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I Was Abused In A Satanic Halloween Ritual

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Two years ago, as a brand new Christian, I came to the realization I had to let go of Halloween. As a non-Christian I absolutely loved Halloween. Obsessed really. I loved all things horror and gore, as a matter of fact. Zombies, witches, vampires, you name it. I was fascinated by all of it. We had quite the collection of Halloween decorations sitting in our garage that we had been working on for years. Costumes, skull lights, a severed head, tombstones, body parts, etc. All to make our yard look nice and festive for the Halloween season.

It was actually very easy for me to let go of Halloween that first year. I had come into this new relationship with Christ and experienced His love immeasurable. All I wanted was to give myself to God and receive more of Him in return. The love and the guidance of my beautiful Savior was something that I had longed for my entire life. And as I gave myself over to Christ, I found myself wanting to leave behind my old life of pain and death and despair.

Walking away from my old life meant leaving behind all of my associations with witchcraft and the occult. That meant my books on witchcraft, gods and goddesses, my Buddha statues, crystals, tarot cards, and much more. I knew that witchcraft was not something to trifle with, because it was dangerous. It was allowing darkness into my life and my home, and I was done with the darkness. Done. The darkness had done nothing good for me ever, but Jesus had given me life and hope.

For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins. Colossians 1:13-14

So that year we took that entire box of Halloween decorations and dumped it all in the trash where it belonged. I knew Halloween was a high holy day for witches and Satanists, because I had celebrated it many times as a witch myself. I had even done spells and rituals on this holy of holy nights. Halloween is when witches see the veil between the world at its thinnest, and they do rituals to contact the dead. They also use this time to celebrate death, because in the pagan culture, death is not the end of life, but the beginning of life in another world.

The next year on Halloween, I began to speak out about my testimony of how I broke free from witchcraft and that Halloween ia actually a pagan celebration. I was so passionate about sharing the truth with the world, because I didn’t want to see people getting sucked into the lies of the devil. So many people, Christians and non Christians alike, love Halloween. They get caught up in the season of Halloween, which is full of dressing up, parties, goodies, and other fun things. Little do they know that they are actually being a party to witchcraft in the process.

I remember last year speaking to a woman who was a satanic ritual abuse survivor and being so worried for her as she told me how difficult October is for her every year. I couldn’t quite understand why, but I knew that the increase of witchcraft activity must have a part to play in it. I learned more about the Satanic aspect of Halloween and the sacrificial murders that happen on this night. Yet it still seemed so far away from my own reality.

‘You shall not give any of your offspring to offer them to Molech, nor shall you profane the name of your God; I am the LORD.

Leviticus 18:21

It was just about that time last year that I began to have my own memories of being abused and tortured in satanic rituals as a child. I was barely coming to terms with it even being real for me as the memories slowly came in every week. It has taken me an entire year to process and understand and come to grips with some pretty intense truths about myself and this world we live in. One of those being that Halloween is far more than just a pagan holiday where witchcraft is prevalent.

It was only recently that God took me into a memory of being in a satanic ritual on Halloween. I cannot even say how many Halloweens I was forced to be involved in rituals on Halloween, as I am taking my time going through as the Holy Spirit wills. What the Holy Spirit has shown me was being taken into a satanic ritual at the tender age of 3. I don’t think any person can truly fathom the reality and the evil of a satanic ritual, and I do not intend to ever go into great detail about them, but I am going to explain enough so that you can have a better understanding.

Satanic rituals are not new to our world. They have been around for thousands of years, and they are talked about in the Bible, when people were sacrificing their children to the god Molech. Molech is the god of human sacrifice, and he is highly worshiped in satanic cults, along with many other gods and goddesses. Molech is a demon, not a god, and he is controlled by Satan himself. In ancient times satanic rituals were done out in the open where anyone could see. They were not hidden. But times have changed and the rituals have not stopped, they just had to be moved into places where it would not be detected.

And he burned his son as an offering and used fortune-telling and omens and dealt with mediums and with necromancers. He did much evil in the sight of the Lord, provoking him to anger.

2 Kings 21:6

All satanic rituals have one main purpose: to align people with the kingdom of darkness, so they can be filled with evil and be used to carry out the works of the devil. The devil has to do this, because what else does he have to gain power? No one would openly align themselves with the devil over darkness, when they know the Truth of the goodness of God. No, the devil always resorts to lies and deceptions in order to steal away God’s people, and he targets the most innocent first.

