November 6 2017

How Mind Control Programming Affects Us All: Satanic Illuminati Part 1

mind control programmingMind control programming is the ability to control and/or manipulate a persons thoughts, feelings, beliefs and actions through implanted subconscious level coded instructions via subatomic devices. Mind control programming is placed by suggestions to the subconscious mind during a traumatic event. The programmer then creates pathways into the inner lobe of the brain in order to access the deepest recesses of the subconscious mind.

This is where encoded instructions are kept and reinforced through visual, sensational, and autonomic hyper stimulation. Once these instructions are encoded into the brain, and the pathways are formed through trauma, constant reinforcement is set up through triggers. Triggers can be various levels of personal trauma i.e. physical, emotional, life events/circumstances, etc. as well as visual aids i.e. images, pictures, symbols, etc. and sounds i.e. music notes, voices, phrases, words, etc. The brain us set up to automatically respond to these triggers and run the corresponding programming.

The base of mind control programming is conditioning. Conditioning is the process of learning through association between reward/punishment as a result of a particular action. Conditioning starts as early as birth, when an infant learns by how a parent responds to its cries. The repeated responses send signals through neurotransmitters, encoding the information into the brain. For example, a child that is the victim of neglect receives the information that its basic needs are not being met on a repeated basis. This translates to a physical and then emotional level, creating thought patterns and belief systems about oneself, i.e. “I am unlovable. I am worthless. I am unimportant.’, etc.

This is reinforced through the lifespan by seemingly similar circumstances i.e. trauma triggers. For example, as an adult not having the emotional needs met can trigger a sense of repeated worthlessness and self hate. Any reminder of the trauma reinforces the created interactions in the brain. Often time it causes the individual to feel like they are reliving moments of past abuse over and over again, thus being triggered back into the trauma state.

There are three levels of trauma in which programming is built upon. Basic level trauma creates mesencephalon (midbrain) level trauma which leads to gaps in the cerebral cortex, causing minor level personality split. Basic level trauma consists of that is high in emotional pain/trauma and low in physical pain/trauma. All programming starts at this level and builds upon itself exponentially.

Second level trauma is high levels of emotional and physical pain, yielding high levels of emotional trauma, but low levels of physical trauma. Third level trauma creates both high levels of physical and emotional pain, as well as resulting in high levels of physical and emotional trauma.

These types of trauma begin by creating neuron pathways aka supernatural highways. These supernatural highways are used to send all supernatural activity through, including such things as the ability to astral travel to and from second heaven, communicate with others outside of your body or scope of understanding (aka the dead, demons, etc) and even God Himself. They are also used to gather supernatural knowledge and understanding and are used as portals and gateways into and out of the body itself by any and all beings, whether natural or supernatural. All supernatural information travels on these superhighways, being directed and redirected at will.

When programmers get access to these pathways, they create electronic devices in which to download telepathic and kinesthetic files, tapes and reset buttons, as well as beacons and platforms. This allows total control of the brain waves and its receptors and functions, by the programmer, and gives complete access to all parts of the brain at all times, unless inhibited by neurotransmitter functions.

Another example of how programming works is the emotional stimuli via repeated imagery. A child who repeatedly watches the same movie over and over again is being rewarded with sensual stimuli. The combination of visual and auditory stimuli produces a symphony of emotional responses, i.e. elation, sadness, fear, ecstasy, etc. The use of storybook characters sets a scene for an entire fantasy world to be set yp inside the child. The child can live vicariously through each of the different characters, playing out different thoughts and feelings and beliefs that have been programmed in.

For example, the Wizard of Oz is a very popular movie used in mind control programming. A child can be Dorothy: lost in a tornado, stuck in chaos, perpetually spinning out of control. Or the Cowardly Lion: Living in fear and the inability to act, making decisions based on fear. Or The Tin Man: only able to react in certain situations, frozen in others. These are just a few of the many characters that are used.

With each viewing of the movie the child is being conditioned to respond in certain ways and believe certain things. The witch is evil yet powerful. The witch is feared, yet also revered for her power. A special song plays whenever the wicked witch takes the scene, yet this same song is played when the mean aunt comes to steal away Toto. This reinforces that the wicked witch can be anyone at anytime, coming to harm you and those you love.

Dorothy is both the victim and the heroine, always maintaining a child-like innocence. Her whole journey is a quest to go home; the place that fulfills her hears desire. By the end of the movie her journey turns out to be nothing more than a fever induced dream that only resembles facets of her reality. This is all used into creating and reinforcing the belief that life is a grand illusion; a story being played out. The lines of reality and fantasy have been intentionally blurred as to cause confusion about the state of mental clarity during the programming. Once the programming is running it becomes so well lived it is indistinguishable from ones own thoughts and beliefs, guaranteeing its establishment.

