October 26 2015

Is Halloween Evil?

halloween-72939_1280I have recently written a post about Halloween, and why I do not believe Christians should celebrate it. I have been blessed with this post being shared quite a bit over social media and have received many wonderful comments from readers. The Lord has done an amazing work spreading the Truth of His Word with my post on Halloween! Just last year I wrote about Halloween, and it did not get much attention. I tried very hard to post it around on social media sites. I also made a video on Youtube about Halloween. That got more interest, but not as much as it has gotten in the past couple of weeks. It is all due to the Lord, and not at all due to anything I have done. I praise His holy and mighty Name for that!

See to it that no one takes you captive by philosophy and empty deceit, according to human tradition, according to the elemental spirits of the world, and not according to Christ.

Colossians 2:8

I normally would not write another post on Halloween with the fact that I just wrote one, but I have seen some comments that really bothered me. It is these comments that have inspired me to write another post. These are comments I have already heard from many people I already know from my church or that I have met in the past couple of years. The one that bothers me the most is that, Halloween is not right for me to celebrate because I used to be in the occult. Therefore, I cannot handle Halloween. But for others, who have never been involved in the occult, it is OK. They have not done anything wrong, and they are doing something perfectly innocent in celebrating Halloween. I have to say that hurts me in a deep place in my heart. God has not convicted me that Halloween is evil because I was in the occult. God has convicted me that Halloween is evil because God knows it is evil.

Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.

1 Peter 5:8

There are some who would say that Halloween is a day that the Lord made. God has made all days, and we should celebrate each day and be joyful because of that. We should not hide in our houses and let the devil win. I have heard all these comments many times to give reasoning to celebrate Halloween. But I ask you this. Would you tell that to the thousands of humans who are going to endure being brutally murdered in a satanic ritual? Or what about the others who will be beaten and sexually abused in a satanic ritual? Would you look them in the eye and tell them that you are going to dress your children up and go out and have fun with friends because you are doing nothing wrong?

Take no part in the unfruitful works of darkness, but instead expose them.

Ephesians 5:11

Can you imagine the horror of satanic ritual abuse survivors as they drive around their neighborhoods as Halloween draws near? They see yards decorated with witches, ghosts and other ghouls down every street. When they go to the neighborhood Wal-Mart they are confronted with mummies, demons and pumpkins carved to look scary. It brings back horrifying memories and searing pain into their lives as they try not to relive the hell they experienced. Then there are those who were not abused, but were forced to participate nonetheless.

You cannot drink the cup of the Lord and the cup of demons. You cannot partake of the table of the Lord and the table of demons. 1 Corinthians 10:21

The thought of people being tortured and killed in satanic rituals may seem like something to surreal for many people to grasp. It is not something often talked about in our culture. We can glorify death and violence in our mainstream horror movies and our Halloween fun, but thinking about satanic ritual abuse is to close to reality for us to deal with. We have been desensitized from a young age to violence and evil. It is everywhere on TV, music, cartoons, comic books, etc. that many children are exposed to on a daily basis. So we grow up thinking that witches, ghosts and vampires are all good fun. And as a child it is quite fun – especially when your parents are advocating it and turning it into a special family tradition.

But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.

1 Peter 2:9

I understand that not every family allows the scary costumes or decorations into their house for Halloween. So they are basically putting on a filter over Halloween, so that their family does not see the evil of it for what it is. It makes it very easy to see Halloween as a great family time to indulge a little. I often hear that families won’t give up celebrating Halloween because it is for the kids. The kids love candy and they wouldn’t understand if they couldn’t celebrate anymore. The problem with this is that you are not seeing Halloween for the evil it really is. Therefore you are teaching your children that it is not evil. And they will teach their children Halloween is not evil, and so on and so forth. It is a vicious cycle that is propagating the lies of the devil.

Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.

Proverbs 22:6

It reminds me of the Israelites in Exodus and Deuteronomy where the fathers did not teach the children the ways of the Lord. Soon the next generation was not holding fast to the ways of the Lord and then not teaching their children about the Lord at all. God was forsaken and the Israelites were worshiping false gods (demons), sacrificing their own children and giving themselves over to sexual immorality. They always paid a high price because they were inviting the devil right in to their lives and they didn’t even know it. They began to follow the ways of the culture around them, and began to believe that there was nothing wrong with these practices. If everyone else is doing it, how can it be wrong? Why do you think God warns us so many times not to follow the pagan practices? Why do you think he has such harsh consequences to this? Because it is dangerous – we are opening our lives up to demonic activity and giving them legal rights to stay.

“Speak to the people of Israel and say to them, I am the Lord your God. You shall not do as they do in the land of Egypt, where you lived, and you shall not do as they do in the land of Canaan, to which I am bringing you. You shall not walk in their statutes. You shall follow my rules and keep my statutes and walk in them. I am the Lord your God. You shall therefore keep my statutes and my rules; if a person does them, he shall live by them: I am the Lord.”