I remember quite clearly on this particular Halloween night getting dressed up and going to my Grandmother’s house with my parents. I was excited to show her my costume and go trick or treating. I had a Donnie Osmond doll with me. On my own I can recall nothing more. Yet here is what the Holy Spirit revealed to me. My parents told me before we went around the neighborhood we were going to go by the church (Mormon Church) for a fall festival there. The church was very close to my grandmother’s house, and I knew so from going often.

We went to the church and what happened next made my blood curdle. I was given candy, but that was just a preclude to the sexual abuse that would happen in a satanic ritual. On Halloween Satanists use young children, such as myself, as sexual idols to worship. Other children receive a far worse fate. Death. I know for some this is more than you can even think to believe, but it is true. I can barely write these words because the pain of the truth is almost more than I can bear. If it wasn’t for the grace and love of Jesus Christ, I would not even be here writing this at all.

And God raised us up with Christ and seated us with him in the heavenly realms in Christ Jesus, 7 in order that in the coming ages he might show the incomparable riches of his grace,expressed in his kindness to us in Christ Jesus.

Ephesians 2:6-7

Why would anyone do such sick things to a child? There are a lot of reasons really. Most likely they are acting from what they know; their own sadistic abuse. Satanism doesn’t just all of a sudden show up. It gets implanted and takes roots and grows over time. It starts off small and infects everyone around it who isn’t grounded in Christ and able to see the truth of the evil around them. That is why Satan starts with children. If he can do this to small children, then they will grow up and do it to children themselves. That is what Satan’s plan was for me.

There are many churches that are going to have just the same type of rituals on Halloween night. Christian churches, Catholic churches, and more. Satan does not care what your religious beliefs are, he only cares that he can get a door in. Once he gets that door open, he is in for good, because the deception is just so deep. If we as a society cannot see that this happens, or refuse to believe it could be true, then no wonder Satan is in so deeply.

We have to be willing to open our eyes to the world around us. Satan has come to steal, kill and destroy, and he is doing it by masking it as peace, love and light. Yet the Bible makes it clear Satan will come in disguise as an angel of light. As long as we keep deciding to turn our backs to these sort of truths, we are going to continue to be held captive in this world. I am not alone in this abuse. Hundreds of thousands of others are just like me, and have been subjected to torment on Halloween night. And many more will also be tortured and murdered on Halloween as every year passes. The only difference between myself and most other victims is, I chose to allow God to bring me healing and remember it. I could not have done it without Jesus. It would be impossible.

He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, that we might die to sin and live to righteousness. By his wounds you have been healed.

1 Peter 2:24

Halloween night is a night full of rituals, but also witchcraft. Witches and Satanists of all kinds get together in groups and perform rituals and also do spells and astral travel. This means that Halloween night is so full of witchcraft that it is basically impossible not to feel the effects of it. Most people do not understand what witchcraft feels like, so they have no idea. There is literally so much witchcraft going on that night that it is overtaking the world. That means that every single person that is participating in any type of Halloween activity on Halloween night is actually in agreement with all the rituals and witchcraft.

That means when we take our kids out to trick or treat, or to a fall festival or even to a costume party, we are coming into agreement with Halloween and what it is. We are not only teaching our children that Halloween is good and safe, but we are inadvertently allowing them to be aligned with darkness. In the laws of the spiritual realm, that is all it takes to make an agreement, or covenant. It is very important we stop looking at the world for just the physical nature of it, and start realizing that there is a spiritual side that encompasses every aspect of everything. Do we want to come into agreement with ritual abuse of children or witchcraft? I know, I do not.

Halloween is still a very difficult time for me, as I am faced with constant reminders about my abuse as I drive through the neighborhood or go to any stores. They are all filled with Halloween decorations, especially decorations of skulls, witches and other such things, that are directly related to satanic abuse for me. I used to love Halloween because so much of me was aligned with darkness. Now I am finding incredible levels of freedom, and Halloween can never hold anything fun or good to me ever again.

See to it that no one takes you captive by philosophy and empty deceit, according to human tradition, according to the elemental spirits of the world, and not according to Christ.