With modern technology, it is now possible to instill these programs into the immature mind without opening up the pathways to neurons through trauma. Instead, micro-cellular devices are installed at birth with the first shots in the hospital. These micro-cellular devices have the capacity to run via endorphin release. Endorphins are neurotransmitters and pass signals from one neuron to the next. They release endorphins into the inner system which allows micro-cellular devices to run. The endorphins are produced as a response to stress, fear, pain and euphoria.

Emissions from screens (televisions, cell phones, etc) emit an electromagnetic energy that communicates with the nano technology. The demonic attach to the micro technology or nanotechnology. Demons that enter in through this technology do not need permission to enter or stay, because the technology is already in the body. The demons continue to run the programming and release endorphins as needed.

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away. Revelation 21:4

While mind control programming might be predominant in this season of history, it is in no way in total control over our lives. Only Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, has the final say over what happens in this world and in our lives. We may have relinquished this world over to evil, but Jesus is still King and Lord over all. There is nothing that can stop or change that, ever.

We must remember that we still have a free will choice to submit our lives and everything in it over to God. Our Father in heaven in not sitting idly by watching all this happen. He is actively present in the war the devil is waging upon us, and is doing much more than our human minds can ever perceive. What matters most is our soul and spirit, and while the devil means to corrupt our souls and send us to hell, Jesus means to bring us life saving salvation through His atoning sacrifice. That is a power that is unstoppable and eternal.

God’s promises never fade. He is an everlasting God that is no created being. He is eternal and so are our spirits. That is why He does everything to protect our spirit so we can remain with Him forever. Yes, some people do ultimately choose evil. That does not change the goodness of God, or the might of His power. He gave us free will so we might choose our own destiny, and some people do choose the temptations of the devil over the love of our God. However, I do not believe there are nearly as many people that choose evil over God.

Satan’s powers are temporary. God’s power is eternal. We know that He will prevail. We are called to fight. God is calling out to the sleeping masses and saying,  “Awake, O sleeper, and arise from the dead, and Christ will shine on you.” Ephesians 5:14. So rise up brothers and sisters, to the call of the Holy One and allow His light to shine on you, and raise you from your slumber. The devil’s day is almost done, and the army of Christ needs to stand firm and fight.

For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast.

Ephesians 2:8-9

 

September 25 2017

From Surviving To Thriving

survivingFor most of my life I have been just trying to survive. It’s like hanging on to the back of a speedboat that is cruising through the lake at 50 mph. Surviving is something that takes place of true living. You hunker down and wait for the storm to pass, except that it never really does. So you just keep hanging on as tight as you can, and hope that you make it through to the end.

At some point in time I got tired of surviving. I didn’t want to just survive life anymore. I wanted to be more than a conqueror through Christ. I wanted my reality to be the strength that everyone else saw in me. However, that was just too far away from my understanding of life. Moments of strength are great, but they have been so fleeting, and leave hopelessness in their wake. I needed the kind of strength that was going to allow me to let go of the speedboat, and instead walk on water.

Being a survivor of ritual abuse is a unique experience that is hard to describe. In many ways it is like someone who has been engaged in combat and comes home. You have seen war, death, destruction, and all sorts of evil. You are in a foreign country and away from reality as you have always known it. When you come home, everyone is so happy to see you. They throw a party for you and give you accolades for what you have done. Yet you just want to sit alone in a dark room, because it’s overwhelming to be at a celebration which only reminds you of pain and death.

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.

Revelation 21:4

You are overwhelmed because you haven’t seen joy in a long time. You don’t even know what to talk about to people who haven’t been immersed in the circumstances of war like you have. They talk about the weather and politics and school and you just stare at them, trying to focus on what their saying and not on latent memories pushing through. At the end of the party they shoot off fireworks and it’s all you can do is run, because the flashing lights and sounds of explosion send you right back into the combat zone.

No one understands why you ran. No one comprehends the level of pain and suffering you now know so intimately. They want to encourage you, but their words roll off you like water. You feel isolated and alone in the midst of a crowd. How can you explain what you feel, what you have seen, when no one even wants to hear the truth in the first place. Everyone means well, but while you have been in your own personal hell, they have been enjoying the freedom that you fought for them to have.

When you have experienced high levels of trauma for a good portion of your life, you are living in survival mode. You know no other way of being. You are on autopilot, just trying to get through every moment of every day and still breathe. Many people are living this way and have no idea that they are doing so. It becomes normal to them, just as it did for me. Before I ever realized I was a survivor, I was living in survival mode. My whole life was spent surviving, I just had no idea. It wasn’t until I was desperate enough to know the reason why I was a huge mess that I began to learn the reasons behind daily surviving.

