God takes pleasure in you Psalm 147:11

God is your helper and provider Psalm 54:4

God gives you power and strength Isaiah 40:29-31

God gives us defense and refuge Isaiah 25:4

We were made for God John 1:3

God is our peace Philippians 4:7





August 1 2016

Learning To Follow Jesus

follow Jesus

Ever since I came into a relationship with Jesus Christ, I have been very concerned about following what He wants me to do. I have made it a point to always pray before making any big decisions, or even any decisions that were going to have any real impact on my life. As a matter of fact, I was even afraid of making wrong decisions because I didn’t want to either make God mad, or make a wrong move that would allow hardship to enter my life. I wanted to fully rely on God to the best of my ability and follow Jesus.

As we all know, learning to follow Jesus is no easy task. It requires a level of submission that seems basically impossible. Surrender to God is a process that takes time, and for some it can be a life long work. However, as bad as we might be at following Jesus, it never angers Him or causes Him to look down on us. He loves us unconditionally, and that is something that will never, never change.

As I have been walking through the healing process I have learned so much more about God and who He is. It has been absolutely amazing. Through the darkness and depths of hell I have had to go to in this healing, I have been rewarded with unimaginable depths of a relationship with my Father. That is why I cannot quite walking through this process, as painful and difficult as it is. There is nothing to compare to the love of God, and the beginning of knowing truly knowing Him.

And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will, but as you will.” Matthew 26:39

It has only been because I have been slowly laying down myself before Him in healing that I can even begin to know Him more.  I have had to navigate through times of realizing I was very angry at God, or even hated Him. And that even then, He was not mad at me. What an absolute revelation! God knows me and knows my heart, and knows that my anger and pain lashing out against Him is a result of severe abuse, not because I am wicked.

I have also had to navigate through so much attack against me that there are days I can’t even see straight. I am absolutely flattened by what is coming at me, and have wanted to just give up many times. It is those moments where I cannot even hear from the Lord and life is just too difficult. How can I follow a God that I can be so disconnected from in the midst of war? Yet what I have realized is that as much as I would like to follow Jesus, there are still so many ways I have been holding back.

I get a lot of spiritual attack because of my blog, my Youtube videos, and well for just being me. Since I started my blog I have been very open about inviting people to reach out to me, but it is that very thing that has brought me so much devastating attack. I have longed to connect with people, yet in my willingness to open myself up, I am also opening myself up to being attacked by witchcraft and much worse. It comes from all sides.

no weapon forged against you will prevail,
    and you will refute every tongue that accuses you.
This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,
    and this is their vindication from me,”
declares the Lord.

Isaiah 54:17

Finally, through prayer, I began to really listen to what the Lord was saying His will was for me in answering emails or viewing comments on my videos or FB page. I was making decisions for my every day doing what I thought I should be doing. Answering emails, etc. I was not listening to what God had for me that day. And day in and day out I was being broken by attack, sometimes barely able to function.

I was the one who was making decision for my life, which means I was the one I was really following. I felt obligated to put others first who were contacting me as if I were doing it for God. It was for my ministry, but that doesn’t make it God’s will. So all the while I was running my life out of feelings of guilt and obligation and pressure, God was waiting patiently for me to come to the end of my rope and come to Him.

It is then that He told me that I was doing myself more harm than good by allowing the wrong motives and desires to drive me. It is very easy to get caught up in life and just go alone with the path we have laid out for ourselves. Especially when it looks like were doing good, or like were doing it for God. But until we stop every morning and give ourselves over to God to see where He will take us, we are still following ourselves, and not Jesus Christ.

The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.

Psalm 103:8

God is never mad at us for any of this. He understands the reasons we make the choices we make. He is lovely and kind and patient with us. He will never harbor anger or resentment towards us because we are not completely following Him or surrendering to Him. Ultimately it is we who suffer, no matter what we want to tell ourselves. Because all this time of being led astray by myself and the enemy I was the one paying the price for it, not God.