Colossians 2:8


Jesus has been absolutely central in my finding freedom, redemption and healing from my pain and my own personal hell. He has shown me a love like I have never known before in my entire life. He has shown me that His love is something that is pure and untainted, and that I am indeed special and valuable to God. Even more so, that I am wanted and precious in God’s eyes. How amazing is that. Once I had a taste of that love, I had to have more. That is what has led me to healing. Wanting more of Jesus Christ and His all-consuming love.

There may be evil in this world, but nothing is bigger than the power of the Almighty. The devil may have infiltrated churches, or taken over an entire night to align people unwittingly with darkness, but that can never change the truth of who God is. He is the King, and in the end He will wear the Victor’s Crown. The devil can try as he might to corrupt God’s people, but behind the scenes God is working relentlessly to save us all. If it hadn’t been for Jesus, I would have been completely corrupted, and on my way to hell. Jesus protected my spirit, which is eternal, so it could be with Him forever.

As hard as knowing all this abuse has happened to me, and even reliving it through flashbacks, I am thankful for it all. If it hadn’t been for this abuse, I could not be here right now telling about it. Which means so many others who have endured this life of hell and had no idea why, would never see the hope that lies in their own freedom. It also means that so many people who have been held captive to the lies of the devil would never be awakened to the truth. And it also means that there is a hope that children can start to be saved from this horrible abuse that is happening to them, and lives can be saved. All of this is because of the hope and the love of Jesus Christ. I am so very thankful for that.

Take no part in the unfruitful works of darkness, but instead expose them.

Ephesians 5:11

I pray for each person reading this that you are absolutely burdened with the truth, but absolutely freed with complete hope in restoration. We have to start now to work together, to love each other and build each other up in order to spread God’s message of love. The devil wants to spread fear and hate, but we need to remember it was love that saved us. God’s love did not stop on the cross. God’s love is so powerful that it will redeem more hearts and minds than the devil can ever hope to corrupt. He is good, and the devil cannot stop that goodness from spreading like a wildfire throughout this world, not matter how bad things look. We just have to learn who to focus on. Jesus. He is the giver of life and hope and truth. We need to turn our eyes to Him and see where He is asking us to go, and then surrender ourselves just enough so we can begin to follow Him. No matter how hard it is.

Jesus is safe. He is trustworthy. He is patient and steadfast in abounding love. If He weren’t then I would be dead. Yet I am alive! I am alive in Christ and hopeful in salvation to the utmost ends of this earth. God is willing that none should perish, not even one. He is working my loves! He is working for you, and everyone you know, to bring them into the rightness of a relationship with the Father. He is working at drawing you near and offering you hope from your affliction. It is only through Jesus that we as people can begin to make drastic changes in this world and tear down every stronghold the devil has made. And it all starts with love.

Love yourself enough to allow God to speak into your heart right now, no matter how hard it seems, and let Him bring you the truth. He will never bring you to a place that is more than you can bear, and He will never violate you, ever. He is good. Open up to Him now, and hear His truth. Receive His love. Bask in His goodness. He is worthy it. All of it. I love you all. <3

For I desire loyalty and not sacrifice, the knowledge of God rather than burnt offerings.

Hosea 6:6

Originally posted October 10, 2016


  • Shari

    I don’t know you but I’m so incredibly proud of you. To share your story and your abuse. May God bless you greatly As you speak the truth about the Darkside. Love from Cedarburg WI

  • Stephen Miller

    In 2011 I learned of rituals being performed in the church and what some of those rituals consist of. A preschool child told me, w/o my asking or prompting, that they were placed in a large plastic bag, told to pray to Jesus for help then dipped into water and let out of the bag. The child was then asked ‘did you pray to Jesus?’ The child answered yes then was told ‘Jesus didn’t help you but Satan helped you.’ Another time the child was taken to a different kind of party called a ‘touch party’ where adults get to touch children in any way the adult pedophiles want. Before I knew any of this the child would sometimes say, ‘I hate Jesus.’ There was also a christus at our house that the child would break the fingers off of which along with other behaviours I thought was pretty odd. If anyone is under the misimpression that these abuses don’t affect children I know from my own observations that it certainly does. This stuff can be found on google and please don’t neglect to look up the ‘Pace Memo’ and the book 22 Faces. God Bless Those Who Are Being Victimized.