 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

1 Corinthians 10:13

Survival does not equip us to thrive in unhealthy situations, nor does it help us find the truth as to why suffering has followed us wherever we go. Surviving only helps us to get one foot in front of the other. For some, this is how they will have to make it through life, because facing the obvious pain that has been staring at them for so long, is simply more than they can bare. Yet for others, surviving will be a season, not a permanent condition. They will strive to find out the truth in the answers to why things are the way they are. It is through that truth they will find freedom and healing in Jesus Christ.

I have been hanging on for what feels like a lifetime, and Jesus has given me the strength to finally let go. That speedboat has no intention of stopping, so Jesus had to talk me through the steps to let go of it, and allow Him to catch me right where I was. It was extremely hard and painful to even get to that place. Once I was able to let go, the world around me slowed down and I could once again breathe.

And he awoke and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, “Peace! Be still!” And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. He said to them, “Why are you so afraid? Have you still no faith?” And they were filled with great fear and said to one another, “Who then is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him?”

Mark 4:39:41

It’s amazing when you finally come to a place where you are no longer watching your life whiz by you, wondering how to catch up. You can stop and open your eyes without the spray from the boat blinding you. You can focus on taking one step at a time towards Jesus, even though the storm is still raging on around you. The wind and the waves threaten you, and so you learn that sometimes you have to stand perfectly still while you get your bearings, and sometimes you can take that next step, always looking for Jesus.

Here I am, two years into my inner healing therapy and I have finally reached a place where I can breathe. Where I can be at peace with my circumstances and know that Jesus is my Rock and Redeemer. As much hell as I have been through these past two years, it was all worth the fight. There is nothing like the fresh air you breathe when you climb out of the pit. You get used to the stench and the muck of it, and you completely forget who you even are.

His master said to him, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant. You have been faithful over a little; I will set you over much. Enter into the joy of your master.’ Matthew 25:21

Yet Jesus has never left my side, not for one minute of my life. He has told me I am His, I am beautiful, I am special. Things I couldn’t believe before now give me hope. Jesus tells me He has never left me and I now know its true. Through every situation I was forced into, and every sin of my own doing, He was there. My proud Papa, who knew the core of my heart, and tells me I am good. I never could have thought I was good before. I believed I was evil, through and through. God knows the truth, about each and every one of us.

The goodness of God cannot be stopped, and His love can never be tainted. No matter what we do, and no matter what happens in this world, the love of God is an unstoppable force that will plow over the enemy every time. The only thing that keeps us from that understanding is believing his lies. If the devil can convince us that God is not who He says He is, then he has his hooks in us for as long as we allow it.

We may have all authority over the evil of this world, but until we recognize where we have allowed it in, we cannot use that authority to expel it. We will always have struggles and suffering as consequences to our choices to deny it. Jesus sees you. He sees your heart. He knows you, and He says ‘You are good.’ Who are you going to choose to believe?

Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.  Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore I do not run like someone running aimlessly; I do not fight like a boxer beating the air.

1 Corinthians 9:24-26

December 5 2016

Breaking Ties To The Occult

 occult tiesWhen I first came into a realization that I was still connected to the occult, I was confounded to say the least. I had come into this amazing relationship with Christ and had renounced witchcraft, and all my involvement with the occult numerous times. Wasn’t that enough? For some it may well be enough, but for me I knew there was something more than what I was experiencing in this life, something so palpable and tangible that I was willing to keep working to pursue it. That something was personally knowing Christ.

I had come to a point where I had seen the face of God, and felt His love envelope me. That was enough to know that what I was experiencing as a Christian was but a taste of what I was created to have. These times of experiencing God like this were mere moments in my life; and those fleeting moments left an impression on me so deep that I would do whatever it took to have more of the Living God.

I was so oppressed at that point in time. I had brain fog, depression, explosive anger, physical pains and much more. All of this was getting in the way of my daily life, let alone coming closer to God. If this oppression was what was getting in the way of my relationship with Jesus, then it had to be healed and removed. The problem was I had already tried everything I could think of to fix it, and nothing helped.

As the deer pants for streams of water,

so my soul pants for you, my God.

My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.

When can I go and meet with God?

Psalm 42:1-2

As I mentioned before, I openly renounced all of my involvement with witchcraft and the occult many times. I got rid of all my books, tarot cards, crystals, enchanted items, books, and much more. I even got rid of anything that was about witchcraft, such as movies with witchcraft, or fiction books with witchcraft. I was serious about cutting that part of my life off completely. So why was I so oppressed? What had I done to deserve this torment and hell I was living in?

The question was not what had I done, but what had been done to me. The connections to the occult do not always come simply because you chose to participate openly in witchcraft of some sort. As a matter of fact, many people who are attracted to the occult will most likely find they already have hidden connections to the occult within them. That is the reason the attraction is there.