Leviticus 18:2-5

So it is much the same with Halloween. We are forgetting the teachings of the Lord and going along with what culture dictates is right and good instead. We are to live our lives as set apart and holy, but often we find that isn’t convenient for what we want. God never said to live for Him when it was convenient, He said to love Him with all your heart, soul and mind. To do that you need to sometimes do things that are difficult and uncomfortable, like go against the grain of what is popular in our society. Even when you have already been completely immersed in it and have taught your children to follow it as well. But let me ask you this, do you want your children to grow up and stand firm against the devil, and follow Jesus Christ? I know I do.

Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light and light for darkness, who put bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter!

Isaiah 5:20

Let us not take Halloween and use it to glorify ourselves, as we are accustomed to doing. Most people who celebrate Halloween are not doing it for the Lord, but for themselves. It is not a celebration that we are doing in honor of God. We are not thinking of God or using it to thank Him for anything. It is pure paganism at it’s finest. It is a day where we get attention for our costumes and get treats (and for many adults drink and party). How does this honor the Lord? Am I saying that you cannot have fun as a Christian? Absolutely not. What I am saying is we need to stop making excuses for why it is OK to celebrate Halloween. We are glorifying the devil by participating in a day that he uses to destroy people. Even Anton Levay, founder of the Church of Satan has this to say about Halloween. “I’m glad that Christian parents let their children worship the devil at least one night out of the year.” If the founder of the Church of Satan is happy we are celebrating Halloween, we should seriously rethink what we are doing with this day.

Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers. For what partnership has righteousness with lawlessness? Or what fellowship has light with darkness? What accord has Christ with Belial? Or what portion does a believer share with an unbeliever?  What agreement has the temple of God with idols? For we are the temple of the living God.

1 Corinthians 6:14-16

set apartOn Halloween I will wake up and thank the Lord for another beautiful day. I will thank Him for the many blessings He has given me in my life – my husband and family, my home and my church, and especially my salvation. I will have joy because I love the Lord and not feel as though I have somehow been defeated because I am not celebrating Halloween. I will spend time with my family and we will pray for the poor souls who are being tormented on this night, and for the lost souls who are witches and Satanists, worshiping the devil on this high holy holiday. I urge you to do the same. How can we reclaim this day from Satan? By not recognizing Halloween, and not participating in it. We can spread the truth of the evil of Halloween and urge our family and friends to not participate in it either. If more and more Christians stop celebrating Halloween, think of what a kick in the pants that would be to the devil! That would be a truly amazing way to honor the Lord!

“When you come into the land that the Lord your God is giving you, you shall not learn to follow the abominable practices of those nations.  There shall not be found among you anyone who burns his son or his daughter as an offering, anyone who practices divination or tells fortunes or interprets omens, or a sorcerer  or a charmer or a medium or a necromancer or one who inquires of the dead,  for whoever does these things is an abomination to the Lord. And because of these abominations the Lord your God is driving them out before you.  You shall be blameless before the Lord your God,  for these nations, which you are about to dispossess, listen to fortune-tellers and to diviners. But as for you, the Lord your God has not allowed you to do this.” Deuteronomy 18:9-14

 

 

 

October 12 2015

The New Age Deception

NewAgeOn a recent weekend, I had the most amazing getaway with my husband! We had not been away alone, without kids, in about 8 years! As soon as I found out we had a sitter for two whole nights, I started planning our trip. I was unbelievably excited, and I wanted it to be super romantic! After much searching around I decided to book a room at a little inn we went to 10 years ago where I first fell in love with my husband. It is a tiny town where a gorgeous river meets the Pacific Ocean. There are other little towns near by, and so I knew that we would have lots of adventures while we were there.

We got to the room late the first night, almost 9 o’clock, because we stopped to have dinner before checking in. We found a cozy restaurant with views of the river and the ocean, where we watched the sun set. It was a marvelous beginning to a romantic weekend! The room was actually a whole house with two stories. We resided mostly on the bottom floor, where there was a bathroom, kitchen, living room and bedroom. Not to mention a private deck with hot tub. The house was very old, probably about 100 years or more, and didn’t look like it received a lot of upkeep. We were excited nonetheless, because hey, we were alone!! You really can’t beat that, no matter how dirty an old house is.