That is why God was gently trying to correct me in my ways. Not because He is some sort of tyrant who is controlling and judgmental, but because He truly sees and knows everything, and knows what the results of our choices are going to be. He would prefer to gently lead us along into the plan He has had for us all along, to keep us from some of these painful circumstances we are choosing daily. But He will allow us to make any choices we want, because He has given us free will. And that means the free will to follow our own desires and not Jesus Christ.

Today as I opened up the Word a single verse stood out to me.  Instead, his delight is in the LORD’s instruction, and he meditates on it day and night. Psalm 1:2 And it struck me: I can delight in the instruction of the Lord, instead of taking it for granted or resenting it. I have spent time feeling confined by His instruction, instead of freed by it. I have thought it too controlling when I heard the Lord tell me not to do certain things, but I could have found joy in it. He cares about me. He could have left me to my own devices to suffer, but He cares enough to give me that instruction.

Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Psalm 37:4

followjesusThere is always going to be pressure in this world to follow other things besides God. And there is always going to be temptation to pursue those things. We are never going to reach perfection and come to a place where we are 100% following Jesus on this earth. That is not why God made us and brought us here. He chose us because He wanted us: just the way we are. There are not conditions are rules set upon God choosing us. He knew what He was doing when He made humans. He knew they would make mistakes and by giving them free will they may very well turn against the hand that created them. Yet He loves us despite all of that. That is true humility. Loving someone when they may never love you back, choosing someone who may turn on you completely.

I am so thankful for a God that wants to be my father. A God that wants to guide me and help me in this life. Life can be difficult enough on it’s own, so why add more troubles to it? I have lived long enough pushing God away because I believed He hurt me and hated me, why continue to live my life as if that were still true. I know God’s love. I have seen the face of the One who loves me most. And there is nothing more in this life that I could ever gain or that could ever satisfy except Him.

I know everyone struggles as I do. It is perfectly normal. But today I invite you to nestle in a little deeper into the Father’s love and see what He has to say to you. If you have grown weary from this world, then just know you were never meant to take it on alone. You have done the best you can with what you have, but today there is a sweet and tender love that is beckoning to you. That love is so full of mercy and grace that it can sweep away every wrong move you have ever made and transform it into something for your good.

So step out friends. Take His hand. He has so much more to offer you in this life. More than any games, television show, friends, family, or anything else can ever offer you. He can give you exactly what you need. He can show you who He created you to be. One step at a time. Trust Him. God is trustworthy. And He is worth it all, even paying the highest price for.

I say to the Lord, “You are my Lord;
    I have no good apart from you.”

Psalm 16:2

February 8 2016

Know God, Know Love

know godWhen I first started going to church and learning about Jesus, I, like many others, wanted to have some sort of proof or sign that He was real. My husband prayed and asked God to reveal Himself if He was real, and God answered right away. My 12 year old son also prayed to ask God for a sign that He was real, and got one immediately after. God is so faithful and so good to us. He wants to reveal Himself to us and show us how much He cares for us. Yet when I prayed and asked for a sign, I clearly heard, you don’t need a sign, you already know Me. I was pretty baffled by this, because of course I did not know God! I had been rebelling against God for so many years and had denied Jesus without a second thought. Yet I heard that I had to have faith and believe, because I knew God already. What!?

So I moved forward from that point on, trying to discover this faith and trust thing with God. Over time as I came to know Jesus intimately, I began to feel that I indeed must have known Him already. He was so familiar to me. I began to feel that I must have known Him as a baby or a young child. It would make sense, because babies and small children are so innocent and full of wonder. It would be easy for God to connect with them and for them to know God. Then I took that a step further in thinking that if I could have known God at a very young age, then anyone could. And very possible every has! What a revelation that was! I could not prove it, but it felt so right!

That was a thought that has stayed with me over time, but that I haven’t put more thought into, until recently. As I have written about before, I have been going through a journey of inner healing. Through this journey I am working with the Holy Spirit to bring up memories from my childhood, so that I can get a better understanding of why I chose to become a witch. This is a crucial step in my healing and breaking free from the bondage the enemy has worked diligently to keep me captive to. Some of these memories the Holy Spirit has revealed to me that God sent angels to sing over me in my crib. I also learned this in my deliverance from demonic oppression. I have to admit the thought of angels singing over me sounded a bit crazy at first. I mean, why me? I am not special. Or am I?

