For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Ephesians 6:12
If someone had told me a year ago I had an enemy, I’m not sure how I would have reacted. I mean I did spend a big part of my life thinking the world was against me and that no one liked me. But I’m not sure I would have ever used such a strong word as ‘enemy’. Yet the Bible tells us we have an enemy, one that prowls like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. I’m sure when I read that I thought, ‘whoa, that’s pretty intense’, but then moved on. I mean, I can’t see him, or feel him, so what could he possibly be doing in my life?
I heard once that the biggest ally Satan has in America is that no one believes he is real. I came to a point where I realized how true this statement is. Even as a witch I did not believe in Satan. He was as real as the Christian God I refused to believe in. So when I went to the healing service and learned that I was under spiritual attack, it woke up a truth inside of me that had been sleeping. It was only a few days later that a new light would shed onto this truth, exposing it before me like a horror movie on Halloween night.
I was telling a friend about my experience at the healing service and how I had been feeling so horrible for months. Brain fog, dizziness, exhaustion; and how I felt it was a part of a spiritual attack. I also told her how I had sometimes felt a dark presence near me. I would feel as though someone was behind me, but I knew no one was there. Yet I felt like I would want to turn around because I could sense something there. I tried to brush it off before as nothing, but now I was seeing that it was something after all.
My friend asked to pray for me. As she was praying I started to feel light-headed and dizzy, or I should say more than I had a few minutes before. Even after the healing service this brain fog kept coming back several times a week. When she was done praying I told her I felt weird – just no right. She said she would pray again and as she prayed she began to speak in tongues. It was something I had never heard before, so I wasn’t sure what to think, but my life had been getting pretty strange so I figured I should just roll with it.
As she continued to pray I got a vision of me screaming. But I didn’t know why. I couldn’t understand it. Then what I say changed to something whipping , like a belt maybe. I told her and she asked if anyone in my family was mad that I became a Christian or had been a devil worshiper. I said, no, not that I knew of. I suddenly got a vision in my mind of what appeared to be Satan. It was the stereo typical portrayal of the devil – red face and horns. I know that he does not really look like that, as the Bible tells us so. In this vision, he was screaming at me. He was angry, very angry.
She kept praying fervently. Slowly the realization came upon me that Satan had been using my father to oppress me during my childhood. Not because he was a devil worshiper or evil or possessed, but simply because he was vulnerable to it without even knowing. Satan wanted to steal me away from God, even as a child. Why? Because that is his job.
You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father’s desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies. John 8:44
You are a child of a promise and Satan wants nothing more than to steal that away from you, me and every other human who ever lives. Satan hates God and he hates you. And he is patient and willing to go to great lengths to carry out his plans to destroy your faith and your belief in God the creator. He did it to me, for 36 years of my life. My parents decided not to teach me about God and let me find my own path. My own devices led me to become a witch and completely reject God. But by His sovereign will Satan could not win. What he had deemed for evil, God has used for good.
When I realized this truth, I was set free. My brain fog disappeared and I felt amazing. Light and free, connected to life and God again. Even though the whole thing seemed crazy. I mean this is the kind of stuff you see in a movie, not in your own life. It is so tempting to brush it off as crazy, and to certainly not tell other people about it. But that is exactly what Satan wants me to do. He wants me to think I am crazy – a product of too many drugs and practicing witchcraft. It would be so very easy for me to believe that lie. And I struggled with it for quite some time. But Jesus tells us that the truth will set us free, and indeed it has.
The great dragon was hurled down—that ancient serpent called the devil, or Satan, who leads the whole world astray. He was hurled to the earth, and his angels with him. Revelation 12:9