It is funny because the house was kind of eerie. And when I say funny, I mean if you would have asked me a couple of years ago (before I was Christian) I would have told you that the house seemed haunted. There was just something about that old house that really creeped me out. Not to mention the Buddha statue in the back  yard. The next morning we went to the inn’s restaurant for breakfast. I noticed right away an altar in the corner of the room, complete with a large Buddha statue, crystals, and other such things. It reminded me quite a bit of the alter I had back when I was a witch. There was a sign attached about wanting to spread good vibes because there is enough negative in the world already.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Philippians 4:6

My inner alarm was going off by this point. I knew that being near the ocean there was a chance that we would run into a New Age mindset, but I thought this sleepy little town would not be affected. Oh how wrong I was. This was only the beginning of the New Age movement I would see on our trip. We visited several stores, shops, and boutiques in the surrounding towns, and every single one of them was filled with charms, idols, crystals and other New Age items.

What exactly is the New Age Movement? New Age is a mix of different spiritual and religious practices that each person chooses to adopt for their belief system. It includes things such as witch craft and the occult, shamanism, mysticism, Hinduism, Buddhism, yoga and much more. It is a way to identify who you are spiritually, and to find higher ways of consciousness and thinking, or enlightenment. It’s main purpose is to help a person to connect with their inner being, and with the universe around them. New Age promotes oneness with the universe and the earth, because they are sacred and living beings in which we are connected to, and come from. The New Age movement teaches that everyone is basically good and a part of god. God can be one or many gods, but always an impersonal force that manifests in many ways, such as nature. New Age also teaches that evil does not exist, especially Satan and hell.

There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death.

Psalm 14:12

I know this all very well, because I spent a good part of my adult life heavily involved with the occult and New Age. I had no idea that I was even involved in New Age though. It started with my interest in the occult (okay interest is not really the right word. I was a practicing witch.) I became very interested in Eastern Religions and everything about them. I studied Buddhism and Hinduism as I tried to understand higher levels of consciousness and loosing myself to be more god-like. I can’t say I really knew what I was doing, but I really wanted to be connected to the higher power I knew I was a part of. It just wasn’t the Christian God. I tried meditating and placing crystals and gem stones on my chakras and opening my third eye. I tried yoga, astrology, tarot cards and reading the I Ching. I did this alongside of my normal practices of casting spells and performing rituals as a witch.

They exchanged the truth about God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator—who is forever praised. Amen.

Romans 1:25

When I stopped actively practicing witch craft I still had my New Age thoughts and practices to lean on. I was ever searching for the Truth of what the meaning of life was, and why I was here. I wanted desperately to connect with whatever higher power there was out there. I worshiped the earth and practiced being a good person and taught my kids about being good people. It was so very important to me to be ‘good’ and do rack up good karma points. I wasn’t sure what was waiting for me after death – possibly reincarnation, but probably just my spirit being released back into the energy I came from.

All of this might sound a little out there to some people, but to others a lot of this (or maybe even a little) is going to resonate as truth for you. You have been searching, and you may even already be a Christian. You have never made a deeper connection with God or maybe were not sure if you really believed that Jesus is God. You have been hurt and alone for so long, that you want to find that deeper connection. And very possibly you had no idea that you had been lured in to the New Age Movement. The New Age is very seductive in its ways. It comes to you wrapped in sweet-smelling incense, the health consciousness of yoga, and the beauty of connecting with your higher self or nature. It is so very appealing! Yet I am here to warn you on how dangerous the New Age Movement is.

Once I became a Christian I spent the first few months coming to understand who God the Father is, and what Jesus had done for me. I received the Holy Spirit and He began to do a great work in me, to help me understand the will of God. So I easily got rid of many of my New Age items. It was a process, because it took me a year to realize that the yoga I had been doing was also part of the Eastern Religions and was actually a form of worshiping other gods and inviting the demonic in. I easily got rid of the more obvious items, such as Buddha statues, books on witch craft, and tarot cards.

So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.

John 8:34

It has been two and a half years as I write this that I have come to a glorious relationship with Christ Jesus. He has taken all of the New Age and occult beliefs I instilled in my heart for so long, and redeemed me and filled me with the Truth I so desperately had been searching for! I can’t tell you what comfort I have in the knowledge that I was created for a purpose! By a loving God who knows me by name and loves me deeply enough to die for me. And to know I was created, not evolved from monkeys are some sea sludge (yes I seriously believed that too). And there is no more fear of death for me, but sweet joy in the knowledge that I will be with Jesus in heaven! Hallelujah!

Thanks to the gift of the Holy Spirit in my life, I have been giving great discernment and understanding of the workings of the spiritual realm. Satan meant to destroy me with his New Age deceit, but God has turned it around for my good, by giving me this gifts. I now can see how the enemy has tried to harm me and many others in this world by propagating the New Age lies. The New Age Movement brings death and deception, unlike the Truth that Jesus died to save us from death and hell. What glorious freedom we have in Christ Jesus!