In my last post I talked about being how being indoctrinated into the occult can happen to anyone and they can be completely unaware. I described how blood ties are all that is needed in order to create a connection with the occult into a person. You need not ever openly pursue witchcraft or the occult in order to have been indoctrinated into it’s belief systems. The occult is a way of life, much like Christianity. It prescribes to certain beliefs, thought processes, and mind sets. These beliefs are constantly reinforced through many TV programs, movies, music, and much more.

What I came to learn over this past year is that my connections the occult and witchcraft ran so deep, that even I was unaware of them. Many of my ancestors had been involved in the occult through false religions and worship of false gods and goddesses. Through these false beliefs they were indoctrinated into, they were convinced to give over access to, and the blood rights of, every generation after them. That was all that was needed for the devil to be able to begin his plan over my life.

The coming of the lawless one is by the activity of Satan with all power and false signs and wonders, and with all wicked deception for those who are perishing, because they refused to love the truth and so be saved.

2 Thessalonians 2:9

Thankfully God had a plan far before Satan ever did. He had a plan over my life to bring hope and truth into this dark world. He chose me to be a light, shining brightly in the midst of this darkness, and bring many more torch bearers into awareness with me. At first I really couldn’t hear any of this truth. It was hard enough understanding that I was still in the occult. Let alone that I had been tortured into agreeing to allow many more connections to the occult inside of me.

Many people like myself will have experienced the same type of things, to varying degrees and levels, and have no memory of it either. I only was able to come into the truth of my life because I was willing to pursue Jesus with every ounce of my being. That meant going into the very darkness I had been trying so desperately to hide from. You see, because of the terrible events I was forced to participate in, I believed nothing by horrible things about myself. It was those beliefs; that I was evil, bad, that God hated me, that I was irredeemable; that kept me from every wanting to seek the truth. How could I go to God to find truth when it was the truth that was going to expose how evil I truly was?

Yet week after week I have been willing to walk into the pain, the hell, the terrible memories, and allow Jesus to bring light to all these dark places inside of me. I have been exposed to so much truth and hope and light that it has changed me in ways that are absolutely remarkable. I have gone from oppressed to encouraged; and it is all because of my surrender.

God has a plan for each one of our lives. A plan to bring us into His glory in this world. A plan to partner with us to do amazing things for His Kingdom. This plan was set in place for before the foundation of the world was even laid. Yet many of us have become lost and forsaken in a world that seems to constantly beat us down. God has not given up on you. He hasn’t even begun to show you the miracles He will work inside of you.

 

How can a person who suspects that have been indoctrinated into the occult find freedom? Finding freedom is a process. There is no clear and concise guide on how to do so, but there are definite tools to help a person who is seeking healing and freedom. Each person is going to come to this path in a different way, because each person is unique. Every person has different levels of oppression and also of denial that keep them from knowing more about the hidden truth within them. Yet there is nothing that is impossible with God.

The first step is just to begin to try to connect on a deeper level of intimacy with Christ. Knowing Him more will give us so much strength to continue on a journey that can seem hopeless or impossible. Yet for some, there oppression is so severe that connecting with God is so difficult that it may take great strides to make any progress. Fear not, God will reward you for all your work to connect further with Him.

Deliverance is also another very important step into freedom and healing. It is only one step however. Deliverance was never created to be the completion of the process, but instead, the beginning of it. Deliverance with a trained ministry who knows how to get to the roots of demonic oppression, curses and ancestral blood rights is going to do a great work within you. However, every Christian who has a deliverance needs to do continued work afterwards. This life is a learning process, and a gift not to be taken lightly.

I never recommend self deliverance. We do not have the tools or skill set that allows us to get to the roots of oppression, curses, and blood rights. A true deliverance minister will not only bring us into a new level of freedom, they will also help us to connect to the Holy Spirit in new and amazing ways. They will help us to see miracles happen within us. They will help us to hear the voice of the Living God for ourselves. They are facilitators who allow God to come in and run the show, while maintaining peace and stability.

But now thus says the Lord, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. I give Egypt as your ransom, Cush and Seba in exchange for you. Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you, I give men in return for you, peoples in exchange for your life. Fear not, for I am with you; I will bring your offspring from the east, and from the west I will gather you.

Isaiah 43:1-5

I recommend that every single Christian have a deliverance, and that they use a ministry that goes to the head demon in charge. For more information on such a ministry, please go to my FAQ page. Many Christians will highly benefit from some sort of inner healing. Inner healing is going to help with healing emotional and spiritual wounds that have been stored up throughout our lives. Every person has some degree of emotional and spiritual trauma within them that has not been addressed, and it will fester inside of us if not healed.

