Have you ever thought you were gifted? You know, had a special talent to be able to do something exceptionally well? I haven’t. I have never seen myself as a person with any sort of gift. Not until recently that is. As I have been studying the Bible I have come across a realization that God has gifted each one of us with spiritual gifts. Sometimes we do not recognize these gifts as being special, because to the world they seem quite ordinary. I guess that is why I have gone so long without realizing that I had any sort of gift at all.
I actually thought for quite a while that the stories in the Bible about healing and prophecy and miracles were all things dead and gone. You know, just something that happened in Bible days, but doesn’t exist any more. So I was very shocked when a friend told me that people still did healing. I mean really shocked. How could anyone actually heal someone in this day and age? Isn’t that for those TV pastors who smack people in the forehead and they fall on the ground crying? I mean, like a joke or a ruse, not reality. She assured me it was reality indeed.
It wasn’t for at least 6 months that I revisited that topic in my life. In the meantime I was suffering from severe brain fog, dizziness, and exhaustion and I had no idea why. Well, I had some idea why. I thought it had to do with a back injury and so I was seeing a chiropractor to try to relieve my misery. Some days I could barely function and on those days life was difficult at best. I could barely get through the day doing the school with the kids and getting some chores done. Going to the chiropractor helped on the days I did go, but that wasn’t very often.
I actually ended up going to a new chiropractor who saw me three times a week because after an x-ray I was told it looked pretty bad. I prayed often for help from God in this situation because I just wanted it to go away. Then I heard of a church in a nearby city that held a service once a month just for healing. I mean they actually had people with the spiritual gift of healing who could pray for you to be healed. I guess I was a little skeptical at first, but I was super excited at the same time. I believe in the power of God and His truths in the Bible. After all, Jesus gave the power and authority to the disciples to heal and the Bible tells us Jesus never changes, so why would things be any different now?
The church that was holding the service was one I had never been to before. A worship band played first, and it was different from what I was used to. Instead of playing typical worship songs, they would play one song and repeat the chorus many times. I often get nervous when I am in a new setting, so this actually set me at ease after a while. I didn’t know many of the songs they played, but because of the repetition it became easy to sing along. Before I knew it I was being moved by the worship and I felt the Holy Spirit pressing on me in a way I had never experienced before.
I had some pretty amazing encounters with God before, but here in this room where the worship bad was channeling in to the Holy Spirit, I felt Him fall upon me like a bomb. I was moved to tears and to the point of being overwhelmed, because I had never felt God so strongly before. It was amazing and scary at the same time. And it was unmistakably God in that room then.
After the worship, which I never wanted to end, the person in charge of the healing service talked for a while about the work they did healing, there in the city and in other countries as well. I was very surprised, once again, to know that healing was something that was real and alive in this day and age. After that he asked for his team of healers to come up. The healers each were able to get a word from God about ailments of people in the room. They did not know who had the pain or problem, just that there was something in a certain area of the body. They would call that out and ask that if anyone had that ailment, to please come down to the front of the stage for healing. It was not cheesy or hoaky at all. Once the healers were done with that, the worship bad began to play again and the people who came for healing were standing at the front of the stage. A healer would come up to them privately to pray for healing. Often two or three other people would come over and pray alongside them.
One of the healers called out that someone had ‘brain fog that was spiritual attack’. I wasn’t really sure if that was me, but I knew I had brain fog badly. It never occurred to me that it could be spiritual attack. I went up to the front of the stage and waited for someone to pray with me. I had two different people praying over me for probably about 10 minutes. I didn’t know if I felt anything or not to be honest. It was all so overwhelming and strange and I didn’t know what to think. While my husband waited for me in his seat, he was praying for healing for himself because he had bad back pain. So bad it was hard to even sit in his chair. But when we walked out of there, his pain was gone. The Holy Spirit was all over this healing service and it was apparent to everyone there.
The next morning I woke up and I felt amazing. I mean like a brand new person. I felt like God had touched my soul and I was brimming with power and love and the Holy Spirit. I had never felt so alive and happy and loving that day. It was a spiritual high like I never knew could exist. I mean I have done lots of drugs in the past and never had I had a high like this. This is exactly what people wish they could get from drugs. My brain fog and dizziness were gone. And that is when I realized, that a big part of my problem must have been spiritual attack. Another thing I guess I didn’t really think was for our time either. Just something you read in the Bible in the form of possession. It seems easy to dismiss things we cannot easily see, but I am learning that God is so much bigger than what we can see with our eyes. There is a whole new level to life that we are to distracted to notice and our enemy would love to keep us away from it. It was not long before I was about to see just how badly the enemy wanted to keep me away from the truth.
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.John 10:10