So back to my vacation. In times past I would have been very charmed by the shops with the Hindu gods on the walls, and the incense burning, and the Indian music playing sweetly in the background. I would have felt peaceful and enchanted. Now I felt repulsed for the first time by these things. I could feel the demonic presence emanating from these occult and New Age trinkets and other cursed objects. It only took two steps into a building to register the evil that had been welcomed into each place. At first I was repulsed and afraid. I know how to deal with the demonic and walk in the power and authority Jesus has given me, but it was surprising and overwhelming. But eventually I just felt sad and angry. The New Age Movement has brought death to so many people, while they unwittingly fall prey to its beautifully packaged lies.

But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all the truth.He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come.

John 16:13

cloudsI wanted desperately to help these people, to bring Christ into their lives. Jesus is the only True source of Power! So as I walked through the last of the shops I prayed silently or in a whisper to bring the Holy Spirit into these places. To ask God the Father to come in with His power and authority and make Himself known to these lost souls. We need our Father so badly. We just can’t do this life without Him, and we were not meant to. We were created by Him for a loving relationship. We are so passionately loved by Him, and He wants nothing more than to bring each one of His children into His Kingdom!

If you have fallen prey to any of the lies of the New Age, then rejoice now! Rejoice? Yes! Rejoice because your freedom is now here! It is as simple as renouncing all activity you have done that has purposefully or inadvertently involved you in the occult and New Age. Then repent of these things and ask God to forgive you. Which He has already done! Ask your Father to show you anything else you have done unknowingly to practice New Age beliefs and to cleanse you of them all. Then ask Him to bring you the knowledge and wisdom of His Truth. It really is that easy! Your Heavenly Father is here to walk you through this, by way of the Holy Spirit. He loves you and is not at all angry with you for any of these practices you may have done. On the other hand, He is very saddened to see His children be lured into this horrible deception that leads to the path of destruction.

Thank you Father that you have loved us so much that you sent your only Son to die for us. Thank you Jesus for your work on the cross, and for defeating sin and death for each one of us. Thank you Holy Spirit that you live in each one of us, and lead us in all Truth and wisdom. We love you so much, and we ask for your protection from any ways that the enemy might try to deceive us from this day forward. We pray this in Jesus mighty name. Amen!

See to it that no one takes you captive by philosophy and empty deceit, according to human tradition, according to the elemental spirits of the world, and not according to Christ.

Colossians 2:8

 

October 5 2015

Halloween and Christianity

halloweenAs I write this it is just a few days away from October. Once again I feel great pain in my heart rising up for the many lost souls who will be hurt during this time of year, or who have been hurt and have to try to fight off the memories this season. I am also deeply troubled by the many Christians who will go out and celebrate the darkness, when they have been saved by the Light. This is the season of Halloween, a time when witches and satanists celebrate a high holy day; a day of death, darkness and fear.

If you have been following my blog, you know that a spent my own season in life as a witch, deeply involved in the occult. I have written about my past experiences with Samhain (or Halloween) rituals and what Halloween means to witches. Since coming into a wonderful relationship with Jesus Christ, I have been completely redeemed from the evil I participated in. I have come out from the darkness and experienced His glorious light. My testimony has led to me other Christians who were formerly involved in the occult. Not all of them were involved by choice. Some were involved by force by their own family members. Family members who did horrible things to them during satanic rituals. They try desperately to avoid anything related to Halloween this time of year, because the memories of their childhood abuse still haunts them to this day.

When I was not an actively practicing witch I still reveled in Halloween. It was a time to party! Halloween is sensual and exciting! There are sweet treats, fun costumes, games, music, laughter. It is a time to decorate, carve pumpkins and get together with friends and family. What is not to love, right? We always had great costumes such as vampires, witches, ghosts and other ghoulish characters. We also decorated our house with skulls, bats, corpses, head stones, rats and other treasures. It was all in good fun!

In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven. Matthew 5:16

Of course celebrating Halloween doesn’t have to be about ghouls and scary things. You can decorate for fall and dress in innocent costumes such as princesses and super heroes. It makes for good wholesome fun. So just take out the evil and you have changed a night of evil into something perfectly good. Right? Wrong. I am so sorry to say that you cannot take Halloween and make it good, wholesome, or innocent, no matter what changes you try to make of it. Halloween from it’s very origins is evil, and it still is today.

During my first year as a Christian I was quickly convicted to stop celebrating Halloween. It was very easy for me to give it up, knowing what the true meaning of the day is. I did not actually know that it was also an important day to Satanists as well, because as a witch you sincerely don’t associate yourself with evil. It didn’t take much research to see that Satanists use Halloween as one of their special days to sacrifice human lives. And I naturally assumed that other Christians would not celebrate Halloween either. I mean, it is obviously evil. Just take a stroll through your neighborhood on a cool October night to see how many houses are decorated with skulls, bats, witches, etc. and you will see how the rest of the world views Halloween. So you can understand how I was utterly shocked to find out that just about every single Christian I knew actually celebrated Halloween.