Every person that wants to seek deliverance and inner healing needs to be deeply in prayer over this matter. It is not something to be taken lightly. If a person is not prepared they can be easily led astray by a minister who is actual trained to lead you back into oppression. God will bring the right people into your life at the right time. It took me almost 2 years to find the deliverance ministry that helped me. Two years of fighting and suffering and begging God for help. I had to be ready.

Warfare is a normal part of the Christian walk. The devil is not going to sit idly by while we pursue freedom and the call God has for us here. He is going to do whatever he can to try to trip us up, stop us, or throw us completely off course. Remember, he has already been working against us from day 1. He is not going to stop now.

swordEach Christian needs to begin to learn how to put on the armor God has given them and use the Sword of the Spirit to fight against the devil and his schemes. We need to be able to grow in discernment so we can understand the attack of our enemy. Every good soldier needs to know what they are fighting against and why they are in the battle. Each of us are soldiers in the Mighty Army of God, and as we strengthen ourselves in the Lord, we will grow our discernment and our battle skills.

Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.

                                                                                                                  Hebrews 12:1-2

Having the occult hidden inside of us is not something to fear. The occult is just another device of the devil that he uses to render us useless against him. These devices are not something that are impossible to overcome, but on the contrary; we were created to overcome them. Think of it this way; you have been entrenched into darkness for a reason. That reason being that when you overcome it, you have the power and the strength to help others overcome it as well. The devil does not want you to overcome it, but when you do, you will be a powerful weapon of God against the darkness.

That is exactly what keeps me going. There are many days when it becomes so difficult I truly want to give up. I want to go back to a simple life of baking and taking care of my family and leave this blog far behind. God always is so kind and loving though, as He gently reminds me that even if I was to quit, the war would still continue. I was made for this, and so were you. Together, we can partner with Jesus Christ, to become an unstoppable force to spread the glory and goodness of God.

You don’t have to be ready, you just have to be willing. Trust in Jesus. Be with Him. Tell Him your fears. He already knows them all. Believe that He is going to redeem every bit of hell you have experienced in this world and absolutely turn it around for your good. He loves you. You were worth the highest price to Him. He paid it willingly, for you. No matter how bad you may think you are, how useless or worthless. To Jesus Christ, you were worth it all. And that is a fact that nothing can change.

The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim liberty to the captives and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.”

Luke 4:18-19

September 19 2016

Satanic Ritual Abuse In The Church

ritual abuse churchWhat is satanic ritual abuse? Satanic ritual abuse is when an innocent victim is forced to take part in a satanic ritual. These victims can be any age, race or gender. Usually during the satanic  rituals the victim goes under some sort of physical, emotional or sexual trauma. There are many in this world who would believe that this sort of thing never happens. Then there are others who would believe this only happens in “satanic churches” or other such evil places. All would most definitely assume that it would never happen right in their own neighborhood, by people they know, who are Christian. That is how the devil deceives the masses daily.

A couple of years ago I would have been with the majority in thinking that satanic rituals were not something that happens, and most certainly doesn’t happen to “normal” people or “good upstanding” people. I was in huge denial. Denial can be a very good thing. When our core beliefs are not aligned with the Truths of God, it is hard to know the reality of the world or our lives. So while I loved God and followed Him, there were still hidden parts of me that believed that taking part in satanic rituals made a person evil and the world evil and unsafe. So denial kept me safe until Jesus was able to bring the Truth into my heart. I am not evil, and the world is not evil. That was really hard for me to hear.

After being abused for so long I really believe that church was evil, the world was unsafe, people are evil, God is evil, and that I was evil and tainted beyond hope. I walked around in my daily life with these as core beliefs. So even though consciously I wasn’t really registering these as my truth, when I dug deep and asked myself hard questions, I came to realize that really was how I saw things. So step by step, I had to start to see that Jesus was here to bring me healing from my past and freedom from the occult, and show me that none of my past made me or the world evil.

and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

John 8:32

I know that the devil has really worked hard to portray satanism as evil. So evil in fact, that it needs to just be tucked away and out of sight so we do not have to see it or deal with it. Now, I am not saying that satanism is not evil. What I am saying is that there are many, many people out there who are involved in satanism who are absolutely not evil. Yet because of the choices they are making, we will always see them as the thing they do, and not as the people they are. Satan has worked very hard to get us to identify with our actions, so that the work Jesus did on the cross would become null and void.

Evil is evil, and you cannot change that, but God is so much bigger than evil that in His presence, evil becomes as small as a knat. It is ineffectual and powerless in the face of God Almighty. So Satan has to try very hard to make us believe that evil is indeed much more powerful than it appears, and even more powerful than God. This way we will fear evil and turn away from it. The problem with this is, we have turned our faces away from evil to the point where we have absolutely no discernment for it whatsoever. The Bible tells us to turn away from evil and do good, but it never once says to pretend it doesn’t exist. It says to have discernment for the work of the devil in our lives so we can protect ourselves instead.

