Healing,  My Salvation

Making Your Way Out of the Pit

pitWhen you are down in the pit, there is only one way to go: Up. I have been down in the pit for a long time. I’m not sure when I first fell into the pit, but it seems like its been more like a rabbit hole, where I just kept falling and falling, endlessly. It wasn’t until I started doing my inner healing that I finally landed at the bottom of the pit. It was where I had a firm place to land finally, and allow Jesus to bring me into safety.

Free falling for my whole life has been terrifying at best. I have never known what was going to happen next, or if I was ever going to be OK. I only knew that everything inside of me was chaos, and everything outside of me was torture. Only Jesus was able to soothe the chaos of my soul so I could stop falling and finally have hope. Hope had been elusive to me my entire life, yet here I am, bringing the hope of Jesus to everyone else. What a miracle He is.

Even though Jesus brought me to a place where I could stop falling, I was still at the bottom of the pit. The pit is just as scary as the endless rabbit hole. It is dark, it is lonely, and your never sure if you will actually make it out. Yet Jesus brought His light into that pit, and that is where hope entered in. Hope said, you are going to make it through this and see that all of this will indeed bring you something good. After a life with little goodness, it was hard to hang on to that thread of hope.

But he answered, “It is written, “‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.’”

Matthew 4:4

It was the firm foundation in the bottom of that pit that allowed me the stability to completely fall apart. That may sound counter intuitive, but it was exactly what I needed. I had tried so hard to keep it all together for so long I didn’t realize I was single-handedly trying to hold each one of the pieces of my broken soul in place. Once I was able to let go, Jesus was able to come in, and His Holy Spirit was able to start doing the job I had been doing all on my own; holding me together.

It was only in that place of brokenness that I was able to start giving Jesus my soul, one piece at a time. Once I began to see that Jesus was indeed safe, I was able to hand over chunks instead of pieces. Two years later I am no longer at the bottom of the pit, but climbing my way back out. It has been a long and intense journey, but I am finally on the upside. I am nowhere near done, but I am no longer drowning in the deep end either.

It can be a scary place, going into a journey of the inner most recesses of your soul. You have no idea what you are going to find there, you only know it’s probably going to be ugly. And worse than having to deal with it yourself, is allowing God to see it as well. Who wants to air all the dirty laundry of the dark places they’ve been hiding to the One who created everything? It seems far to shameful and painful to do.

Instead of your shame there shall be a double portion; instead of dishonor they shall rejoice in their lot; therefore in their land they shall possess a double portion; they shall have everlasting joy.

Isaiah 61:7

Jesus is not ashamed or afraid of these dark places. He is the light and He brings hope. Without Jesus, those dark places inside our soul are going to flourish instead of diminish. They are like a stagnant pond that mosquitoes breed in and it just keeps growing and growing. If we want to bring healing into our hearts, we need to allow the Son to come upon the darkness and wash it all away; just as though it has never been.

That is exactly what Jesus can and will do, if we would only allow Him. We cannot hide from the King of Kings. He sees and knows all, including our deepest and darkest secrets. There is no hiding from the One who created us, and we shouldn’t have too. Only the lies that we are ugly and terrible keep us from His truths, which will bring us the freedom that we so desperately desire.

I know the pain and shame that come. I know the fear and the denial that they bring. Yet these things are not born of God, nor are they born of His love for us. The love of God will drive out fear, pain, and shame, and bring us into the light. Instead of cultivating a cesspool within ourselves, we grow a beautiful garden. Our garden of trust, and love and truth, that will be a sweet-smelling sacrifice to our Lord.

But now thus says the Lordhe who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. 

Isaiah 43:1-2

Love is what overcomes all evil. There is no evil too great for the power of love. God’s love with break down every barrier, slay every enemy, steal back every victory we lost, and reclaim every promise. Our Father wants to do all of this for us, we just have to be willing to walk with Him. He never promised the walk would be easy. What He did promise was that He would be right there, in the midst of all of it, bringing us out of the pit we have endured for so long. I am living proof of it.