I was more than shocked, I was dismayed and distressed. I was brought out of darkness by the grace of Jesus Christ. I wanted to rejoice and shout out from the rooftops of my undying love for Jesus. I wanted to get away from darkness and evil and be a light to the world. So how was it that I was so utterly alone in standing up for truth and light among a group of people who were supposed to share the same beliefs as I did? I had many conversations where terms like “God hasn’t convicted me” or “that’s legalistic” were thrown at me. As a new Christian that didn’t make a lot of sense to me. It was pretty black and white. Halloween = evil and Christians shouldn’t celebrate it.

The coming of the lawless one will be in accordance with how Satan works. He will use all sorts of displays of power through signs and wonders that serve the lie

2 Thessalonians 2:9

I spent that Halloween and the next sharing my story with other Christians as much as I could. I tried to plead with Christians to get them to understand that Halloween does not glorify Jesus and celebrating it actually invites the demonic into your life. It is pretty difficult to convince someone that a day to party and have fun could possibly be bad – unless of course you were once a witch. Then it makes perfect sense for someone like me to not celebrate it. It absolutely breaks my heart. Yet we live in a fallen world, where temptation runs rampant, and the church has catered to the masses by giving us the message of what we want to hear.

It would be easy to try to strip everything that looks evil out of Halloween and just call it a fall celebration. You could even go to a church on and attend a fall festival, and not trick or treat. Or you could pass out tracts to your neighborhood kids, and pray that one of them finds Jesus through that little pamphlet. I used to go to churches every year to attend fall festivals. It was a great way to have fun and celebrate Halloween. Never once did I hear the Gospel message from any of those churches. It was about free candy and games for us. I also found Christian tracts in my kids trick or treat bags before. I immediately snatched them up and threw them away before my kids could even try to understand what they were. I was not going to let Christian lies into my children’s heads.

I have heard every argument for Christians celebrating Halloween. I have thought and prayed about them all. I continuously come to the same conclusion every single time. Halloween is evil, and it is not for Christians. It is a season of fear and death and cannot be redeemed. Can God be glorified by it? Absolutely yes. By every Christian who stands up and decides not to participate in it. By shining a light into this dark and evil time with the love of Christ. Does that mean I advocate hiding away or turning against anyone who celebrates it? Absolutely not. Every single person in this world deserves to know Jesus Christ. He loves every one of us, no matter what. And we have so many thousands of ways to go out and spread the Good News to the world. It does not have to be done by fall festivals and Christians tracts.

But you, brothers and sisters, are not in darkness so that this day should surprise you like a thief.  You are all children of the light and children of the day. We do not belong to the night or to the darkness.

1 Thessalonians 5:4-5

The topic of demons and the devil is a very sensitive topic in the Christian world. Even among unbelievers there is great doubt in whether or not demons or real or if they are active in this world. Even when I was a witch I did not believe in the devil or hell! And let’s be honest. The thought of demons and evil is a very scary thought. Just look at what we see of what evil looks like on TV. The devil looks very scary indeed! Yet if you read the description of the devil in Ezekiel 28:12-13, he was absolutely beautiful, the “seal of perfection”. Satan does not come as a scary beast, he comes as deceiving us with his beauty! He preys on our fears, and so we are inundated with scary images of what evil looks like. So when evil does actually come into our lives we can’t even recognize it, because we are looking for something completely different.

freedom2Yet we must remember, Satan has been defeated! Jesus our Risen Lord has defeated death and hell, and there is nothing to fear in our enemy. We should rejoice in the authority and power that has been bestowed upon us by Christ Jesus! And in doing that we should reject the things of this world that have deceived us in to thinking they are good and fun. Evil always comes tempting us with pleasure. Do not be seduced into thinking Halloween is purely innocent. You are sending a message to the powers of hell that you are open to them invading your life. Everything related to Halloween has roots in ancient occult rituals. Please do not participate in these things and invite the enemy right in to your life.

God warns us of the spiritual realm and the evil powers that are coming against us. Should we be ignorant of these things because we don’t understand them? It would be very easy and very comfortable to do so. Yet we were not brought out of this world so that we may remain ignorant and live as the pagans do. We were brought out of this world to have freedom! We are not slaves to fear and death, but live victoriously because Jesus Christ defeated them! Let us be transformed into light and no longer be bound by the chains of this world! Use your freedom to serve one another, in love. The world around us is perishing – let us focus on our real mission here in this world. To spread the beautiful message of the Gospel, which has the power to save lives! Be a light in this world for those who are still blinded by the god of this world!