The LORD your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.

Zephaniah 3:17

We are all very special in the sight of God our Creator. There is no one, not one single person, that is not special and loved by Jesus. Even mass murderers and Satanists are loved and known by God! The Bible makes it very clear that God knows each one of us before we are even born! He has the hairs on our head numbered, our names written in His palm, and yes even sings over us!! This is amazing! If you have been walking alone for a long time, or are even struggling with your relationship with Jesus, you need to know that before time began He already named you!

I believe with all my heart that we know God intimately from the womb. We not only have a strong sense that He is God and created us, but that we have a bond with Him, and know Him intimately. It is only through life circumstances that we turn away from the knowledge of who He is (if you are not raised Christian like some are). Many people are raised in homes that teach other religions, or no religion at all, so they are taught away from Jesus. Many people have very difficult and trying circumstances as children, such as trauma and abuse, that cause them to turn their backs on Jesus. And many still are indoctrinated into the occult and witchcraft, being taught that Jesus is evil and bad. The devil will do whatever he can to turn us away from God, and use whatever he can to make us believe God isn’t real, or hates us, or has abandoned us. So many poor lost souls are out there right now, believing this horrible lies, because the circumstances in our lives were twisted by the devil to make us believe them. This is why the Bible stresses that we must teach our children the ways of the Lord. If we do not, the devil is right there, ready to try to snatch away our knowledge of God!

Do not think for a moment the devil has left you alone. If you think he hasn’t been an active participant in your life, to try to take you from God and bring you into his kingdom, then you are only fooling yourself. His main goal in this world is to bring us up into his kingdom, so at the last day we will side with the anti-christ, and not with God, sending us straight to hell. We have to stop believing that the world begins and ends at the physical and realize that the life is actually a spiritual experience and there is a whole spiritual realm we are completely ignoring. If you think you have problems and they are just caused by bad luck, rotten people, or bad choices, you are not looking at the bigger picture. Yes there are other factors contributing to your problems, but the reality is, everything in the physical is a direct symptom of the spiritual.

Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

Psalm 139:16

angelThe Holy Spirit has shown me that I indeed knew Jesus as a baby and a very small child. I knew God and talked with Him. He sent angels to watch over me and sing to me, to prepare me for what I was going to have to endure. It was very necessary for me to have this time with Jesus so that I could be strong enough to be an over comer through harsh trials and pain, and come out victorious in the end. The enemy thought he had won, because I turned on Jesus and rejected Him for a good portion of my life. But here I am now, with faith strong enough to move mountains, and loyal til the end to Jesus Christ. I believe Jesus strengthens us all in a way special for each individual. The Bible also makes it clear that God sends angels to watch over us and protect us. That means you – God knows you personally and is watching over you, protecting you in ways you cannot even fathom. God may not always protect us from things that can harm us physically, but He always protects us in ways that can harm us spiritually.

I have heard that each of us has our own personal angel. The Bible tells us that the number of angels is thousands upon thousands, ten thousands times ten thousands, so it could easily be true that each of us has at least one angel to guard and protect us. Angels do great works for God and His Kingdom, and many of them work here on earth to help us. So it should be no surprise to you, that angels very well were there, singing over you as an infant. We all need protection from the devil, and this is a time in our lives when we are the most vulnerable. Rejoice in knowing that there very well be an angel near you at this very moment, ready to help comfort and protect you in this world. How wonderful that is. We live by faith, not by sight, and that is how we trust that God is with us at every single moment, throughout our entire lives.

If you do not believe a person can know God or talk to God at such a young age, watch this video of a 2 year old talking to God through prayer! She is alone in her crib and it’s caught on the video monitor. Something like this cannot be contrived!

My frame was not hidden from you

when I was made in the secret place,

when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.

Your eyes saw my unformed body;

all the days ordained for me were written in your book

before one of them came to be.

Psalm 139:15-16

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