Yet we have come to this point in our world where we have such little discernment for the spiritual nature of every single thing, that we are completely blind to the very evil in our own homes, let alone our churches. That is how satanic ritual abuse continues to exist to this very day, and will not stop. Innocent victims are being tortured daily in our world due to the fact that we refuse to believe it can be real. It is generational. One person comes into this abuse, and it spreads into every generation after them. It is like a curse and a disease. Yet there is a cure. There is always a cure.

But solid food is for the mature, for those who have their powers of discernment trained by constant practice to distinguish good from evil.

Hebrews 5:14

The fact of the matter is, satanism happens wherever it is allowed. That means, it can happen in church, just like it did to me. Now I know some will say Mormonism is a cult (I agree) and that it’s not Christian, therefore it’s not a real church. According to dictionary.com, the definition of church is:

1. a building for public Christian worship.

2. public worship of God or a religious service in such a building

 the whole body of Christian believers;Christendom.

4.  any division of this body professing the same creed and acknowledging the same ecclesiastical authority; Christian denomination:

Therefore, any building where a group of people who come to worship their god and all have same beliefs, are a church. Which means Mormons, Jehovah’s Witnesses, Seventh Day Adventist and many other religions that people look at as a cult, are meeting in a church. And to the people that attend, it is a church.  A sacred place where they worship. That is all that it takes to make a church. And if it can happen in a Mormon church, it can happen in a Christian church, a Catholic church, or any other place where Satan has been given entrance and power through human rights.

How in the world can a Christian have anything to do with Satan? Isn’t that impossible? If you have followed any of my other blog posts or Youtube videos, then you know that it is very possible for even Christians to have a connection with darkness and the occult. Being a Christian does not mean you have broken evil out of your life, it means you accepted God’s free gift of salvation for eternity. Everything else is a work in progress for everyone.

Let’s use me as an example. So I was initiated into the occult basically at birth. I was taught how to do witchcraft, astral travel, worship false gods and accepted demons into my being. Yet because of the intense trauma I sustained I was unable to remember any of the actual events. Yet I still was in the occult, whether I knew it or not. My soul had taken part and accepted these things, and they were still a part of me. Years later I come to understand that Jesus loves me and wants to help me, so I accept Him as my Savior. That does not change or take away my past.

For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:38-39

Which leads me back to the world view I had: everything is evil. With that so deeply rooted within me, I took a lot of time and work to even come to a place where I was able to hear that I even believed these things. These beliefs kept me impotent to finding out the truth about my past. So although I was living a Christian life, I was still connected to darkness and unable to come to terms with that as a fact. It is only through submitting every part of you to God, even the dark parts we want to belief don’t exist, that we can get freedom from the darkness.

If I were to never have started inner healing and the truth, I could easily have found a way to have power in a church and brought satanism into that church. Satanism was still inside of me, and all I would have needed was 2 or 3 more who had the same type of agreements with the devil to work with me to start this at a church. Satan would have loved that! This is just an example, as it would take time and establishment and power within a church to actually start satanism within it, and I didn’t really have that on my side.

Most churches that are a party to satanism are already well established and have leaders who have great power and influence within them. These church leaders most likely have themselves been raised in satanic ritual abuse, and like me have no recollection of it whatsoever. They can do satanic rituals in church and not even realize they have done it. They gather together others within the church who have also been also raised with satanic ritual abuse and together they basically have a church within a church. Outsiders never even know it exists.

To understand this, you need to understand more about what happens to a person when they are traumatized to this severity. Extreme trauma causes dissociation. Dissociation basically means disconnecting from yourself, which is what a human has to do in traumatic circumstances to survive and not lose their mind. It is a coping mechanism that God has gifted us with so that we can continue to function and live through things that the devil has created to steal, kill, and destroy us. Here is a good article with more information on dissociation, but as it does not come from a perspective of God and how He views us and the world, please be advised to take any questions or thoughts on it directly to the Father. It is very important you do so.

No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

1 Corinthians 10:13

The object of much of the trauma is to create this dissociation within a person so that they have what are called alters. Basically what that means is that the brain splits to create different parts within the same person to create ways to handle the trauma. These alters or parts carry the memories and pain of the trauma, so that the conscious self does not have to. Again, this is a gift from God and has saved many people from death or insanity. Having these alters is actually quite common, as many people have experienced great trauma in their lives. Many would think a person like this would like like someone with split personalities, but they often do not. They usually look completely normal, and you would never have any idea.

That is how a Christian can also be a satanist. They have already been inducted into the occult through satanic ritual abuse as a child, and they have alters who carry the knowledge of the rituals. The alter comes forward and takes over to do rituals, and then goes dormant again while your conscious self takes over. The dissociation keeps you from consciously remembering that you just did a satanic ritual, just like it did to me as a child. People have to dissociate during these rituals, because no person will ever willing decide to partake in evil like that. Not unless it was already done to them for so long it forces them to become evil themselves.