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

Ephesians 6:12

August 10 2015

Witness to a Spiritual Deliverance

amazing-736885_640I have to admit, my husband and I have not always had the best relationship. When we first met, I actually did not like him. At all. In fact, he annoyed me. I actually love to tell this story, because now we are very close and in love. He is my best friend and I cannot imagine life without him! It was a miracle from God that moved my heart toward him in a time when I did not even believe in God or even in love. We started dating when we were just friends and I was far from ready for a relationship. I had just come out of a very abusive 5 year relationship and I wanted nothing more to do with relationships ever again.

My husband was quite determined however, that I would be his. In just a few short months time we were living together due to unforeseen circumstances. Yet still, I did not have deep feelings for him. The deepest feelings I had at that time were of fear and the need to protect myself from being hurt again. My husband had also come out of an abusive relationship, and so we both had a lot of baggage as we entered into a hesitant commitment. There were many times where we would get into explosive arguments and even come to physical blows with each other.

 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

Again, I can only say by a miracle of God we stayed together and within a year were married. It was not that we didn’t love each other, but we were just two broken, messed up people, who had no clue on how to deal with relational problems. My husband had a pretty bad temper when I first met him. And there were some times that he even scared me. Those memories are long gone now, as we have been through immense healing by the power of the Lord Jesus Christ. Yet he still seemed to carry anger with him, even into his walk with Jesus. It bothered me a lot. There were also some other things that he carried over, such as his lack of communication. I often felt that he didn’t listen to me, and there would be many times that I would talk to him and he just wouldn’t even respond. It was a huge point of contention for us, and it caused many, many fights.

During the past two years as our walk in the Christian faith, I have spent a lot of time seeking our spiritual deliverance. Within the first year I began to learn about spiritual attack and the reality of demons in my life. These were things that I would not have even believed in before, yet my life was being turned upside down by many physical and emotional ailments. My husband too had other problems outside of his anger and communication, such as bad back and neck pain that would not ever go away, and just falling asleep at Bible studies. I really wanted him to also seek out spiritual deliverance, but he just didn’t seem to think he was worth the healing of spiritual deliverance. I tried pushing him into seeking it out, as I was, but he would not. Finally I let it go, and continued on my own path to spiritual deliverance.

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

Finally after many prayer and healing sessions I had a huge turn in my spiritual healing! I met with a spiritual deliverance ministry that went toe to toe with the head demon living inside of me. I learned so much about why I had continued physical and emotional ailments that I just could not be healed of, not matter what I did. And at the end of this amazing prayer session when the spiritual deliverance ministers asked the Holy Spirit to speak to me, there was a clear message directed to my husband. The message of the Holy Spirit was that it was now my husband’s turn to experience true spiritual deliverance and healing! I was beyond excited, and so began to process of getting my husband ready for his own spiritual deliverance appointment!

The spiritual deliverance ministry requires a short questionnaire to be filled out before the appointment is made. This in itself posed a problem, because I knew it would be very difficult to get my husband to sit down and fill it out. It took about two weeks for him to answer the questions, but as soon as he did I emailed it in and we set an appointment for just a few days later. My husband was nervous after seeing my spiritual deliverance. The reality that he probably had demons living inside of him was intimidating to say the least. I can’t tell you the obstacles we had to overcome to make it to that appointment. But with faithfulness and obedience to the Lord, we made it.

“And call upon me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you shall glorify me.” Psalm 50:15

I have to admit I was quite excited to be on the other end of the spiritual deliverance this time. This ministry was quite experienced and capable, and I was eager to see my husband experience new-found freedom. I was also interested to see what ways the enemy has tried to oppress him from his Godly calling in life. The ministry team began by having my husband read a prayer that helped him to repent for past sins and any right he had given over to demons unknowingly through that sin. They then went right into interrogating the head demon in charge. The way this works is they command the demon to become subject to them by the power and authority of Jesus. This way the demon has to answer and do so truthfully.

I watched and listened for over two hours as they questioned this head demon. It was a very straightforward process and we found out answers to many things that had seemed to hinder my husband for so many years. For instance, his anger. It came from a blood sacrifice done over him by his father in a Masonic ceremony. My husbands grandfather was a Mason, and it went up for many generations . The Masons are a polytheistic religion that incorporates many pagan rituals into it. This rituals are often done for power, fame, and wealth. Children are often dedicated to one of their many gods to gain these great benefits. These rituals can include blood-letting, homosexual acts, and child sacrifice. This masonry opens you up to a spirit of anger, rage, hate, chaos and violence.

This head demon also gave specific information on a relationship curse that was over my husband, that caused the breakdown of all relationships. This curse hindered my husband from communicating with people he loved. Wow. That was huge for me, because for so many years I held anger and resentment for time times I felt that my husband was refusing to talk to me or listen to me. This demon also admitted to times when he and his minions tried to kill my husband. Such as causing him to fall asleep while cooking, which led to his stove catching on fire. Or causing him to drive drunk so he would get into an accident.