  • bluesuede

    Thanks be to God for your deliverance!
    Thank you for taking the love of God to others.
    May God give you continued grace to proclaim His love to a very sick world.

  • Mariette

    Where I’m from (small town in South Africa) halloween was not widely known when I was a child and only recent years have it become bigger and bigger. I now live in a different country where halloween is huge. It is a big discussion amongst my friends as alot of them feel it is “harmless fun” and “worth it to see the kids’ faces light up when they receive candy and get to dress-up” to quote them directly. They all say that they are with their children during trick or treating and nothing “bad” is going to happen to them and no one will abduct them to be used in rituals. For me the deeper spiritual connection to this event is not something that I ever want to associate with or open myself or my child’s life to for even just a tiny bit. For this reason we do not celebrate halloween.

    • Mariette

      Oh and I forgot to add – God bless you for speaking up! May sharing your experience, along with the Holy Spirit’s intervention, open the eyes of so many that are being deceived. May God continue to heal you throughout your journey!

      • Mariette

        Ok so I have now read more of your blog posts and understand where your parents were. My heart bleeds – for you and so many other people and small children who this is being done to 🙁

  • Stephen Chukwuemeka

    This is great, I pray that Holy Spirit will open the eyes of Christians and non Christian to understand the danger and harm Halloween cause in their life, and repent turn to Jesus Christ to be save.

  • Pamela Woodall

    I sat here in the early morning reading your blog post to my husband as I wept. You echoed so very much of my own personal experience. I was dedicated to satan as a innocent three year old girl-child during a ceremony way in the backwoods under the shadow of night.
    I choose on purpose to give my Abba, God Almighty, all the praise and glory for who I am and not acknowledge the evil one!
    If it weren’t for my relationship with Jesus Christ I would probably be dead or in an insane asylum!
    The things I have seen and done no person should ever have to experience. But God!!!
    He has lead me into His glorious freedom!
    He has saved me and set me free to speak the truth, His truth!
    Thank you for speaking truth! You are not alone!
    God bless you!!!

  • Charles Kingsley

    I strongly believe that Halloween is Evil.Christians should never celebrate this evil against the Lord Jesus Christ, who suffered for us. Every Christmas season parents send their innocent children wearing masks and hood, to knock incessantly at my door, asking for money and presents. Of course, I have never dared to open the door to welcome them. Christians must not condone this evil. Be aware of PENETRATION!Cover yourself in the BlOOD of JESUS. JESUS IS LORD!

  • Claire Buell

    How can I approach this subject to my mother, brother, and sister in law? They are Christians but refuse to believe that Halloween is anything but a harmless night of fun. My brother has three children ages 8,4,and 2.

        • Marilyn Berry

          I think some people don’t see the truth because they are afraid
          to believe such things happen.
          I would like to talk about number 16 in the question and answer
          I have 3 human spirits that come up to my door and I frequently
          get attacked by a spirit- mild rape spirit, burning throat,
          burns on my feet, legs, chest, poked in the chest, crushing
          in my sternum. I made the mistake of speaking to these human spirits Now some spirits in contact with me are kind to me. I had trouble with my Roku and the spirit said it would come on
          tomorrow and it did. I think it is 1 spirit that physically attacks me. one of the human spirits hates me because she wants to be thin like me. Well I weigh about 129 pounds and I guess she weighs more. I honestly don’t know her. I have tried
          talking to her out loud through the spirit world suggesting diet tips- but I think I should not be talking to any human spirit. I need to repent of that. Also she and her brother would come up to my door in the spirit world and harass me.
          I made the mistake of telling them that they need to repent and if they didn’t they would go to to hell. I was in bondage to anger toward them and fear of what they would do.
          Anyway the woman said I put a curse on her so I think she sent a demon to harass me.

          If a person does not believe that witchcraft is happening
          maybe they can only take a little bit of information at a time. Maybe you could also say- could you pray for me or a friend of mine in reguard to a special prayer request.