I know that this may sound very scary for some people. It may sound like something that is too terrible to deal with. I completely understand that. The point I want to bring, is that God is so much bigger than whatever Satan has done. The power of God is so much stronger than whatever schemes the devil has put in place. God is the Redeemer and Healer. He has been healing my life, so I can start to speak the truth into this world so that others like me can find freedom too.

grFear is our enemy. We were not made with a spirit of fear, but with power, love and a sound mind. The devil wants to destroy that within each one of us by holding us captive to fear. If we keep living in fear of the devil or the unknown, we will never be able to move forward into healing and freedom. We cannot keep walking in this world and take everything at face value. We are spirits and everything in this world is based in the spiritual first, because God is spirit. It is because God is spirit that He is able to be everywhere all the time. That means that no matter what you have done or where you have been in life, God has always been there. Just like He was there for me during my ritual abuse.

There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.

1 John 4:18

There were many times when I was so angry at God for allowing these things to happen. Yet He was there with me, protecting my spirit from harm during these events. If He had not protected my spirit, I would have been corrupted and be going to hell instead of heaven. That is what the devil intended for me. But God did not allow that to happen. And in the big scope of this life, my days on this earth are only a blip on the radar. I will spend the rest of eternity rejoicing with Jesus!! I will never remember any of this pain or anguish here.

It is only because I have been willing to see my past and how it connected me with darkness that I am able to sit here and write this. And because I write this, God is going to move and bring healing and freedom into the lives of others who were caught in a life of misery and suffering just as I was, but had no idea why. There is always hope, there is always a cure. That cure is Jesus Christ. He loves us so much that He will never look down on us for anything we have ever done. No matter how bad. If He did, Saul would have never become the Apostle Paul, but would have stayed just a murderer.

If God can bring hope and healing into my life, He can do it for anyone and everyone. All it takes is a step of faith and trust. Those are some of the cornerstones of Christianity. We cannot always see things clearly, but if we trust that in giving all of ourselves to God He can help us, then we can take the journey that He created us for. A journey into finding out who we are in Christ, and who He made us to be.

Dearly beloveds, I know that you are struggling and feel hopeless and afraid. Take the hand of the Father and let Him love you. Let Him show you how He sees you. You are not evil, you are not alone, you are not lost. God has got you! He has never let you go, not for one minute. Stop letting the devil deceive you into believing his lies and let God bring healing and hope into your heart, right now. Believe in Him. He is good.

Oh, how abundant is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you and worked for those who take refuge in you, in the sight of the children of mankind!

Psalm 31:9

May 2 2016

Talking To God

jesus-with-childI have never been cool or popular. I have never had a lot of friends, or been the kind of girl that is the life of the party. I have always been shy and insecure. I have had body image problems: i.e. I think I am fat and ugly. I have been more afraid of people than not, and desperate to connect even in the midst of the fear. I have longed for real intimacy with another human being, not physical, but emotional. I have struggled endlessly to find myself in a world that constantly seems to tell me I’m nobody and not good enough. I have been in hiding, even when out in public, because I am terrified of being hurt, or worse, of being known. If I were to truly be known, then the depth of the pain inside me would come seeping out. And that surely would bring complete rejection upon me.

For those that know me, or follow me, these things may come as a surprise. I probably appear confident and put together. In some ways I am. I have come a long way. That girl that was hurt and scared is still here, but through the love of Christ I have come to find who I was created to be. Or at least, I am beginning to find that person. I actually think I am pretty now. Well, most of the time. Yet I still struggle with feeling fat. I am able to smile at people and look them in the eyes, whereas before that would have been impossible. But most of all, I am able to start to open up my heart a little to others. And it all started with God.

When I was very young, I could see the angels and talk to God. The angels would sing beautiful songs about the Lord to me. I talked to God on a regular basis, because I knew Him. I trusted Him. He was mine. I hadn’t been taught it was wrong; it was just normal to me. For a time anyway. When I was two I would regularly get spanked with a belt for disobedience. Once when I tried to tell my father I talked to God, he became extremely angry with me. Of course he didn’t believe me, and thought there was something wrong with me. If you have been taught that something is wrong or impossible, then you tend to believe it, and carry that belief with you. Well my father grew up in the Catholic church, and of course he believed that I could not talk to God. That was how he was raised.

For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways.