Behold, I have given you authority to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall hurt you. Luke 10:19

I know many people do not believe in demons, or the fact that they can indeed reside inside of a Christian. However this is another lie of the enemy. You can indeed have the Holy Spirit indwelling in your own spirit, and still have a demon inside of you as well. If you have the Holy Spirit inside of you, demons cannot go into your human spirit. They can however come into your physical being and once we give them rights or permission unknowingly, they are allowed to stay. Some may say this is crazy or impossible, but I tell you the truth. There is absolutely nowhere in scripture that says a Christian cannot have demons inside of them. Christians cannot be possessed – that is when a demon can be in your very spirit – there is a difference.

spiritual deliveraceSince this amazing spiritual deliverance my husband is indeed a new man with a new-found freedom. Before where he felt unable to read the Bible, he now is reading it every single day. This demon made it clear that he wanted to keep my husband from the Word and the Truth! That the Truth of God’s Word is power! My husband has been released from all back and neck pain as well – which the demon admitted was 100% demonic. My husband was walking around in demonic oppression, suffering for so many years but was completely unaware. And so are many other people in this world. We are living in the enemies domain and he hates us more than anything. His passion in life is to destroy people, because we are made in God’s image. Do not be fooled by the lies of Satan – he is a prowling lion waiting to devour you.

That evening they brought to him many who were oppressed by demons, and he cast out the spirits with a word and healed all who were sick. Matthew 8:16

If you are reading this and you are full of disbelief or even disgust at such notions, I completely understand. There was a season in my life (ok more like most of my life) where I did not even believe in Satan or demons! And that was while I was a practicing witch! It was only through my seeking God with all of my heart, mind and soul, and asking for truth and asking for healing, that He began to reveal the truth of demonic oppression in this world. For me it was a slow journey, because it took some time for me to really believe that demons were in my life and wanting to torment me. I often asked myself if I was crazy, because this is not normal every day stuff in the US today. However, if you were to research other countries, the presence of demons is common knowledge and widely accepted.

Does this mean we should fear what the devil is doing to us at this very moment? Absolutely not! We should stand up and fight! We have been equipped with knowledge, power and authority to trample on the serpent! We have the Armor of God to protect us, and many accounts of Jesus Himself casting our demons from His people. Even the powers and principalities of darkness must bow at the name of Jesus! Be thankful for this wonderful things that God has given us, because He has created you for such a time as this! To rise up, as a mighty warrior for His Kingdom! To proclaim freedom from oppression, to release the captives from bondage and to walk in a partnership with the Holy Spirit.

“The Spirit of the Lord is on me,
    because he has anointed me
    to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners
    and recovery of sight for the blind,
to set the oppressed free,
 to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.”

Luke 4:18-19

I am so thankful for all the healing work God has done during this spiritual deliverance. My husband is a wonderful man whom I love with all of my heart. He is an amazing father and I thank God for Him every day. I also thank him for allowing me to share his testimony from my point of view for the purpose of advancing the Kingdom of God.

August 3 2015

Identity Crisis

identityMy whole life I have been asking the question “Who am I?”. Even from the earliest years in my life, I have struggled to find an answer to this question. I think many of us spend a good portion of our lives trying to find our identities. As children we don’t worry as much about where are identity lies, because we find it in being a son or daughter. Yet as we enter in to our teen years that question of identity begins to loom over us, to take a stand about who we are.

As I look back now I see so much of my life was spent searching. I was so unsure of who I was. I tried to find identity wherever I could. As a teen I found my identity in being a “rocker” (someone who listens to rock music). I dressed for the part and my life revolved around the music I listened to. It was as simple as that as I let rock music shape who I was. As I got older I could no longer be defined by a simple genre of music. I was more complicated than that. So again I was searching, trying to figure out who I was and where I fit in this big wide world. Or if I even really fit in at all.

For all that is in the world—the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride in possessions—is not from the Father but is from the world. 1 John 2:16

Then when I became involved in the occult and witch craft, I found my identity in being a witch. I fully embraced being a witch and loved it. It was exciting, dark, mystical, romantic, sensual, fun and much more. I was proud to be a witch for many years, until I suddenly found myself pregnant. I have to admit I was in denial for a bit about the fact that I was going to have a baby. I wasn’t ready. I had been playing and having fun and I wasn’t prepared to grow up and be responsible for another human life. But once I gave birth to my son, my life radically shifted, and so did my views on life. I was still very much into witch craft and the occult, but now my son came first.

