Growing up I was not a happy child. I was always very lonely and sad. Yet as an adult I would never have looked back and told you there was something really terrible about my life. For me it seemed pretty average. I had a mom and a dad, as well as a sister. My parents both worked and I went to school every day. I always had a warm home and bed; nice clothes to wear and food on the table. I was never lacking in any of those basics needs. My parents fought a lot and were very angry all the time. We went camping during the summer, or to the lake to swim. I loved my family the best I could.
Looking back on my life I can start to put the pieces together. I can see things that I could not see as a child. I have an understanding of the world and how it works that I did not have as a child. As a child, many things were hidden from me, and it was not until I began looking that I began to have answers. I would never have told you I grew up in the occult and participated in satanic rituals as a child. Never. These was knowledge that was so well hidden from me that only God could reveal it to me.
When you look deeper into the meaning of the word occult, you will see that it goes much deeper than we even realize.
1. to shut off from view or exposure : cover, eclipse
So as you can see the occult can be something you are a part of and never even know, unless you have been given the right or power to know about it. That is how I lived my whole life in the occult and had no idea. Many people, like myself, have been indoctrinated into the occult with no knowledge of it whatsoever. They live their whole lives with hidden connections within them to the occult and this knowledge remains hidden from them. Many people would rather choose not to know. I can completely understand why.
There are many ways in which a person can be indoctrinated into the occult. You see, the devil will stop at nothing to rise up his own army that will come against Christ on the Last Day. He started generations ago and has planted a seed inside one that would carry into millions. That seed started with Adam and because of his choice, every blood line became tainted by sin.
How can a Christian be in the occult and not know? It starts with your blood line. Thousands of men have given over the right to their entire heritage and blood line through the occult. All general fraternities, such as Masons, Shriners or any other order, brotherhood, fellowship or group of knights or sons are all occult. Not to mention all lodges such as Elk and Moose and the Rotary Club. All these groups do satanic rituals and give allegiance to false gods and goddesses.
Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one’s youth. Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them! He shall not be put to shame when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.
Then there are the cults, such as Mormons, Jehovah’s Witnesses, Seventh Day Adventists, Scientologists and many others. These groups all worship false gods and goddess also, and do satanic rituals. Then there are religions that worship false gods and goddesses, such as Hinduism, Buddhism, Muslim, and many more. Yes, even Catholicism worships false gods and goddesses.
These are all groups that look good and positive on the outside. They are high functioning members of society that do good. Then we have groups that are openly a part of the occult, such as all groups of witches and pagans, as well as new age and satanists. This is such a small list of the number of groups that are a cover for the devils schemes. There are many others that I have not listed. This does not exclude Christians by any means. There are many Christians who are in a fraternal order such as Masons and have great influence over our churches today. These men have helped to bring the occult into the Christian church.
If you have had one family member in any of the groups I listed, you have a blood line in the occult. Each and every male member of these groups is indoctrinated in and has to give blood rights over to every generation after him in order to be accepted. Many of them have no idea of what they are really doing. Most men would never willingly cause these kind of harm to anyone else. The devil is extremely deceptive, and knows exactly how to draw people in, causing them to believe what they are doing is indeed good. Just like he did with Adam and Eve.
I am not saying that every single person in the occult has been a party to the same type of satanic ritual abuse I have been. However, there are many people out there, who, just as I was, were a part of this and had no memory whatsoever. It is only Jesus Christ Himself that reveals these things to us, when and if we are ready to know it. The fact is, that many more people who have no been physically a part of satanic rituals, have actually been a part of astral rituals.
But if any nation will bow its neck under the yoke of the king of Babylon and serve him, I will let that nation remain in its own land to till it and to live there, declares the Lord.
We need to understand that the devil is using this as his fail safe. He wants to ensure that he will have as many turned against God as he possibly can. If we have parts of us that has allegiance with the occult, then it will be that much easier for him to use us in his own army. That is why it is so very important that we begin to remove the veils that have been placed before our eyes so we can allow God to bring us into alignment with who He created us to be.