        • Aria

          Sorry Claire, I know the love and fascination by it I can understand it. However, it’s not innocent or harmless kids get abducted throughout this time because of Halloween much more than anything else. There’s something in Christianity that lets you see things more clearly, more clearer than anyone else. Let your brother raise his kids this way, it is correctly done. I too was raised like this and I am glad. The gift of God and the upbringing in Christianism is better then anything life can give you. You should look into the history of Halloween on your own. It is disgusting and kids dressing up is only a way to help pedophiles get off from it. Best wishes! seriously look into it …

  • Jennifer

    Beautiful post just packed full of the TRUTH! May the Lord continue to heal and comfort you along your courageous journey. Your blog has really spoken to me. All Glory to Him – we serve a truly awesome GOD!

  • Rachael

    My church (as many are) is doing an event called light the night for Halloween; games, candy, etc. Ive been mustering up the courage to tell them I cant volunteer for it. I have never been ritually abused but the more I turned to Christ I became more and more sensitive to what Im exposed to. I used to watch very violent movies and think nothing of it but now I just sense how much reality there is in it and I literally feel ill. My spirit goes nuts in October (I live in LA and witchcraft is the spiritual undertone here.) I literally dont feel well though in Oct and I know its because of the weight of whatever the heck is being practiced all around the city. People animals disappear, there are brutal murders reported and people dont seem to notice this as unusual increase D: … Anyway, thank you for your perspective. It has helped me have more backing to explain myself when I say no to the volunteering.

    • Marilyn Berry

      About the most violent stuff I watch on TV or Roku is “Murder she wrote and “Matlock” and “Diagnoses Murder”
      I do not have cable TV- I like situation comedy- Last night I watched “Frasier on TV. I bought PVC antennas on Ebay and with 3 PVC antennas I get 44 channels. I also like to watch game shows. On Roku I like to watch 1950’s TV like “Ozzie and Harriet
      “Donna Reed”. I don’t think I would like to live in L.A. from what you have said- I also like music and I listen to a variety on Pandora- you have to be careful about the music you listen too. Some types of music is dangerous. -Oh this world- there is always something scarey-‘Hurricane Matthew”
      witchcraft- God never promised us no trouble but if we ask His help each day- H will help us. Daniel O’Donnel is singing right now on Pandora. I have a New testament Bible- a hymnal book and a Bible Promise book and I receive Christian emails
      that I have subscribed to. On my TV I get Daystar Christian
      station. On Roku I can get TBN, Daystar- and other types of programs on Roku- Witchcraft is scary. I scare easily- I
      am still afraid of “The twilight zone.

    • Marie

      I was convicted of Halloween after getting married. I have children who have never participated as I did when I was a kid. We treat this day like any other day…no harvest parties or Light the Night as our church hosted for the community. It’s sad when you have to explain to your children why we don’t participate in any of it, while the other Christians at church do. I have taught them how most farmers don’t harvest their crops on Oct. 31st… 😉 and have taught them what happens on this particular day. We instead, fast candy and pray for people affected by this day, including innocent children like the author of this article. We keep our lights on and go about our evening as usual. I know folks who hand out tracts for any kid that comes their way to trick-or-treat as an outreach. I feel that that’s participating in the ‘treat’ part of it. I don’t even want to say, “I’m sorry but we don’t celebrate…” because I am not sorry. I think being honest is best…telling them we don’t participate and that Jesus loves you. We do not have any kids that come by anyway and I am thankful for that. But back to the Light the Night…I never agreed with that. That was clearly an addition to the trick-or-treat scene in our town. The church invited the community which their times ran after the treating event was done downtown. That’s a complete add-on. No tracts, no Jesus talk. Just loving on the cute lil’ trick-or-treaters. You know participating in this high day. I am sure people (other Christians) may think I am different, but I cannot participate or volunteer for something that is still dark…no matter how much light you put out. I find it confusing for church kids as well. We have this pastor who stood in the pulpit one Sunday saying ‘we don’t celebrate Halloween’…but bring in bags of candy for our Light the Night. You had church kids dressed up for Halloween. What did he say? His wife was dressed up for an event a week prior to the 31st as well.
      I am thankful for this article. One of the best I have read from someone who knows firsthand what Halloween truly means.
      God bless!

    • Marilyn Berry

      Your welcome- and I just remembered when my nieces and nephews were little – the news about some people putting dangerous object in the children’s Halloween candy – stuff like needles and pins. My sisters and brother wouldn’t let their kids go out for Halloween and I don’t blame them one bit.

      • Megan

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