So once again my identity made a huge shift as I began to see myself primarily as a mother. I was responsible for a tiny little baby and had very little help. My husband at the time worked two jobs and we had no family that was willing to help us out. My whole life revolved around him. How could my identity not solely rest in being a mother? Soon I was eager to get pregnant and have another baby. I adored my son and loved being a mother. I was willing to do anything for him. But when my relationship dissolved a few months into my next pregnancy, my whole world collapsed.

Behold, children are a heritage from the Lordthe fruit of the womb a reward. Psalm 127:3

I had no stability in my life now. The only thing that was constant were my children and their need for me. It was the only thing that kept me going at all – taking care of them. So it further solidified my identity in motherhood. What more was there to life than just being there for my children, raising them and trying to provide a good life for them? For me, there was nothing. As I got remarried and had more children I also began to home school. So not only did my identity lie in being a mom, but now my identity became a home school mom.

I know many moms get caught up in the identity of being a mom. It often can trump all other roles we play in our lives – wife, daughter, co-worker, friend. For me being a home school mom elevated me to a new level of pride and self-righteousness. I loathe to admit this now, but God has really spoken to me about this in the past few weeks. I have began to believe many lies, such as public school is an evil place where my children will be taught everything immoral and end up doing drugs and having sex. Therefore I also believed that homeschooling is superior to any other form of schooling. That parents that home school care more about their children and that home school children are smarter. I know these are really awful things and it pains me to even type them out.

As a home school mom I was also a bit of an elitist. It was hard to hang out with other moms because they tend to have an attitude of awe towards me, which I never have deserved. I am completely flawed and broken like everyone else. I am not special because I home school, and I will continue to declare that any parent can home school, if they let God led them through it. Homeschooling is for the weak and under educated, because only then can we realize our great need for a Savior to help us through the process. As a home school mom I felt so much pressure to “get it right” because my kids education was on the line. Yet in my heart I knew homeschooling was right. And if parents didn’t feel awe towards my ability to home school, they would scoff at me, because they would never even want to do such a thing. They want a break every day from their children. I guess this just made it easier to feel set apart and different from the majority and that elitist attitude only grew.

For if anyone thinks he is something, when he is nothing, he deceives himself. Galatians 6:3

It is very dangerous to find your identity in any thing or any person. We were not made to find ourselves this way. We were made to find our identity in God. We were made to seek Him with all of our hearts and find ourselves through Jesus. When we start to try to find our identity in things or people we get very lost. We often find ourselves dissatisfied, unhappy and even feeling alone. I know this is true for me. It was not until recently, when my husband and I begin to discuss sending our kids to school, did the light begin to shine into the depths of my home school mom identity. Cracks starting to show in the facade that I had so skillfully hid behind for so many years. Yet the light was a wonderful thing, bringing truth and love into a place that was lying in darkness.

Jesus has spoken so sweetly and so lovingly to me these past few weeks. I am not to find my identity in being a mom, or even a home school mom. I have been walking a path that has taken me away from God, in that area of my life, even though I strived so hard to give it to Him. It was my beliefs that have been hindering me, and these beliefs took root many years ago, long before I began to home school. I am not the only one who loves my children, and who cares for them and watches over them. My Father God loves them so much more than I am even capable of. And He has promised me time and time again that He will never leave them or forsake them. That He will watch over them and uplift them with His righteous right hand, and that He has plans for them that will prosper them. Yet all this time I was so busy trying to do His job, thinking that all the weight of how my children will turn out is completely dependent on me, and the choices I make for them.

The Spirit you received does not make you slaves, so that you live in fear again; rather, the Spirit you received brought about your adoption to sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.” The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. Romans 8:15-16

Yet Jesus is so much bigger than that. He is so much bigger than what type of education my kids get, or what mistakes I may make, or how well I manage my house, or what kind of mom I am. Not that those things are not important, but that I need to realize what amazing freedom I live in as a daughter of the One True King! I do not have to do it all alone. I need to soak in His Truths. I was not made to be a mom, nor a wife, but a daughter of The Almighty! And that is where I need to rest my head, and my identity. That is where I need to seek the answers to “who am I?” and why am I here? I am here to love God, to love others, and to glorify Him with my life. I am not here to raise children and then what? My life is over when they move out? I gave every good thing to them and now I am left with nothing? No! I am to give every good thing I have to Jesus, and let Him take care of the rest.

christ_as_kingWhat a wonderful freedom I have in Christ. What joy soars in my heart at the thought of being able to begin to let go of my children and the fate of their lives. It is not up to me how they will turn out, or if they will even become followers of Jesus. It is up to me to love Jesus with all my heart, soul and mind, and let that glorify Him. Through that I will be able to accomplish more than I can ever imagine, in His strength. I no longer need to be in slavery to my identity. I can just rest and be a truly loved daughter of the King of Kings. Hallelujah!

Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God. John 1:12

 

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