So today, look out to the promised land and know that the God who led Abraham into His destiny, is the same God that will lead you into yours. The same God that stopped the sun and the moon in the sky, and brought the Midianites to their knees with jars and trumpets, is the same God who is going to protect you and fight for you. You are not alone, no matter how badly it feels. You are not going to stay in the pit forever, no matter how hopeless you feel. You are a son/daughter of the King, and He is right there with you, right now.

Believe in the hope and glory He has promised you, and fight for it. Never give up fighting to hear His voice, trust Him, believe in His promises, and seek His face. No matter how hard it is. You are worth the price He paid, every drop of it.

On this mountain the Lord of hosts will make for all peoples
    a feast of rich food, a feast of well-aged wine,
    of rich food full of marrow, of aged wine well refined.
And he will swallow up on this mountain
    the covering that is cast over all peoples,
    the veil that is spread over all nations.
   He will swallow up death forever;
and the Lord God will wipe away tears from all faces,
    and the reproach of his people he will take away from all the earth,
    for the Lord has spoken.
 It will be said on that day,
    “Behold, this is our God; we have waited for him, that he might save us.
    This is the Lord; we have waited for him;
    let us be glad and rejoice in his salvation.”

Isaiah 25:6-9


  • Eric Snowden

    Thank you Sister for your Testimony and your Willingness to Share! Your Blog has been a Great Encouragement to me over the last couple of years. I know that God is Working on me and there is a lot of Inner Healing that the Holy Spirit must do in me! By listening to your Testimony and the process of your Inner Healing. It has Encouraged me so much. Thank you once again.

  • terri jo

    Today I experienced an extreme raging outburst, triggered by a relatively little thing between me and my spouse. It overtakes me. It unnerves my spouse. I leaned over the sink and closed my eyes, and said over and over again, “Please help me Jesus”. My husband and I discussed afterwards how quickly it all happens. We talked about strategies like: 1) stop talking about whatever it is. 2) He can also ask the Lord to help me as I ask Him. 3) Both stop the emotional reactive banter and keep quiet. I recognize these outbursts as triggered attacks from the enemy. I have had them all my life but never knew what they were. I blamed myself, and was filled with intense shame guilt sorrow and hopelessness. NO MORE.Thank you Jesus, thank you Father God, and continuing to allow the Holy Spirit to course through my veins. WE SHALL OVERCOME

      • terri jo

        Thank you Beth, I find that Christian therapy is not something I have heard of in my neck of the woods and Christian inner healing sounds remarkable. Under no circumstances will I ever have reiki healing, therapeutic touch, spirit readings, chakra cleansing or any other new age nonsense. My story is similar to yours: new age, spiritism, looking for love in all the wrong places, blood rituals, molestation, violence and trauma. I am free of alcohol and drugs for 19 years now, addiction kept me sicker even still from 13 yrs to 39 years old. I am seeking deliverance right now to for all my participation in spiritism/nature /sun worshipping ceremonies blood piercing and generational trauma on both parents’ sides. One day at a time, one month at a time, one year at a time! I have faith, I trust Father God through my Lord and savior Jesus Christ. Keep on going Christian Soldier, I am praying for you and your family, Beth

        • The Other Side of Darkness

          Have you had a deliverance session? I work with a deliverance ministry that is incredibly powerful. Their info is on my deliverance page. I highly recommend you begin with this in depth deliverance session.

          • terri jo

            Thank you Beth, I will contact them. I saw your blog category on deliverance right after I wrote this, and you mentioned Four Corners Free. Yes, I need deliverance badly, or is it, I need it goodly. Thank you again, your experience, transparency, courage, blogs and youtube videos have changed my life. I see a light at the end of the tunnel. God blessings

  • Karina Hart

    How come you’re still doing inner healing? Are you still going through some stuff on the inside?

  • terri jo

    Thank you Beth. I relate to the pit. Until 18 months ago, I did not know it was the pit of hell, a pit layered with misery controlled by the enemy. I thought it was all my past, my abusers, my ‘choices’ to sedate with chemicals….. Now I am learning of the dark, with your help, and the help of my friends at a church, and of course, learning The Word. The Light of Jesus is the only thing that was able to wash away all that shame pain blame guilt sorrow obsession and relentless symptoms of PTSD. Thank you for your willingness to help Jesus by putting your experience on your sleeve. God blessing from a sister in Christ from Canada. xo Terri Jo