Being connected to the occult sounds extremely scary. It sounds like you are evil or bad and that God is going to be very angry with you. It also sounds like you are powerless in helpless in an evil world. This is exactly what the devil would love you to believe, and exactly how he keeps it hidden from so many. We believe these hidden connections make us evil, and that we need to continue to keep them hidden, so we can live without fear or shame. Fear and shame are huge motivating factors for us. That is where grace comes in.
The fear of exposure and the shame of what we believe to be true about us is what keeps us in the dark. Staying in the dark is what is actually giving the devil the power within you. It’s not the connections to the occult itself that are dangerous, it’s the ignorance of them. Jesus has all power and authority over each one of these connections. So if you know about these connections, then Jesus can break them and set you free. If you see where you have hidden darkness within you, then you can expose it to the light of Truth; Jesus Christ.
“Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
In Hosea 4:6, God tells us that we are being destroyed because of a lack of knowledge. He is not referring to wordly knowledge that led us into sin., but the knowledge of the truth of who God is and the truth of who we are. God is a good and loving Father, and we are His people. He will never turn His back on us, but He welcomes us with open and loving arms. No matter what. When we believe that we are overcome by evil in an evil world, those beliefs are all based on lies about God. If we are evil, that makes God angry and harsh and condemning. If the world is evil, that makes God cruel and distant. It is those beliefs that fuel are fear and shame and keep us hidden in the dark.
During my childhood as I was abused, I was forced to worship false gods and goddesses and take on many, many spirits within my being. Everything that I did led me to believe I was evil and bad and terrible and that God could never love me or forgive me. That was the point of all the abuse; to turn me away from God and fill me with lies of who He is. All that made me powerless and helpless. It is the desire to find the truth in the midst of all this pain and find healing that has given me strength. Through my willingness to go into these dark places I have broken many connections with the occult and therefore made more room for a relationship with God.
I did not have to walk into this healing, and learn about my awful abuse, or the fact that I basically grew up in the occult. What a huge deception over my entire life. It was painful enough to feel as though my entire life was a lie, let alone to come to terms with the abuse itself. Many people that walk into healing of this depth actually quite before they get even as far as I have. It is a difficult process. Yet week after week I encounter God in ways that are so amazing and wonderful, I could never walk away. Exposing the darkness within myself has filled me with so much light and truth and love and peace, that it absolutely overshadows every thing else in this entire world. Nothing, and I mean nothing, compares to the love and knowledge of God I have now. And it just keeps growing.
This is the message we have heard from him and proclaim to you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin.
1 John 1:5-7
If we refuse to see where we have connected with the occult, then we are taking away from areas in our lives where we can have more of God. Once you have had a taste of the Living God, it will be hard to not desire more and more of Him. Freedom from oppression will bring into the presence of the Living God and we will experience Him in ways we never though imaginable. The devil will do whatever he can to stand in the way of that. Including leading you to believe you have grown as much as you can, causing blocks or oppression to keep you from going further, and much more. So we must keep fighting and pressing in to Him, seeking Him with all that we have.
I hear from many oppressed people in my ministry. Many of them are desperate and seeking answers, lost and confused about why they have been suffering for so long. Add in the fact that you actually have spirits coming against you to try to stop you from gaining freedom, and life feels impossible. Diving into that depth of pain is so incredibly difficult, but it is doable. If I can do this, anyone can. I promise you this. That is, without Christ. Christ is the answer to every single problem.
No matter how far any one individual comes with their healing, God will love them and accept them. He does not care how far we go in healing, although He wants us to each find freedom. However, God knows exactly what each person can handle and where their heart is. God is in charge of each person’s healing, and we only need to partner with Him and do our parts. Jesus loves you so very much. He is not concerned with where you are at or what you have done. He is not worried about what you watch or eat or do. He is only concerned with your heart. Give Jesus your heart and trust Him, and watch and see the miracles He will do in your life. It is only a matter of time.
My prayer for each one of you is not that you come into complete healing and freedom in this life, but that you come into a complete knowledge and understanding of God as your Father, and Jesus Christ as your One and Only. If we can achieve that, then we have gained absolutely everything in this world. Jesus is the reason we are here. We were created to love and be loved. We were created to carry out an assignment in this world. It does not take strength or courage to complete your assigned job here on earth. It only takes trust. Trust in the One who created the heavens and the earth to pull you out of the pit and restore your life. He is faithful. He is love.