Psalm 91:11

Yet I was just a little girl. All I knew was my experience, and that I loved my father and desperately wanted to make him happy. It’s a very small world through the eyes of a child. My father had also been raised being punished for insolence, which is what he considered this whole “talking to God” thing. So I was punished and reprimanded for it. That was the first time I began to doubt my gift and also to doubt God. Yet I did not stop. As a matter of fact, one of my favorite ways to pass the time was to sing. As a small child my song base was rather small, but I did know the songs of the angels. I would sing them to the Lord, in a soft and sweet little voice. It gave me comfort and joy, and helped me worship God, even then.

It was at a very tender young age of two that I also became indoctrinated into my first satanic ritual at the hands of those who I trusted most; my family. That was only the beginning. Once the elders at the Mormon church realized my gift to hear God, they immediately began to punish me for it. They absolutely could not have me talking to God, because this was not the one True God, as I believed. No. They would need to teach me about what was true and what was right, because I was very far away from that. Once my grandmother heard me singing one of the angel songs while I was playing at her house, and she flew into a fit of rage. She grabbed me by the arm and took me straight to the Mormon church so she could tell the elders.

If my father thought it insolent to talk to God, imagine how worshipers of Lucifer felt when one of their disciples was actually singing and worshiping God. It was beyond an outrage. I was given a chance to do the right thing. Bow down and worship the true god, Lucifer, god of light. I was filled with fear, but I had faith in God. He had always been there for me, at least so far. So I did kneel down, and bow, but to the God I knew; the Living God. The elders went mad with rage and beat me until I finally complied with their demands. It was not OK for me to sing these precious songs, because to them I was a traitor. To a little girl it made absolutely no sense. It was just a song.

“Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever takes the lowly position of this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

Matthew 18:3-4

These are just some of the memories I began to receive through the revelation of the Holy Spirit when I first began my inner healing.  These are not memories I could have recovered on my own, because they were so painful they had to be buried deep in the recesses of my mind. These memories were pivotal moments in the breaking down of my relationship with God, as well as the gift of discernment He had bestowed upon me. This gift is a very hated gift in the eyes of Lucifer. Anything that can be used to get closer to God and His love is disgusting and must be banished or ruined as far as possible. The gift of discernment is far too revealing to the natural world. It reveals the spiritual world in which God resides as well as the devil without his many disguises.

Many have asked why I would want these memories to ever be retrieved. Why bring up more pain and relive the past abuse. That is a very valid question. The reason is exactly what I wrote in the first two paragraphs of this post. The painfully shy girl who was desperate for love and acceptance but scared to death to actually get it, was a byproduct of this abuse. I was taken from an innocent little girl who loved God and knew Him, to a girl who was contaminated by pure evil for the purpose of being stolen away from God. And that is how I have lived the past 37 years of my life. It is not how I was created to live; not who I was created to be.

So I had a choice: continue to live as a shell of who I should be, or take a dangerous step into the unknown, and into pain, to find a miraculous healing at the end of it. It is not for the faint of heart I suppose, but I honestly don’t consider myself to be a special person to take this task on. I’m not particularly strong or courageous, but then again neither was Abraham. He was willing to leave everything he knew to go only God knew where out of trust. He was also willing to take his beloved son to be a sacrificial lamb without question when asked. Yet he was completely weak and full of faults. I think that is the beauty of it. It is not about being something special in order to walk into your pain and greatest fear. It’s about believing the promises God has given us in the Bible, that there is something much more that we were created for. Then it’s about being desperate enough to want it.

God will do this, for he is faithful to do what he says, and he has invited you into partnership with his Son, Jesus Christ our Lord.

1 Corinthians 1:9

guardianangelsI know that everyone has their skeleton in the closet so to speak. My skeleton may be different than yours, but it is not better or worse. Every person has their burdens they must bear over the course of their life. Some are too excruciating to ever let out, and some we are able to tame enough so that we can believe they are not quite that bad. Whatever it is, it has still been left undealt with. And the longer you leave it hidden, the longer you leave it to fester and rot away in the inner most core of who you are. Like a sore that has never healed, it becomes more like a disease, that spreads throughout the entire being, corrupting as it goes. That is how I lived my life. And now I am done. I am on a journey to find freedom and healing, as long as it takes. Because Jesus is worth it. I do this for Him. Because knowing Him, all of Him (at least as much as humanly possible) and being with Him, far outweigh all the bad that I have ever had to deal with.

If you find yourself struggling internally; knowing there is something bubbling up inside and begging to be let out, or if you even only think there is that something but you aren’t quite sure; you are not alone. God, your Father, is right here with you. He has never left you alone, and He isn’t about to start right now. He wants to walk with you through this, just as He has from day 1 of your life. He has amazing plans in store for you. The question is not what, but when. When are you going to take that leap of faith and trust Him enough to surrender your heart and life and accept the healing and freedom He has for you? Today sounds like it may be a good day for that. 🙂

For you are God, O Sovereign Lord. Your words are truth, and you have promised these good things to your servant.

Samuel 7:28